Dilemma

He smashed his lips on hers. Subconsciously, she encircled her arms around his neck tightly and started to respond.

At first, the kiss was little awkward, it was only biting and nibbling (Newbie kissers😅). Then turned into a slow, light yet sensual kiss and started to get deeper and wilder by every minutes passed.

Mu Qinzhe bit her lower lip to which she opened her mouth to moan. But Mu Qinzhe took advantage of it and slided his tongue in her mouth and muffling her moan he started to explore and attack her sacred and guarded city.

Yao Siya was taken aback because of sudden attacks. She tried to fight for dominance but no avail. So she just gave up and enjoyed the moment.

She started to feel dizzy because of this long kiss. She wanted to pull back but Mu Qinzhe held her firmly.

After a long time, when she thought, she was going to faint, Mu Qinzhe reluctantly let go of her lips as they panted heavily while they stuck their forhead together closing their eyes.

'So this is how it feels like kissing.' Yao Siya thought inwardly. She was still feeling dazed due to this kiss. She blinked her eyes several times to calm herself.

She looked at Mu Qinzhe and found he was staring at her with his impassioned gaze and a little smile which touched deepest part of her soul. Slowly, emotions guarded inside her started to rebel against her usual calm and controlled self.

Mu Qinzhe was taking note of the little beauty in his arms and admiring her. There was a faint smile on his face.

Yao Siya's arms were still encircled around his neck, forehead touching his, panting while closing her eyes.

Her cheekes turned redder due to alcohol maybe because of kiss too. She looked too dazzling and bewitching to take off eyes from her.

Her natural scent was lingering in Mu Qinzhe's nose. it was like thousands of roses unlike any type of perfume. But somehow it gave him a familiar yet unfamiliar vibe.

As for her lips, they were the sweetest and most delicious desert he ever tasted, thought there was a faint flavour of red wine too.

Now looking at Siya's crimson face and slightly opened pouty red lips, he wanted to kiss her senselessly once again though he barely knew her. She was this much irresistible to him.

He didn't know how long he stared at her face. Suddenly she lifted her face and looked at him. Her face was radiant yet eyes contained too many emotions.

Those eyes were sad, hurted, feared, hesitated the same time there were happiness, glee, bliss and delight. He could feel all those emotions despite the fact there was something amiss in her eyes.

Mu Qinzhe couldn't point out what's missing in her eyes still felt pangs of pain in his heart seeing her like this vulnerable. His icy cold heart started to bleed for a total stranger.

To his surprise, he discovered he wanted to keep her in his arms and comfort her and protect her from all the pains she was suffering from without any care who she really was.

He right hand subconsciously reached her left cheek and caressed it with his thumb.

He felt the girl shivered under his touch. She was taken aback, startled, surprised and ... touched!! Tears pooled in her eyes yet didn't cross eye barrier.

Her lips were trembling as if wanted to say but words weren't coming out. Dilemma was clearly written all over her face.

Combining with all those emotions, she looked like a fragile flower, devastated by a fearsome storm yet bathed in the rain which washed her every stain away and was pure and heart throbbing as ever.

Without a second thought, Mu Qinzhe pulled her face towards his and crushed their lips. But this kiss was slow and soft as if he was soothing all her pains away.

Yao Siya forgot last time someone was gentle and tender to her, gave her warmth, made her felt safe and protected. Moreover, it had been years since she let her emotions showed up last time.

She had her adoptive family but she always maintained a little distance. She didn't want them drag into her massy life and let them suffer from the same misery that she was suffering.

Even she didn't want to appear in front of anyone from Mu family. Her mere presence was enough to change their fates. They already had too many on their plate.

But fate had another plan for Yao Siya today. She had to appear in their life against her will.

This was the last thing she ever wanted to happene yet it ensued before she could even protest.

What made it worst, under the influence of alcohol, she initiatedly kissed Mu Qinzhe. She should be worried how to fix all these mass she just created.

But here she was constantly thinking of the man in front of her and the long, hot and passionate kiss they just shared.

She was already in dilemma and without any notice, Mu Qinzhe started to caress her left cheek. But to her, he just caressed her soul.

Her isolated self longed for someone's warmth. Still within all those years, she didn't let anyone got close to her.

She knew the consequences of being near to her was just nothing but a brutal and merciless death. She already witnessed a tragedy and never wanted that terrifying and bloodcurdling history repeated once again.

What she didn't know, she carved for a little warmth too much.

Thanks to the red wine, her conscious already got damaged. In addiction to Mu Qinzhe's gentle touch, it reached on its venge of collapsing.

No...she needed to get out of here when she still had some conscious left. Otherwise, it would be next to impossible to tame her rebellious self.

She subdued her selfish desires to live normally for a very long time. She always chained herself with duties, responsibilities, obligations and fear... fear of repeating the bloodied history.

This time, a huge part of her wanted to break free from the shackles. It selfishly wanted to lose control letting her guards down and enjoy tonight.

Never....she would never let her selfishness controled her by hooks or by crooks. All she needed to do was broke from Mu Qinzhe's arms and left this place.

She could only shadow guard Mu family but could never appear in their life.

Because, to her, 'Regret' wouldn't be an option again. So she would better be safe than sorry later.

She almost made up her mind but without any prior warning, Mu Qinzhe pulled her in a soft kiss.

At first, Yao Siya was startled. Soon, she realized Mu Qinzhe was breaking all her remaining self-control into pieces.

Yao Siya could hardly believe Mu Qinzhe had this much influence on her. His soft kiss was enough to break those chains that restricted her all those years.

Her rebellious self started to get indulgence to the point that it controlled over her consciousness and let her guard down.

Yet she stubbornly battled with her inner self despite knowing she was too tired to continue battling with herself.

This time, she had no energy left to think anything soberly or pull her last sting of consciousness.

Her selfishness was whispering her, "It's your own territory. You have your backup and loyal subordinates. As for those annoying flies, your subordinates are enough.

Moreover, they are capable enough to protect themselves and you can always be their backup.

So what's the point of holding back from such an opportunity? It's time to enjoy at least for once."

And all these were true. There shouldn't be any problem. If it really happened something, she was capable enough to turn the table within her territory or not.

Subconsciously, she closed her eyes and started to respond to his kiss.

She opened her eyes and starred at Mu Qinzhe. Those eyes were her wake up call, inviting her broke through remaining dilemmas and this time she was going to respond.

Her eyes started to glisten with determination. There was no sadness, no fear, no hesitation, there was only sparkling of willingness and amusement.

Her this look was enough to cause palpitation in Mu Qinzhe's heart. Surely, only this strange girl had the power to control his temperament.

Yao Siya arched her beautiful brows and murmured in a provoking tone, "Wanna celebrate?"