Lesson 23: Use of emotion

As a little boy, from my own point of view, I was easily manipulated. I had trouble controling my anger, it would usually reach a boiling point. I would scratch my face to the point that it was beat red, because i was so angry. But my family saw me as a quiet, calmly collected kid. I even used to partly listen to my urges. But now if I get angry I try to go to my room and not get yelled at for going in there. I have locked up my urges in a sense. And I act differently at school then I do at home. I no longer feel love for my family like I did when I was little, it went from love to indifference to hate. Yet still in some small way I still care about them. I don't feel much joy, I feel more anger and sadness. I personally don't think i'll ever love someone, truly love them that is. The best thay can hope for is indifference with a little bit of caring. I don't feel much emotion at age 15.