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I'm coming home from school. Ainul Unnie and Jungkook Oppa both didn't come to school today. Both are sick. And I had to come alone. No one is friends with me at school! I've been listening to the same 2 songs over and over since the day I left the hospital, Hometown Smile and Love is Gone. Now I'm listening to them. My heart hurts so much. Will he miss me someday and come back? But if I tell someone I miss him again, I'll have to go to the hospital again.

I got a notification on my phone. Yes, this Instagram user shared a post again, let's see what he says this time. "Missing her is the most painful feeling, leaving her behind and coming here without telling her hurts even more."

I'm so curious who this user is! Sometimes he shares nice words, but these days he shares very sad things. What is he living in?! Is he more upset than me? Meanwhile, he says he went somewhere else without telling her... the girl behind her must be getting very upset. He also left another girl, just like Jimin left me... How can you do this to us... but whoever this user is, he might be getting very upset? Is Jimin sad for me too?!

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Mr. Thomas: Ok, let's pretend this didn't happen. I apologize to everyone.

Cheonsa: Now, can you answer my question?

Mr. Thomas: We passed about the notes in basic, it was like a review and then we passed the places of them. If you have other questions, you may take notes from your friends.

Cheonsa: Thanks, sir!

So let him learn that he shouldn't do anything wrong with me. Even when I ask a question like a human, he answers like an animal. Sorry, I said it wrong, I should have said "he doesn't even respond like an animal". But anyway, back to my notebooks. Eira handed me her notebook beside me. I opened it and looked. Things I used to know. I took out my phone and took a picture of the notebook pages. I write when I get home. My head hurts now. Let's finish this lesson soon!

Talia: What did you do to that girl? You didn't come to the previous lesson either!

Cheonsa: Let the lesson end, I will explain.

Talia: Ok.

Finally, the lesson is over. We went down to the cafe with the girls. We sat at an empty table. We only have one lesson left, and we still have 1.5 hours before it starts. I bought myself a milkshake to drink. And I told the girls about the whole event in all its details. Their mouths remained open. Of course, I was also surprised that the student who did such a thing turned out to be a relative of Miss Selene, even her nephew.

Eira: I can't believe. So you got permission from class to go to the police station. Shall we tell you something too?

Cheonsa: Yeah, what's that?

Talia: Jimin asked us... if you liked the gifts and also asked you not to leave them here.

Cheonsa: Ugh, I thought it was something different. I wasn't going to leave them here anyway. I can't leave treasures like that here unattended, whether it's Jimin who gave them or not. At least I'll throw it in the garage at home. They will not be in my sight and I would not have left them here, in the university.

Eira: Uf, I'm going to be confused. If it were me in your place, I'd probably have forgiven my ex-boyfriend who did such a thing to me until now. So no matter what he did.

Cheonsa: I'm confused too. Because I have a million questions to be answered. But I can't go across to him and read the answers from his face. Because I am afraid of answers. Besides, there's Bella... I think she likes Jimin more than me. We can say that they suit each other better, I guess... I don't know. Damn! I wish I had never come to Canada! I wish I had studied in Korea. Or if I applied to any entertainment without ever going to university. I could definitely be chosen! I would be a trainee for a maximum of 2 or 3 years and debut. Now it's here, I'm wasting my time repeating what I know! Maybe I'd have forgotten about him by now! I'm leaving university! Instead of dealing with all this stuff here, let me go and relax!

Talia: Hey hey hey, Cheonsa, take it easy! Don't you think you exaggerated a little? Or so it came to me. You both love and think you don't. Also, it feels like you're blaming Jimin for everything.

Cheonsa: Am I? Really... but isn't he?

Eira: How do you blame him?

Cheonsa: It's because of him, I believed him, loved him, was left, had breakdowns, had to go to therapists and etc, and I again bumped into him, here, even a different country! And now I have an enemy because of him...

Talia: Let's correct them all, Eira.

Eira: Yes.

Talia: First, you didn't believe him because of him. You believed him, because you, yourself loved him.

Eira: Second, you can't love someone because of himself... you loved him because you wanted, no other explanations...

Talia: Then, yeah he might have left you... but now you don't even listen to him. And he wants to explain but you don't listen.

Eira: You had breakdowns, not because of him... it's because of your own biology. Even if it was another boy, you would have experienced the same thing.

Talia: And you shouldn't make an excuse of therapists. It's good for you. In all ways. Whether you went there because of your situation or just to feel better.

Eira: And the last as you bumped into him... we call it as DESTINY! 

Cheonsa: Ah! Do I have to accept this?! Now you're acting like I'm responsible for it all!

Talia: We just looked at the thing from the side you didn't look at or didn't want to look at. Of course, there's also the side of things from Jimin's point of view. For you to understand things from his point of view, you only have to do one thing, and that is listening to him... so the only thing you don't want to do...

