Realizing Avalon

I had realized I wasn't normal after I had sent the nuke down to Avalon. All at once the names of the innocents I killed rained inside my head, It wasn't painful or anything it was just an information overload. Something that felt completely natural and unnatural. My kill count had hit the millions something like 30 million and a few thousand. It was terrifying to know that with a single press of a button I had killed more than 300 times my original kill count. After that they told me to go back to my quarters and that I had proved myself.