09.The Letter.

30/06/1992,

Papaa,

You gave me feathers to fly

for my dreams

you gave me a breath

so

Thank You papa

Thank you so much..

Papaa, from the day I birth you gave me so many things to my life, everything I asked and everything I didn't ask. I know you have the courage to do everything for me. I know you're the only one person who wants to see my happiness as well as my mum. I did so many mischievous things in my life. I know, now also you're ready to accept me. Both of you had thousand of excuses for me more than I thought.

Sometimes I failed my exams, competitions and so many things. So many people insulted me. But both of you became my strength. I knew If I did anything wrong, you accept me.Papaa, I know you are the person who knows everything

about me, you know the things what I need in my life. I know you believe me.. Yahh I also believe you, until my last breath. But I have so many things in my mind right now. I can't tell everything by looking at your face, because I'm dump in front of you. That's why I wrote this letter. Now I'm 23 years old. As everyone says, this is the best age to marry. Did you remember, the days we put down? The day you business went down rapidly. Those days we didn't have anything. Those days anyone look at me. After making your status, everyone cares about us. Especially about me. WHY??? Because of true love?? Ahh.. Why did Mrs.Shanthi marry you?? Is it real love?? No Papaa.. It is for your money. From those days I got so many proposals. For

what?? Because of dowry. As well as nowadays everyone searching a girls with fair in complexion, the girl has good education to educate their babies, the girl has good family background and good dowry. They like the girl without siblings most. That's the reality Papaa.. You need to give everything to your daughter and you have to give big dowry for the person who is marring your daughter. I feel it is as the insurance for her life. With this everything she wants to sacrifice her dreams, her needs for a man. I don't understand what is this life??

Papaa, I have a question. Did you educate me for a

boy? If I knew it I'll never learn. I wasn't learning for a

boy? I learn very hard because I love it and for my dream and carrier. I'm really sorry about your target of my education. I didn't educate myself for a boy or a marriage. I'm sorry Papaa I can't agree with you in this time. I don't wanna marry right now. As well as how can others decide the most important decision in my life? It is wanted to decide by me. In this world, some girls like to marry, Everyday they dreaming about the wedding, delivering babies, preparing foods and so on. That type of girl wants to marry as soon as possible. I agree with it. Parents want to understand her feeling and must give maximum support for life. Because that is the thing want their life. Some girls want to be a priest. They find happy and satisfaction in that life. So any one who likes to be priest how is she adjusting for a marriage life?? Some girls want to success their life with her carrier. They worked hard. She passed so many sleepless nights for her dream. Because her

life is her goal not the others. They are very dedicative. They work while others sleeping. So How can society decide as "Every girl want to marry at age 23", "Every girls must deliver babies" So HOW??

So Papaa, Everyone is different. Please understand

it. We are not same. Everyone is unique. So without asking our feelings, without knowing our dreams, without understanding our hearts, how can parents, elders, some boys decide our lives. We are not furniture or goods to share. We are also mankind. Just understand that. We have own life. Elders, parents, brothers, sisters everyone can advice, can be supportive, can be strength, can be a guider

BUT anyone can't be the decider, owner or holder of our lives. Because I'm the owner of my life. Papaa.

Another thing, the lady has major three reasons to

marry. First one is LOVE. Second one is necessity. Third one if for elderly life. Majority of people marry because of love. I agree with that 100%. According to my view, that's the most appropriate condition for marry. Some girls marry for their necessity, benefits and to be settling their lives. Another one is the girls worrying their old age. Anyhow without love affection, feeling on an man, how does a girl give everything to man? How does she bear that pain? How can I remove my clothes? How can I give my permission to

touch me? Papaa.., Without my interest, love and affection if you'll tie the knot with a man it's like you give your written permission to that man to abuse me. Can you give your permission for that?? I can't do it. Don't ask it me. I have to have a reason for that. That reason must be the love. Because of that reason only I'll marry.

Every lady does do so many scarifies for a man.

Especially Asian ladies. Lots of ladies patience their pains, sorrows, troubles for their love. It's ok. They make their mind to do everything to that person who loves. They are happy after seeing their husband's happiness. That happiness is their world. That is satisfaction of their life. But some ladies are dying every day. Without having option, they live as dead bodies. They make fake smiles in front the society. But their inside is burning. Without telling their own interest they are keeping silent forever. Why?? Papaa.. I don't want to be like that.

Papaa, I don't like family life. I'm really afraid the

pains those ladies are suffering. I don't want to be a just a housewife. I don't want to be a machine of someone else. I don't want to be a puppet. In short, I need a family life with the person I love. After that only I'll be a traditional lady. Papaa, there is a saying "Every father cannot be a Dad." I agree with that 100%. Lang time ago, you're the best dad in the world. But nowadays you're a just father. What happened to my dad? I wanna see him back. Please father, bring my dad quickly. Because you're daughter suffering with so many troubles. I don't have enough strength to face those things and I'm alone here. No one with me Papaa. How can you stay like that? Please come

back.

I love you

I really miss you

And

I'm sorry..

Your loving

Daughter,

Maya.