Touch Me

"Are you sure you don't want to tell him I'm gay?" Kian asked.

I told him about what me and Jayden talked about the other day.

"No. It would me more real if he doesn't know. Besides, I also allowed him to have a girlfriend so I think that's fine."

We were at the music room chatting about me and Jayden, sitting by the window. I was slightly leaning on Kian when the door swung open. It was Jayden.

For some reason, I panicked and got nervous. His face seems dark and gloomy. He was mad. He rushed into me and pulled me away from Kian.

"Leave!" He ordered, looking at Kian.

Kian was supposed to protest but I shook my head. "It's okay. I'll talk to you later." I said.

When Kian went out, I took my hand away from him. "What are you doing? I told you to stop scaring him!" I said, glaring at him.

He smirked. "And I also warned you to stop getting close to him. I don't care if he's your boyfriend as long as you don't touch each other."

"But we're not doing anything, we're just talking." I reasoned.

"You were leaning on him! I don't like that."

"You're crazy! You know I don't like you ordering me around! And I'm sure you're girlfriends were all so clingy with you. I don't even care about that as long as no kiss -"

He suddenly pulled my head and started kissing me. It was so sudden that I froze. But God! I really love his kisses. I wrapped my arms into his neck as he put his into my waist, pulling me closer. He was leaning by the window, my body pressing his.

I parted my lips as he insert his tongue into my mouth. His tongue explored inside and I glide mine to meet his. I felt his left hand caressing my back while he put his right hand inside my shirt. I was startled. But then he suddenly pushed me away gently. I frowned.

He tweaked his hair when I looked at him. "I'm sorry. I told you I won't do anything else aside from kissing you but you're incredibly irresistible."

I know it's hard for him to control himself. I've been denying him all this time. I can feel that I wanted him as well, I want his kiss, his touch. I want to feel his hands and lips into mine. But I'm not sure if I'm already prepared to give him my body.

"Touch me." I whispered in a hoarse voice.

He was surprised and was just looking at me for a moment. I held his hand and kissed his fingers while looking at him seductively.

"If you do that, I won't be able to stop." He said.

"Can we do something like touching each other but not that? I'm sorry. I'm not sure if I'm ready." I asked.

He chuckled. "So you're just teasing me. What if I want to go all the way?"

"I'll tell you if I'm ready."

"What if I got impatient and look for another girl to have sex with? Is it okay?" He suddenly asked.

I was speechless. I felt like I was stabbed. My heart aches. I didn't notice that a tear fell from my eyes. Jayden looked surprised.

"Hey. Come here. I was just kidding." He pulled me into his arms and hugged me. "I'll wait. I promise I won't touch any other girl than you."

I looked into his eyes to see if he's sincere.

"You promise?" I asked pouting.

He gave me a quick kiss and smiled. "I promise! But you're so unfair. You won't break up with Kian, but you're obviously two timing him."

"You insisted remember? You said you won't ask me to break up with him."

"Is there a reason? If you tell me, I might understand." He said.

I know Jayden is not a bad guy and he won't judge Kian because of preference. He's rude but he's a nice person.

I sighed and started telling him the truth. His face lit up as if he was happy hearing that Kian is gay.

"Can you promise me you won't tell anyone? I honestly want to help him."

Jayden was still hugging me and I was leaning my head into his chest. I feel safe and secure. I can hear the sound of his heart beating. It was music to my ears.

"I won't get anything if I tell anyone so why would I? He said.

We were in that position for a while. He was quiet as if he was thinking about something.

"What are you thinking? You became quiet." I asked.

"I feel at peace when I'm with you. If only we could just stay like this." He said.

"I feel the same way. Jayden, can I ask you something?"

"Anything." He simply answered.

"If I heard correctly, you have split personality right? Can you tell me how you got it? I mean, we know about Alora's story. I'm curious about your other self. I just want to know more about you." I asked.

I heard him sigh after kissing the top of my head. I heard from Luke, unlike Alora who has four other personalities inside, Jayden only got one.

"Are you sure want to know about it?" He asked.

I looked at him to see his face. His bad boy aura added to his sex appeal. I raised my hand to touch his face. Tracing from his eyes down to his lips with my fingers. He suddenly bit my finger gently and sucked it. I felt my body's temperature rose. I wet my lips and bit it. He smirked and kissed me on the lips.

I was panting when he let go of my mouth. "Yes I want to know about all of you. Will you trust me?" I managed to answer his question.

"I trust you. Only my father and Luke knew about it. You're the third person that will know about this."

I was just staring at him, waiting for him to continue his story.

"My other self is my mother."