Chapter 45

Chapter 45

　　"Are you really saying what I think you're saying?" I was so horrified by the mere idea, I wasn't sure how to handle the situation.

　　Leo grasped my thighs. "Then answer my question."

　　I stared at him. He was really serious. "Simona puked all over me, that's why I showered. If you don't believe me, check the washing machine. I didn't have time to turn it on yet." He released me and actually disappeared from view. I couldn't believe him. I hopped off the counter, and my legs almost gave out. The shock rested heavily on me. Seeing Leo lose control like that, over something this ridiculous, had shaken me completely. I walked into the bedroom, not sure if I wanted to spend the night here. When Leo returned, he'd calmed visibly.

　　I shook my head slowly. "I can't believe you thought I cheated on you with my brother. That's what you thought, right?"

　　His expression was hard. He uncuffed his shirt, something he did often to avoid an answer.

　　"You should trust me, Leo, but instead of doing that, you're so blinded by jealousy that you even suspect my brother to have an affair with me. How sick is that? You are surrounded by beautiful willing women in your clubs all the time, and I never accuse you of sleeping with them, much less of sleeping with your sisters for God's sake!"

　　"Why would I cheat with any of those women? All I can think about is you."

　　I froze. "You think of me?" I'd never considered the possibility that he'd waste a single thought on me once he was at work.

　　Leo watched me, a battle raging in his eyes.

　　"Why do you keep pushing me away, then? Why do you hurt me by not trusting me?"

　　Leo reached for his tie, loosening it with a hard tug. Tension lingered in his body, and if Christian had still been here, he probably would have attacked him again. Leo had seemed in control, so it came as a shock that he harbored so much unrestrained aggression. Of course, it only solidified that I'd been trying to ignore that side of him. His reputation was there for a reason.

　　"I don't push you away. We share a bed and spend time together."

　　"We have sex together, talk about what the kids did, but whenever I try to glimpse behind your mask, you block me, and now you almost kill my brother in a jealous rage. Tell me what happened."

　　His jaw locked into place. I turned my back on him, needing a moment without his intense gaze. Dropping the towel, I grabbed a nightgown from a drawer. Leo's steps echoed behind me. "No. Don't touch me. Not now. I need answers. If you refuse to tell me the truth, then I can't have sex with you." I slanted him a look over my shoulder.

　　Leo began to unbutton his shirt—so calmly and precisely that for a moment I, too, wanted to roar and rage. I was glad when he moved to the door.

　　"I'll take Daniele to bed."

　　I sank down on the bed. I'd promised Leo I wouldn't move into another room, but right now I wasn't sure if I wanted to keep that promise. I wasn't sure if I could stay, not as long as he left me in the dark over what happened. I didn't want to be scared of my husband, but right now I was.

　　Daniele's cries rang out, and I stood then hurried into his room. Leo tried to change him into his pajama bottoms, but Daniele fought him. Eventually, Leo released him, and Daniele hurried toward me, hugging my legs.

　　Leo appeared like a wounded animal as he straightened. "Can you—?" His voice was rough, his jaw tight.

　　I nodded and lifted Daniele into my arms. Leo watched with sorrowful eyes as I dressed Daniele in his PJs then put him in bed. Leo pressed a brief kiss on Daniele's forehead before he and I headed out and turned off the lights.

　　Silence tightened around Leo and me as we stood in the hallway.

　　"Tell me the truth. If you want this marriage to work, if I mean anything at all to you, tell me what happened," I begged.

　　Leo looked at my bandaged arm. His shirt was half unbuttoned, and he looked exhausted. "I need a drink. Will you join me?" He held out his hand.

　　I hesitated but seeing the tortured look on his face, I took his hand and followed him downstairs.

　　Sybil lingered in the lobby, her expression worried. "I prepared minestrone. It's in the kitchen. I wasn't sure if you were going to have dinner…" She trailed off. She probably heard the fighting and saw Christian flee the house.

　　"We're not hungry. Go home," Leo clipped.

　　Sybil sought my eyes. I smiled. "Thank you for making us dinner. Have a lovely evening with your husband."

　　She hesitated then grabbed her purse and coat before slipping out. Leo squeezed my hand and pulled me into the living area. A fire burned in the hearth as it did every evening. Usually, the sight warmed me from the inside, now it did nothing to dissipate the cold feeling of dread. He released me to head for the liquor cabinet. I sank down in one of the armchairs, stretching out my bare legs, relishing in the warmth the fireplace put out. "Fix me a drink as well."

　　Leo made a low sound, voicing his displeasure, but after a couple of minutes, he held out a tumbler with about an inch of amber liquid. I took it and sipped at it.

　　Leo sagged down on the armchair beside mine, rolling around the ice cube in his glass. His eyes were on me. "I knew it would come to this. It couldn't be any other way. It had to end like this."

　　"This isn't the end of anything," I said. "Not if you don't let it. Do you want to lose me?"

　　Leo took a gulp then smiled bitterly. "Haven't I already?"

　　"No, but you will if you don't stop hiding the truth from me. What happened today… I can't get over it unless you tell me what made you act that way. Help me understand."

　　Leo downed the rest of his drink. He stared into the flames and smiled bitterly.

　　My phone rang, making me jump. Leo's expression darkened, but I picked up. I didn't have to check the screen to know who it was. "I'm fine, Christian."

　　"I contacted a few of my loyal men in Baltimore. Dad won't interfere, but I will if you need me to. Just say it and I'll free you of him."

　　That was a betrayal. Considering how bad things were in the Famiglia at the moment, and how volatile Luca was, I couldn't allow Christian to entertain these ideas. "No. I'm fine, honestly. We can talk tomorrow."

　　"Amelia—"

　　"Tomorrow." I hung up. "That look needs explaining, Leo."

　　He raised an eyebrow as if he didn't know what I was talking about. I didn't believe that for one second. His eyes practically burned with angry jealousy when I talked to Christian. It was something I couldn't even begin to comprehend.

　　"How can you even consider that I'd have something with my own brother?" Downing half of my drink, I got up and knelt before him, touching his clenched fist resting on his thigh. He opened it so I could link our fingers. Behind the anger and suspicion in his eyes lingered a deep pain and vulnerability. It was the latter that hushed my own fury over what he'd done. "Please, tell me the truth."

　　Leo bent down and kissed me sweetly.

　　I frowned. This wasn't the moment for physical closeness. I wanted answers.