Fear and Feelings

Ch - 36

Sana stand near the mirror and look at her swelled lips, her heart is still beating faster than the regular one, whole face turns dark shade of red. This is the second time they kissed, but this time she wasn't the one who started.. That's a relief for her, but what's all this between them,...friends never kissed each other..

She slam her head by this thought, except friendship they are husband and wife also. Ughh why she is thinking all this... Huffing she splash water on her face to calm the heat burn on her cheeks. "Calm down sana, don't think too much, it's just a kiss.. Sorry two kiss.. Ughhh stop... And all the time i was thinking about him because, i care for him..."

"He didn't take care of his heath, and i took the responsibility to make him perfectly fine.. Maybe....hmmm... I have an emotional attachment with him.. Hn.. That's it,... My care, missing him, and kiss all this because of the emotional attachment." Nodded in yes she sighs and move outside after changing into a bunny night dress. Sidharth is laying on the bed, he turns to her and says, "Hey, hunny bunny...."

She twist her lips and placed the gifts on the bed given by her family and aadi. She jumped on the bed and says, "You know what, i love opening gifts.." He nodded by raising brows, "woww... Open then..." Smiling she put her lower lip completely inside her mouth by teeth and start opening the wrappers. She open a box and a beautiful bell chain with all starts and bells come out from there..

She giggles by look at it, as it's the same one which she hanged on her room always.. Sidharth saw her happy but still has some water in eyes, he frowns and asks, "If you don't like the gift, than throw it why are you crying?" She shook her head and says, "No.. love it so much, but whether if i not. Then also we should respect about one's gift, it's their emotions behind this. "

Closing eyes he takes a breath and says, "Alright but don't give me this emotions type of lectures ever.. Open your gifts and sleep." He don't want to heard anything about this emotions word, already she became successful everytime to bring out emotions from inside him,.. Which he hates... He have to be get well soon and go out from here, before get mad.

She twist her lips and open the rest ones, a beautiful pair of earrings come from a box. And a pretty red colour saree which is gifted by her mother. She kissed the saree and smiles brightly, sidharth keep staring at her from the corner of his eyes. "You like saare?" Asked sidharth by raising one brow. She narrowed her brows, because a minute ago he was irritated and now again being normal.

Bipolar, she thinks and says, "Yes, i love to wear them on any festivals or functions. And now only aadi's gift is left.." He think something and says, "Um..don't you angry with me? I not get you any gift?" She smiles and says by looking into his eyes, "You already give me the best surprise ever, that was my precious gift for today." Nodded he look to the other side, "Open it..." She open the last one and it's a teddy bear...

"Awwww.. It's so cute..now i can easily hug it and sleep.. Thank you idiot aadi." Said sana by kissed the teddy. Sidharth twist his lips and says, "But this not possible because you are sleeping with me baby.." She look at him in a jerk and says, "Hun? What?" He close his eyes and says, "Hmm.. See, you want to take care of me right? So if i need something in night, and you sleep so away from me.. It can be difficult for me, right?.. And anyway we already slept together, last night.. And it's normal..."

Said all this he sighs, after sleeping whole night without any nightmare for the first time. He wants to try it one more time, don't want to experience those nightmares anyhow,... Her being close at night, if works then he just don't want her to be away from him.. But he also can't tell her the exact matter. ..... Sana look at him with narrowing brows, still remember about the nightmare..

What if, it comes again.. And also his insomnia... Last night he sleep well without medicines, which is a very good sign. She don't have any problem in this, because not know about him but she for shocked, feels so good in his arms...safe .. She again shook her head and says, "Ohk...monster." She kept the gifts aside and set her pillow to the other side.

Sidharth clear his throat and says, "Naaz..." She turn to him and asks what through gesture. Taking a breath he took out a box from under the pillow and says, "For you." She look at him with wide open mouth, then smiles.. Not imagine him of giving her any gift. Grabbing the box she says, "Thank you so much sidharth, you said don't have anything for me." He again close his eyes and says, "Why you ask so many questions muffin?"

