Gangster

It was the first time he had been asked something like this, and you would think that his answer would be in the affirmative after all he had gone through, but in truth, he was left absolutely and utterly speechless. 

"I don't know," answered Xiajun after a while. "I've never really, well. . . I've never really thought about it."

"Come on," Duan Gen laughed, although there was no humor in it. "You must have thought at some point in your life that, 'Hey! That bridge looks cool. I should probably jump off of it!'"