Distance

Ch - 44

Sana woke up after sometimes and find sidharth nowhere around her. Stretching her hand she going to get down from the bed when a voice come, "Stop, you can't walk for at least two days." She turned her face and saw sidharth stand there with a paper. Smiling slightly she says, "Why you leave me alone here? What if i need something?"

He walk few steps towards her and says with a blank face, which actually hide the unknown pain inside him. "I am at home, just a call away. Guards are outside, they would call me whenever you want." Nodded she look at him for some seconds and says, "You are not in the monster mode nor irritating one.. What is in this paper?"

Closing eyes he takes a long breath, when plan it all...thought will be easy but don't know why feels so heavy to tell her all this. How will she react? Maybe happy,..hmm.. obviously she'll be..after all he brought her here forcefully, marry forcefully.. Its going to be her independence day from this hell...from him..

Sana look at him with narrowed brows, she don't know why feel there is something serious..a weird feeling arise inside her. Seeing him stand by closing eyes, he definitely thinks about some matter but what?.. "Sidharth..is there any problem?" He look downward and sit besides her slowly, looking at the paper he says, "We need to talk." Frowning she asks, "Talk about what?"

Waiting for a second he forward the papers towards her, "Look at them first." He try to be normal, try to maintain his monster image because as anyhow need to make her agree. Sana take the papers by colliding brows, not able to understand why feels something is wrong. She look at him and open the paper, her eyes are open widely in shock as soon as she saw them.

Heart almost stopped, everything around her stops, breathe chocked on throat... He give her divorce papers,...she can't able to think for a minute, just staring at the papers without blinking. He look at her with the corner of his eyes, waiting for some response.. Her silence made him more tensed, anxious...why she didn't react.. Gulping saliva he shake her from shoulder with shaking hands.. "Naaz."

She flinched by his touch it bring her back to the senses, and the reality hit her hard... Tears filled on her eyes, he wants to give her divorce, don't want to live with her... Maybe never wants to....this means he didn't love her? Just want to be free from her...she not for a once think about divorce, even at the time when he forcefully marry her.... Why he marry her if didn't want her?

Somehow controlling her tears she look at the other side, as don't want him to see her demise, her pain... "You..want to free from me?" Biting lips he control himself, suddenly start feeling more heavy.. His heart never ever wants her to go away from him for a single second but like always mind has its logical wants.. Completely different from his heart.... Want her to be happy, safe with somewhere, someone..who can give her everything she deserves....

Controlling himself he says, "I just want you to be free from this hell.. I...i can't apologize for whatever i did... But at least make everything fine..... After...sign..signing this di...this papers your all ties will broke with me... And can...get ma...married to someone who can lo...hate you...know what i mean."

As soon as he finished she turn to him in a jerk, what he just said.. She actually not getting anything,, ..he is sorry for all his deeds, that's why want to leave her.. And what the marry thing?... Frowning she asks, "Can you please explain, clearly...by putting actual words what you want to say?"... Her voice has showing, anger, irritation, pain..and the love...that she have for him.....

Fisting hand he look at the other side, try his best to maintain a poker face and says, " After our divorce, you'll get marry to someone.. Who lov...you know the word...who can give you that... Who actually wants to give you that....the happiness, the life which i snatched from you... He returns you everything... You'll be free from here...live your life like before meeting me..."

She just look at him with a shocked face, eyes starts trickling waters...stomach crunched from inside by the thought of marrying anyone else... What he think of himself? She loves him, more than herself..don't know when, how all this happened... But..he wants to hand over her to someone else.... A sudden anger rushed inside her, eyes turned red due to tears, pain...

Gritting teeth she turn him towards her by grabbing his collar and yells, "What do you think of yourself sidharth shukla? How could you think that? Han?...Marriage is not a game sidharth, that whenever you want do it and broke in a moment...that too for fucking stupid reason.." Closing eyes he hold her hand and says in a loud voice, "This marriage, fa...family, lo....love..nothing of this matter to me..."