Smiling she opened it and find a beautiful bracelet with stars, moon and bells. "Wow... It's have all the things i love,...it's so beautiful sidharth... Thank you so much.." In excitement she again hug him by jumping above him.. " Aahh.. Naaz careful my hand is already broken." She get up and says, "Sorry... I am so sorry... I'll wear it right now."

She wore the bracelet and for his shock give him a peck on cheeks...

Opening eyes he says, "Calm down muffin, you again kiss me without permission..." She roll her eyes and lay by switch off the lights. He wants her to be close to him but don't know how to say, just then feel a hand on his head, "Good night monster." Smiling slightly he try to sleep., sana keep caresses his hair and unknowingly again sleep on his left arm. None of them woke up in night, sleeping peacefully on each other's arms.

Its been three weeks, now sidharth is fully recovered., which is a fast recovery than normal ones because of sana's extreme care. All the time they are together, not for a once sana leave him alone,..made him do the work from the room, if its that urgent. He wants to go out but at last have to lose in front of her stubbornness.

She give him the perfect diet according to doctor, with exact medicines and for a good. He not even crave for any kind of drugs, this was the main reason she didn't leave him alone, keep diverting his minds on their banters.. Yes, their unreasonable fights are still on, he sometimes irritated her more. She read books for him before sleeping every night, like a mother does to their children.

He is habituated by her presence more by all the passing day, those nightmares not came for a single time since she start sleep with him at nights. Whenever she read the books, he kept her hand on his hair and most of the fall asleep on her lap. He is shocked by his own behaviour, his insomnia is gone completely.

He sleeping daily like normal human beings and not even wake up at nights, all because of her.. First he thought she is only capable of bring out his emotions but now her presence also affect his sleep. He trying so many things for get rid from the nightmares in all the years but only her one touch is enough to stop them.

He somewhere know that its not his only obsession with her, there's something else and he don't want to admit that at any case. No way he let any emotions overpower him, because they are only handle the power of make people weak, according to him. He can see that her existence already bring lights to his dark hell. But he doesn't want it, as know one more thing that...

She still didn't know anything about him, all his works, about his being the mafia king and  what happening in the basement. He knows that she will definitely hate him for all this, when know that he kill people.. How he tortured them,.. She is treating people and he harm them...there's so much difference between them. And the time she come to knows all this,will hate him to no end.

But he never want her to know and see all this  now, the fear of seeing hatred in her eyes for him is threatening his heart from inside... For the first time, he don't want someone to hate him.

He never want to go away from her now, but that's not good for him. This closeness is not, what he want. With her she forget about his all plans... Tomorrow he go out from the house after days, that's the best way to be away from her... Because whenever she come close, his all digged feelings start coming by breaking his own created wall of hell.. Which is not good for both of them. From tomorrow he'll try his best to avoid her.

While Sana's emotions for him is growing in all these days, whenever he smiles her heart filled with happiness.. She just want him to be near her, for her shock find herself staring at him sneakily all the time.. Never all this thing happened with her, this man whom she once hate the most now,....only think about him all the time....

Somewhere she knows that has some feelings for him, but don't want to give it any name for now. Tomorrow he is going out from house after so many days, and she can't even stop him because there's no reason.... He is fine now, have to do his work.. She doesn't have any idea what? Just know that he is a businessman, and also not interested in know..

But still think about the past, which she didn't know.. Aadi never tell her, and she don't want to ask anything to sidharth.. Until he tell himself,...if he ever sing in his life, then she will do anything in order to bring that music back in his life.. Taking a deep breath she look upward , he looks so cute like a baby while sleeping.

And laying on his arms, is feels so good. Smiling she snuggles more into him and placed a kiss above his heart. In sleep he tighten the hold on her waist and rest his head above her... This is exact position in which they sleeping while all this days...

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Let's see what happens next!!!