Cheonsa: Listen to me... I don't want to love Jimin... okay? I love, damn I do, but I don't want to love. Damn! Because of him, I can't go back to my old self anymore! Today I promised myself that I will never get angry and left the house. Now look at me... off, I love him, damn it I love him but I don't want to!

Eira: At least you accept that you love him...

Cheonsa: I guess you can't understand how hard it is... even  I want wanting to love, but still the biggest flame in my heart doesn't want him!

Talia: There is progress! thanks for that too! Now, Eira, there's only one problem, we'll figure it out if we keep talking a little more with pressure on Cheonsa... Cheonsa, look I believe it very much, there's something Jimin knows... so there might be something he wants to explain to you... maybe what you will listen to will end the fire in your heart that doesn't want to love Jimin... what if you listen?

Cheonsa: I just don't want to! And more, I don't believe that he loves me... He just wants me to forgive him!

Eira: If he doesn't love you, why would he want you to forgive him?!

Then suddenly the table we were sitting at became dark. More precisely, a very tall boy coming from the light side turned off the light that came to the table with his body. I looked up to see who it was. Likewise with Eira and Talia.

Cheonsa: Who are you? And also, stop blocking the light and go to another table and sit down!

Drake: I'm Drake. Didn't your name mean angel? So why do you speak more like the devil and not like angels?! I don't understand what Jimin likes about you either!

Cheonsa: Which of these do you care about?! None of them! So get out of here! Jerk!

Drake: Actually, I want them to concern me, which means, it's all about me. Be smart...

Cheonsa: Ugh, do whatever you want ok? I won't be disturbed by you!

I said that and that idiot of course came and sat on the empty chair next to us. That's a real jerk!

Drake: So, what were we talking about?

Eira: Let me ask you something, are you really brainless or can't you use your brain?

Drake: Oh, I don't know your name, but since you're asking, I'll gladly answer. By the way, you said you want to ask something, but you asked two things, I said to remind you. But it's neither, I have a brain and I use it for great things. Do you want to know how I use it, sweet thing?

Talia: Aish, he is really brainless, even retarded, on top of that, he's rude.

Drake: But, the girl whose name I don't know, isn't it a little embarrassing? So I'm next to you. Be careful with your words...

Cheonsa: Don't you have anything else to do? Go take classes or something?

Drake: Our last lesson is the same as yours, unfortunately...

Cheonsa: Aish, girls! I'm going to explode here now, please let's go. We have time until the last lesson!

Talia: You're right, Cheonsa. It's better than sitting here and listening to some useless stuff.

We got up. While I was carrying my box in which I had put the presents, the girls took both their bags and mine.

As soon as we got out of the university, we took a taxi and went to my house. At least we can talk truthfully and honestly. And I'm guessing this kid was the crazy guy who touched Jia. But he will be punished!

After entering the house, I took the box and my bag and brought them to my room. The girls went to the kitchen and made coffee. I went downstairs and we got our coffees and went to the living room.

Talia: You all think the same?

Eira: It depends on what you are talking about...

Cheonsa: Ay, she is talking about that Drake!

Eira: You mean, he is the guy who did that to that girl?

Cheonsa: She is Jia, yeah.

Talia: Ugh, is she safe now?

Cheonsa: Yes...

Eira: Why are you upset right now?

Cheonsa: Aish, don't you know? It's all because of what you said to me earlier...

Talia: I'm calling Jimin. That entity will come here and you two will talk! That's it! But I don't have his number, Cheonsa, give me your phone for a minute.

Cheonsa: Hey, what don't you say, Talia, I was wondering when do you want my phone from me. You idiot, I don't have his number. I wouldn't give it anyway, why should I?! Don't call him anyway, I don't want to talk! I already said that.

Eira: Ya, Cheonsa! We're curious too, please talk!

Cheonsa: Are you my friend or the enemy?! What request is this?! I will not talk!

Talia: Now you started saying that we're your enemies?

Cheonsa: Shall we close this topic?

Eira: OK, but do we have anything more important to talk about?

Cheonsa: We should find. 

Talia came to the sofa I was sitting on. And just shouted to my ear.

Talia: LISTEN TO HIM!

Cheonsa: Aaaaaaa!

I closed my ears and started screaming.

Talia: Hey, Cheonsa! Sorry!!!

Eira: She has a phobia.

Talia: What should  I do now?

Eira: I don't know!

-Talia-

It was to approach Cheonsa and actually try to persuade her a little more. But as Eira said at that moment and I understand Cheonsa has a phobia of loud noises. And when Cheonsa started to cover her ears and shout, I panicked a lot. It was the first time I had witnessed such a thing, and so was Eira.

Talia: Cheonsa, Sorry!

-Cheonsa-

Why is this happening?! I received treatment for it. And I was also free from this damn phobia. Why did it start again?! It was as if Talia wasn't yelling either! Tears began to flow from my eyes. But this time, very different things are happening, I started to see events from the past. Ha, this is the day we went to the treehouse, ah, now my fight with Tae when I was little. Oh, what is this?!

It was dark all of a sudden. What happened to me?