"I only marry you so that people not call you from those dirty names.. I never have anything for you.... As i said before you are just a friend like aadi to me... And...i..i am going to do what is right for you.... The guy..i choose for you...will keep you happy and u can't deny this,...have to marry him...sign those papers and ready to meet him Because i am not going to liste..."

He stop in the middle by a tight slap by sana.., "Shut up sidharth...just shut up.." Tears are continuously flowing from her eyes, how can he force her to marry anyone else? Is he not have a single feeling for her? A moment ago he threatened her to be away from any men, now what happen to that possessiveness? She again grab his collar and shouts,

"What do you think of me sidharth? Your personal toy? Whom you can use any way you want to? My life is not a game, from which you keep playing continuously.. First you took me here by snatching everything from me, locked me here.. Then suddenly one day forcefully marry me... Then shows your fake concern, be my friend and now..."

Her voice chocked in between, "Now you want to give me divorce and again marry someone else, whom i don't know...why you keep playing with my emotions all the time? I am a human sidharth, who has emotions.. not a machine whom you want to work like the way you wants.. Or... Wait...how could i forget that you brought me....i am your so called thing right?".

"With whom you are tired now and want to sell to someone else.. . After satisfying him i might be selling to someone else right?.." He grabbed her shoulder tightly by digging his nails, eyes turned all red due to pain, anger, and with that unknown emotion. Her each and every words piercing inside his heart like sharp needles. Heart socked from inside by the thought that how he made her life hell.

But how can she said that he sell her to someone, is she comparing him with that vikrant? No,..he never in his wildest dream think to do that, will prefer dead before that.. He just want her to be happy and safe, which she never be with him.. Only he knows how he took this decision, its not easy for him to be away from her in a single second,..but he have to...

And after heard all her words, he is damn sure that only capable of giving her pain, and grief.. The day he enter in her life, filled it with his forever darkness... Not anymore.. biting lips he says, "Naaz, you also know i can never sell you to anyone,.. Do you think so low about me?" She look at him with teary eyes, obviously she knows he won't..said those words in her anger....know he can never harm her...

Sidharth says, "I am not...g...good for you naaz... Can only give you this forever darkness,..and you don't deserve this... I was blind behind obsession or stubbornness when bring you here... Its my mistakes i know that... I destroyed your life it's my duty to make it beautiful like before....i am not selling you to anyone...you...you can meet, talk,.. Spe...spend time with him..."

"Then..ma...marry him... But i Know he is best for you... And also interest..." He gritted his teeth and says, "Interested in you.. He'll be here in few minutes,.." He somehow completed his words but feels so much broken from inside.. Don't know when his eyes turn wet, but he manage to control it..

Sana just look at him with blank expression, now his actions, words made sense in her mind.. He just wants to send her away from him, because think that he is bad for her... want her to be happy in life,....but little did he knows that he is her happiness now,... She feels the top of the world when he made her lay on his arms, when scold her for careless behaviour,..

Every moment she spend with him in all this days, is the best days of her life... And she wants more of these days... This is not darkness for her anymore and soon it will be not for him also... Now know very well why he do all this but...she is not any idiot girl who fall on his trap... She knows very well how to fight for her love, will give him the taste of his own medicine..

She will do everything he wants, more than he wants.. It also made it clear for her, that he love her or not.. If it's yes, he himself will give reaction and stop everything but if he doesn't,...then it proves that he don't have any feeling for her...she'll leave him...without even letting know where she is.. Go far away from him but never marry anyone...

Wiping her tears she look at sidharth who stand by turning his back, and says, "Alright, i am ready to get marry, where's the pen?.." Narrowing brows he turned to her in a jerk, don't know why but a little part of him wants her to fight with him like always, or show her stubbornness..would not agree. But....she agreed to leave him..

Why he feels bad now, this is what he wants? Have to control the bloody emotions.. Nodded he says, "I don't have the pen right now..wai..wait for a minute... " Just then someone knock the door and says, "Sir, mr. Kunal rajput is here." Sana narrowed her brows, sidharth close his eyes and nodded.

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