Chapter 30: I feel it too

The dreams were wearing me out at this point, as I wish that I could go back to the dreams that I had been having before I had come to this place in the very first place any ways. They were a bit annoying, but they were a lot more simple than all of the nightmares that I had been having as of late, where I could practically taste the stench of blood all in the air, as well as the fact that I could hear the screech's of cats as if they were in a lot of trouble, and they needed some sort of help.

That was all it was in fact, as the dreams were in fact a bit blurry to me, after the fact that I had woken up, besides the fact that I heard a cat yelling for help, by saying 'Help us' at the end of every single one of those dreams. I knew that whilst I had been in the dream, I had known the voice of the cat, and who the cat was that was in fact in trouble, and did in fact need help in the first place, but it felt like as soon as I was to wake up, I could not remember who's voice it was that seemed to be so familiar to me at the exact same time too.

I let out quite a bit of a rough and a soft sigh, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt like it was best to not dwell on it for all too long, as I had wasted a lot of my days up to this point, trying to think on all of the dreams, as I felt like they had to be some what important, due to the fact that I had been told time and time again, by many cats never the less, that the dreams were important. I had tried to tell Stoneteller about all of it, as he had listened to me the first time, but now it seemed like he was more just annoyed by it, and annoyed by my presence in his cave.

I knew that Eagle was right with what it was that he had said, as well as what the other cats in the tribe had told me as they had said it was good advice not to go in to the leaders cave unless it was some thing that was really important. This felt like it was really important to me, but the more that I thought on it, I could see how the others that I told about it, might not view it as all that much important to them, as they were not the ones that were in fact having the dreams of course, so I suppose that made quite a bit of some sort of sense to me.

I sighed, as I did my best to shake off all of those thoughts at the exact same time as well, as I got my focus on what it was that was truly important right at this very moment in time. The cold season was over with now, and it was starting to get a bit warm now, as I had been in the tribe for over a moon at this point, and I had made a lot of friends, and luckily enough, I had not really made any enemies at all, at the exact same time as well, which was some thing to be happy about, and also some thing to be proud of at the exact same time too, as I cracked a bit of a smile.

Of course, the cats that I had grown the most close to, was my old friend Storm, as we had got right along with one another once again, even after the fact that I had left him out on his own in the wild, which I was glad he was not upset at me about at all, as he had said that he had under stood it, whilst at first he had been a bit hurt by it, he also knew that it was a lot more safe in a two leg nest for one thing, than it was out here, even in a place as safe as this one, with a bunch of cats that you took care of, and also the other way around too.

He was happy now, and I was back with him, so I knew that he was not hurt by any of it any more, as the both of us were living the best life that we could have ever asked for. There just still seemed to be some thing that was missing from all of it how ever. I had made other friends, such as the cats that I had first found out about, when I had gone up to the hill, to the top of the mountain in the very first place any ways. 3 of those cats, were Hawk, as she was a bit of a wise cat, and she gave me good advice.

Another one of those cats was poor young Ginger, who it seemed like she could not get her self out of trouble a lot of the time. I knew that a lot of the cats in the tribe did not like her all too much either, and frankly I could under stand as to why that was. Ginger had a good heart though, and she was a good young cat. I knew that she did not have many friends her self, so she was for sure a cat that I could call my friend, as I knew that she viewed me the same way as well, just based off of the fact that she always came up to me later in the evening, after Hawk was done training her, to go on a hunting trip with me.

Some might say the young cat was in love with me, but I felt like that was not the case at all how ever, as much as Storm wanted to say it was, as she did not have that kind of look in her eyes when she was around me. It just seemed to be for me, that she enjoyed my company, and she enjoyed being around me. I liked Ginger, but she was for sure not the most favorite cat out of all of the new friends that I had made up to this point. My favorite cat out of all of those, was a bit different than the rest of those cats.

It was quite a bit of a surprise to me at the exact same time as well, as it was due to the fact that the she cat had not seemed to be all that fond of me at first how ever, as she had her eyes on me for the first couple of days, as she was told by Stoneteller, that she was going to be the cat that was going to take me around the territory, when we first had that meeting. I was a bit surprised at the exact same time as well, as I had noticed that she was too, as to the fact that the tribe had been nice enough to let me in with out saying all too much about my past.

There was not really all that much that I needed to hide how ever, so I was not all too much worried about it. I let out a bit of a soft sigh, all at the exact same time too, as I could feel the warmth of the cat that I was thinking about at the same time as well, as it was nice to feel that. She had started to sleep beside me at night, mainly because she was the cat of course that was supposed to help me, as she had said, as she had told me that it was a lot easier to get up in the morning due to that, and to get things started quickly.

I felt like the real reason to all of this how ever, was a little bit different, though I really did not want to say any thing about it at the exact same time too, as I really did not want to make a bit of an embarrassment of my self, if she was to say other wise. I felt like the she cat kind of liked me, as she was treating me a lot nicer than she had when I had first been here, and she always had a big smile on her face at the exact same time as well, when ever she was around me, as it seemed like I lit up her day every day.

