Resolution

I woke up, and find myself lying on a cliff. I then sit up and look at the surrounding, confused. At that moment a memory suddenly surfaced and crashed into my mind like a giant wave sweeping away my consciousness slowly driving me insane. Suddenly a gray light descended from nowhere and help me to get a hold of myself, and like that I'm starting to remember it piece by piece.

I remember how I promised my sister that I would return after passed my test, I remember about how I walk away from home with so much confidence before get stopped and nearly got killed by Li Yanfei, and.. I remember how I..

What happened then? How I couldn't remember it? Even after I try to remember it.. I just can't remember about it. But somehow, I felt there's more thing that happened before. I try to remember it once again, but nothing surfaced.. I then decided to forget about it. But suddenly, that grey light from before appeared once again.

Thump!

A scene, suddenly played in my head; a scene akin to the world ending where everything in chaos and disturbance. Then I see myself in the center of that destruction, screaming and vowing like a madman who forgot about the world and full of selfishness mourning about his tragic fate in this world. Well, it couldn't be said as an act of selfishness, even an animal would let their contempt to the world when they're about to die. Not to mention a human, a creature with higher intelligence. Would do anything to protect themselves. But even so, I still felt guilty as that scene of destruction keeps playing inside my head. I could only apologize for every victims of that tragedy because as much as I wish to return everything. I just couldn't do so, I really feel powerless about what had happened. I know, I might be foolish to wish to return everything back. Such, why do I want to save those of my enemies when I couldn't even save myself from them? And why do I felt sorry for them? Well, I believe that not everyone's be my enemies cause they want to antagonize me. Some of them might be dragged or be manipulated by others. So, I might be the villain by their perspective. But it's not like I didn't know the price of saving them were myself and the others on my side. So.., I suppose this is a good outcome for me. But then, if I could save them without losing anything myself I would certainly do so; yes it sounds greedy and hypocritical but I couldn't help it. I couldn't even do anything about it that I lost my pseudo-potential which turned out to be true. Even the Heaven itself afraid of it. Haha.. ha.. ha.

And like that, my inner thoughts gone wild with my ideals conflicting with each other as I watch that scene which playing inside my mind full of tears. It's not until that scene ended that I find clarity and keep myself hold together.

"Haah.."

I sighed as I got up. Right now I couldn't change anything that had happened. If there's a way to pay for what I've done, then I would do so. But if there isn't then I guess I would live my life as usual. Well, I can't cultivate after this anyway, so there's no meaning to take the test at all. Guess I would go home then.

Oh sister.. Please forgive this useless big brother of yours.

Resolution End