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We just sat and I opened my Instagram. There were 2 notifications that somebody wants to follow me. I opened one of the profiles. And suddenly Talia and Eira talked at the same time.

Eira&Talia: 2 more followers?!

Atlas: Strange, I also got 2...

Cheonsa: Me, too. Same, 2 ones? @maia_8 and @enya.3?

Eira&Talia: Yes!

Atlas: Angel, these two are real soulmates, believe!

Cheonsa: Is this our subject, Atlas? Ok, whatever! What if one of them is that pervert bastard?

Talia: Uh! Why would he put his name as Maia or Enya just to follow 4 of us?

Atlas: And plus, why you are thinking of him always!

Cheonsa: Ugh, what then? After our performance yesterday, we couldn't have had 2 student fans, right?

X: Hey, everything is possible if you believe!

Cheonsa: Ugh, what?

X(2): Hello, guys! First of all, it is possible, no, not possible, directly, you can have 2 fans! And that ones are us! Me and Maia!

Maia: Hello!

Enya: Yeah, actually, we are fans of everything!

Talia: Woah! Already having fans?!

Atlas: Am I also included in this stuff?

Enya: Haha, you are on the top of our list, handsome guy!

After the sudden praise, Atlas definitely turned into a tomato, by blushing! Haha, you should see him, just right now!

Eira: Hey, don't stand, girls, here, have sits.

Enya: Thanks, Eira!

Talia: You already know our names?

Maia: You put your names on your Instagram accounts, it is easy. Hehe!

Enya: Guys, please don't go anywhere, I am just going to bring our stupid 3rd!

Atlas: Where can we go?

Enya left the canteen, as she said she wen to take their 3rd. Oh my, it is strange to call someone "3rd"!

Cheonsa: So are you going to tell us about how you became our "fans"?

Maia: Uh, right! Just we were so blown away with your performance, Angel! And we searched your names on Instagram. Just as a luck we found you! Plus, you had your photos on your pps (profile pictures)!

Cheonsa: That wasn't so a big deal.

Maia: And, we heard that you love K-pop, too.

Cheonsa: I came from inside of that K-pop!

Maia: No, no, I already know that you are from Korea and some other things, we just heard you while you were talking, yesterday.

Atlas: Hey, it is a shame to listen to someone secretly.

Maia: I said, we "heard", not "listened"!

Talia: Ok, so you are also in this k-fandom?

Maia: We already said that we are fans of everything. Enya meant that we love every band and group, so on. Especially, ECHO. We both huge ECHO-Ls. We already have all of their stuff and we have almost 3 fan accounts on Instagram! Each of us!

Eira: OMG, Talia, we used to say we were huge fans, I eat my words!

Just then, Enya and a boy came.

Enya: Guys, here this is Luca.

Atlas: Woah! You were the boy who hit me yesterday?

Luca: Hello, guys! Hey, I already apologized to that.

Eira: Give up your argument, right now! Hello, Luca, nice to meet you, my name is Eira!

Talia: I am Talia!

Luca: Nice to meet you girls.I already know you, Cheonsa, right?

Cheonsa: How do you all know me? With this sudden?

Maia: Don't you know? There some students studying twice this year! Luca is from that ones. He is my cousin.

Eira: Uh, I know 3, too. For example, Bellatrix and her bitc- sorry sorry, her friends, I meant!

Cheonsa: Wasn't she at the same age with us?

Talia: Yeah, but her one relative were our head teacher at the high school. She studied less from us. She had graduated a year before we did.

Cheonsa: Ok, hey, sit. Again you are standing.

Luca: Sure.

We all started talking. My friendship circle is growing. I was thinking about it, while others were talking about somethings.

Luca: Cheonsa, I mean, Angel, is that real?

Cheonsa: What's that "that"?

Luca: You, with Jimin?

Cheonsa: Guys, do you know where the announcement room? Man, I am tired of hearing this, already!

I stood up from my seat. I hit our table several times, to get attention.