I felt like, I was starting to, dare I say it? Fall in love with the she cat... I felt like she might be feeling the same way as I was too, though I was a little bit too embarrassed to say any thing about it, as I had a bit of some sort of fear as to the fact that she would deny me. I gulped just a bit to my self, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that was not exactly the way I had wanted to live at all, but at the same time too, I still felt like I could not help it, as I knew that I had never fallen in love before.

I was not too sure as to what it was that it was like at all, and I was not all too sure if she truly did feel the same way about me at all. I turned my head over to Oister all at the exact same time too, as I had a bit of a smile on my face all at once, as I did my best to shake off all of the thoughts of fear, all at the same time too as I looked at Oister, right in to her eyes, as soon as I saw that she was looking right at me. She too had a big smile on her face never the less, but as soon as she had noticed I was looking at her, the smile went away.

I tilted my head just a bit, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that was going on right now. Perhaps I was right with what it was that I might have thought about her. Could she truly be in love with me? I was not all too sure if I was going to be completely honest with my self, and I felt like I did not want to be too quick to come to any sort of assumptions never the less, as I felt like I did not need to be thinking all too much on any of that for too much longer either, as I felt like I just needed to live in the moment for now.

I sighed, as I then gulped all at the exact same time as well, as I then saw that Oister, with now a much more blank on her face all of the sudden, then nodded to me. I blinked my eyes a few times, as I was quite a bit lost on what it was that was going on at this very moment in time, in the very first place any ways, if I was going to be completely honest with my self. I let out quite a bit of a soft sigh to my self, as I shook off all of those thoughts at the exact same time too, as it felt like the answer was quite a bit obvious to me.

She was waiting on me, for who knows how long... As soon as I realized that, I felt like I did not want to make her have to wait any longer, as I then all of the sudden nodded right back over to her, to let her know that I was paying attention to her, and what it was that she had to say to me in the very first place any ways. Once Oister realized that it was in fact the case, at the exact same time as well, she did in fact begin to speak to me all of the sudden, as I then listened as to what she had to say to me none the less.

"Good to see that you are up Kettle! You ready to go with Storm on a hunting trip this morning?" She said to me, as I saw that she was looking at me dead in to my eyes. I blinked my eyes just a few times, once again, as it was not the first time that I had done such a thing in the last few moments. I was still a little bit lost as to what it was that was going on in the very first place any ways, even though it was quite a bit clear to me as to just what it was that was even going on in the very first place any ways, as I did my best to shake off all of those thoughts all at once.

The answer was obvious, and I knew that I did not have to ask Oister as to what it was that was going on, as it all came back to me all at once at the exact same time too, as to the fact that I had agreed with both Oister and Storm, that we were going to go on a little bit of a hunting trip this morning. I felt a little bit bad for the fact that I knew that Ginger was going to ask me to go hunting later in the day, after she had got done with her training, as I knew I was going to have to politely say no to her, due to the fact that I knew I was going to be a bit worn out by then, after the hunting trip that I had gone on in the morning.

Besides, I felt like I should not be all too worried about that at all, as it felt like I went on a hunting trip with Ginger every single night at this point, and I felt like she would have to hold off for one of those days, as she had to realize that she was not the only friend that I had, and she was not the only friend that I wanted to spend time with. I was sure that Ginger would simply just ask for them to come with us on the trip, but I knew that my friends would say no to that, as I knew that not all too many people were a very big fan of the young she cat.

I could see why, but it really did not bother me all too much, as I just kind of thought that she was a little bit funny to me, as I then let out a bit of a rough and a bit of a soft sigh, all at the exact same time as well, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at the exact same time as well, as it felt like those were not the types of thoughts that my mind should be focused on at all right now. I knew at the same time too, either way, I was going to have to say no to Ginger tonight any ways.

I would not even be there for it, as I knew that Eagle had wanted to speak to me about some thing, in the leaders den never the less, and I felt like I could not say no to that, as I knew that Eagle was a very important cat, and I for sure could not turn him down. I sighed, as it felt like I was being thrown in a lot of different directions right now, but in reality I was not at all, as this was just normal for me. I was not a kitty pet any more, and it was about time for me to stop acting like I was one, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh all at once, and I then got my focus back on Oister at the exact same time too, as I saw that she was staring me right in to my eyes, as it was clear that she knew that I was not paying her any sort of attention.

I felt quite a bit bad for it at the exact same time too, as I really did like the she cat, if I was not going to lie to my self, and I really did not want to make it seem like I did not at all, as I gulped a bit, and I then shook off all of those thoughts from my head, all at the exact same time too, as I then got my focus on the fact that Oister was in fact looking right at me right now, as it was clear that she was waiting to get at least some kind of response out of me, as to what it was that she had just said to me in the very first place any ways.

Now that I had begun to realize all of that, I then nodded to her all of the sudden, as it came back to me as to what it was that she had just said to me in the very first place any ways, as to the fact that we were going to go and meet up with Storm, and go and plan a bit of an early morning hunting trip with each one another. I let out a bit of another soft sigh all at the exact same time as well, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that was even going on with me at all right now never the less.