Cheonsa: Can you all listen to me for a minute?

Everyone stopped talking. Then I heard some people also entered the canteen.

Cheonsa: Oh, I am so happy that needed people are here, too.

Those people were, some students that I didn't know, Bellatrix and her friends, and Jimin.

Cheonsa: I don't want to stop and answer every question anymore. So I'll say it once, listen carefully. Yes, I was Cheonsa. But I'm not anymore, you all will know me as Angel! I'm Kim Angel, nobody's girlfriend! I have no idea what was said to you guys in the last 2 years, but here you go, my answer! I'm nobody's girlfriend! If I hear gossip and talk about it again in the university, in the department, or anywhere else, I will not be content with just speaking as I did this time! Thank you for listening!

It was enough, I didn't sit on my chair and walked to the door where a crowd were standing. Jimin was standing on the front. I hit his shoulder while I was passing by. I went to the hall. It was empty, as I wished. This hall is opened only when there is a competition or kind of concerts and so on. Really, this time I was crying. And worse than anytime before. I am still surviving in his mistakes and deeds! But, why me!

Cheonsa: I hate you, Park Jimin! I hate you! More than Everything else! You are my only enemy!

I shouted but no one can hear me as this hall's walls were really thick.

Cheonsa: I wish you were dead! In his whole 2 years!

At the end of the stage, on the upper part of the wall, there was something like an iron protrusion. Rope behind the curtain on the stage, over a chair. I could do that, this time I'll be successful. There's no one and they can't find me. I will not fail like before. They can think whatever they think. If I can do that, I won't have to listen to them.

Cheonsa: So we're at the end, huh, Cheonsa? We will finally be saved!

I went and brought the chair under the ledge, made a loop from the string, and tied the end to the iron ledge. Did I have the courage? And endless courage. So did I want it? I don't know, if I die, everyone will be happy. If I don't die, I will only suffer. I had my head. Only one move left, the moment I knock the chair over, I'll slowly come to the end. First hot, then ice cold, and a body turning purple. A breathless girl. Another girl who committed suicide. Another life gone from the world. Another crushed person who couldn't live his life. No, I can't do that. There are people who will be upset! My oppas, my Unnis, my friends. But... there are some to rejoice, Bellatrix, Jimin, and the girls at school who fell in love with Jimin. Love... loving... These words once implied so much to me... they just reminded me of him. Why do I think of him every time?! Just forget, that's all!

I got off the chair and sat in the first seat of the second row. My hands were covering my face, which had endless tears. My eyes, as always, were not holding back my tears. They were allowed to flow. In a song BTJ was saying, "I should love myself"... I can't love, I always blame myself for believing him. But isn't he the culprit? I still feel guilty. I heard the sound of the hall door opening, but I did not stop crying, did not turn my face to see the person, nor got up from my seat.

X: Why are you crying?

I've never heard the sound before. But it's a thin one. The person who came was a woman.

X: Don't you want to talk?

I was still crying. Likewise, my face is covered.

X: You aren't the first student to try to commit suicide. But why at the beginning of the year?

Am I not the first?

X: Stop thinking I said you're not the first, some have been successful. Why didn't you do it? Could you be successful when no one was around? You know, I also tried to commit suicide when I was in college.

It was not a student who came.

Cheonsa: Get out of here! I will be alone!

X: Actually, you should be in class right now. Also in my class. But you did not come.

My crying had stopped for a bit, but my hiccups were still going on, and I didn't open my face. Yes, the first lesson has started and instead of being in the class, here I am questioning myself and my life!

X: Look, calm down, you're Cheonsa, right? Jimin's so-called "boyfriend" that he introduced to everyone?

Hearing that made me angry. I got up from my seat and saw that it was the teacher who supported me the most in the entrance tests. I yelled at her with the truth of the word, I guess.

Cheonsa: He's not my boyfriend! Didn't you hear when I said it in the canteen? Please stop telling me about him!

X: You can call me Ivy. I'm glad to meet you, talented girl.

Cheonsa: What do you want? If you're going to give me a punishment or homework just because I didn't join the class, I'll do it, it's okay just go please!

Ivy: No, I won't give homework or punishment. I just came to talk

Cheonsa: Why did you leave the classroom without a teacher, also how did you know I was here?

Ivy: I left the lesson to the assistant student. The first lesson is "introduction to music" you learned that yesterday,and that's the lesson which Jimin knows very well, he can explain it.

Does that mean there is no teacher in that class now and Bellatrix and Jimin are in the same class? Oh, what am I thinking! Whatever they are!

Ivy: What happened?

Cheonsa: Nothing, I just, no, I don't want to talk.

Ivy: Did you go through a lot of bad things?

Cheonsa: If I lived, I lived! What's wrong with you! Isn't your job just to make us study and so in? We don't have to talk about our personal problems!

Ivy: Okay, then I'll punish you for not coming to class!

Cheonsa: Will you go later?

Ivy: Yes!

Cheonsa: Okay, what's my punishment then?

Ivy: Until tomorrow, you're going to write a song about your life.

Cheonsa: What?!

Ivy: You heard right.

Cheonsa: In 1 day? This is impossible!

Ivy: Nothing is impossible.

She got up and went to the exit door. Before leaving, she reminded me again.

Ivy: Remember, it's going to be your life story.

Cheonsa: Okay.

I sat after hearing the sound of the door closing. How do I do this, and what will be the result if I don't?

Cheonsa: It's all because of you again, Park Jimin! If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have taken this ridiculous homework and punishment now!

I decided to go to the class. For not to get any other punishments.

I opened the door and just entered.

Cheonsa: Sorry, miss Ivy, I felt sick.

Ivy: Don't worry, this class was already passed. So guys, I am gonna leave right now, and Jimin, will you stay here again?

Jimin: As you wish, miss Ivy!

And she left the class.

Jimin: Guys, I taught you the "introduction to music" with a detailed version, so, do you have any questions left? Yeah, that red haired girl!

Girl1: Can you make it obvious for us, you two, that if you are lovers or not?

What?! Really?! Is it even considered as a QUESTION?!

Cheonsa&Jimin: Is that you question?!

Cheonsa: Can you please shut up, when I am speaking or questioning?!

I could hear some giggles from the back. I stood up and turned back.

Cheonsa: Why are you giggling?! Is there anything funny?! Because I can't see?

Girl2: Ah, Cheonsa says not, but it is blindingly obvious that they are both soulmates and lovers!

Cheonsa: How dare you?!

I walked towards that girl. And slapped to her face.

Cheonsa: Who do you think you are?! Why do you all get involved in my life?! What is it to you? You are just sh*ts! You don't know anything but only gossiping! That must be the reason why you can't pass the 1st year!

That girl stood up and tried to frighten me. Haha!

Girl2: You know who I am?! I entered on the 3rd place! Who do you think you are?!

Talia: Oh my, she shouldn't have said that!

I turned while Talia was saying that and turned back to her.

Cheonsa: Hahahaha! If you are 3rd, I am already the FIRST! Can you please shut your f**king mouth up, now?!

She didn't say anything else and just sat down on her seat.

Cheonsa: Now, you know what can I do, when you ask or answer that question again!

Bellatrix: No, I still don't know!

Cheonsa: Do you want to experience it, right?

Bellatrix: Do you dare?

Cheonsa: Huh, you are just a waste of time. I won't waste my time with you, Bella!

Bellatrix: You may call me like that! As you know, you are my only enemy!

I even didn't bother to listen to her trash words. I went back to my seat and sat down. I opened my notebook and put my earphones on. I just started to write that dumb given homework song!

After several minutes~

Cheonsa: ARGH! REALLY! IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO WRITE IT!

Eira: Angel, are you ok?

Talia: What is happening to her?!

They hit me some times. I removed my earphones and looked at them.

Cheonsa: What do you want?