I got my focus off of all of that how ever at the exact same time too, as I felt like it was best to not dwell on it at never the less, as I then all of the sudden saw Oister then nod back to me, as the big smile that I had seen before on her face not all too long ago, was back on her face, as it was clear that she was happy with all that was going on at this very moment in time never the less. Just to see the big smile on such a beautiful cat such as Oister, could not help but to put a big smile on my own face at the exact same time too, as we looked at each other for just a little while longer, before she then got back to what it was that we were even doing in the very first place any ways.

Oister blinked her eyes just a few times, as she then nodded a bit to her self this time all of the sudden, as she then began to start to walk ahead of the both of us, as it was now clear to me as to what it was that she was doing now all at once, as I then saw her begin to go over to where it was that Storm usually liked to nest most nights, on the far side of the cave, away from every one else. That was not the case at all for Oister how ever, as she felt like she had to keep a close watch on all of her family never the less.

She still had the both of her parents, which was some thing that I wished that I had, as it still hurt me up to this point, as to the fact that I had felt like I had come so far when I had found out that Frank was my father, only to lose him just a few moments after all that he had told me. I sighed at the exact same time too, as I did my best to try not to focus on all of those thoughts at this very moment in time, as I stared a bit low to the ground, as I continued to follow Oister over to where Storm was in his nest.

He was wide awake, as it seemed like he was staring out at some thing out side right now, for some odd reason or another, as if there was some thing to see. There was in fact quite a bit to see out side, as it was one of the most beautiful views that I had ever seen in the world, but that was only if you did go out side. There was not all that much for you to see in side of the cave sadly enough, as I wished that I could just stare up at the stars, just like I could when I some times slept out side at the barn, as it was in fact as safe as Frank had told me that it was.

Some times I over thought a lot of things most of the time, and maybe that was the down fall of me, as I felt like I just needed to live a little. It was what had me thinking that going out to live in the wild was a bad idea, as I had in fact heard all of the stories, and I had lost my own father whilst we were out in the wild. It was not that bad at all how ever, and you simply just had to play it smart. What we did that night was not smart at all, and I was not all too sure as to what it was that we were thinking.

I knew that Frank had felt like he needed to take me some where to prove that he was in fact my father, but- well- I was not all too sure as to what it was that I was thinking at this very moment in time, if I was going to be completely honest with my self. I let out a bit of a rough sigh, as I then nodded a bit to my self at the exact same time too, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts, as I was not all too sure as to what it was that I was thinking about at this very moment in time, if I was to be for real with my self.

I then stopped my self, all of the sudden, for some odd reason or another, as I then all of the sudden lifted my head up, to see what it was that was the reason that I had stopped in the first place, which it was clearly obvious that it was due to the fact that Oister had stopped. There was a reason that she had stopped how ever, which it did not take me too long to find out as to what that reason was as soon as I saw just what it was that was in front of me right now, in the very first place any ways.

I looked at Storm, as it seemed like he had his eyes in a different world right now, which I was not all too sure as to what it was that was going on with my good friend right now, and I was quite a bit worried for him if I was to be for real with my self once again, as he had been my best friend, ever since I had been a kit for that matter, as he had been only a little bit older than me, by perhaps a couple of moons. That was beside the point how ever, as I felt like some thing was off with my friend right at this very moment in time.

I tilted my head at him, as if I was trying to question him, even though I knew for a fact that he did not have a single clue as to just what it was that I was doing right now any ways, as his eyes, and his mind seemed to be in a whole different world right now. I blinked my eyes a few times, as I did my best to shake off all of the thoughts before they came in to my head, as to why that might even be the case in the very first place never the less.

I shivered just a little bit, as I kept my eyes on him for just a little bit longer, as I could not help but to be a little bit worried about him. I could tell that Oister was quite a bit worried at the exact same time as well, as she too could see that some thing was wrong with our friend. I began to breath in a bit heavily all at once, as I felt like I may as well find out what it was before I came to any sort of conclusions about all of it, as I then decided that I was ready to speak to him, which I did in fact do as such a thing.

"What is going on Storm? You seem to be a little bit off today..." I said to my friend, as I still had my head tilted a bit at him, as that was mainly due to the fact that I was quite a bit worried for him, as I knew that he was lost in his head about some thing. Perhaps he might be having some kind of regrets, but I was not all too sure as to what it was that my friend would even regret in the very first place any ways, as he had done his life exactly the way that he had wanted it to go, and exactly the way he had planned so far.

I was not all too sure about all of it, as I really felt like I could not help but to be a bit scared for my friend, as it was clear that he was in his own world right now. As I stared at him for a little bit longer, it seemed that he had not heard a single word that I had said to him in the first place, proving exactly my point on the fact that I had said that he was in his own world. I let out a bit of a rough and a soft sigh none the less, at the exact same time too, as I then looked over at Oister, already about ready to give up on my friend.

I did in fact feel a bit bad for him, but at the same time as well, I also knew that I had promised that I would go and meet Eagle in his cave, and I did not want to break that promise that I had made for him, as I knew that I needed to get the ball rolling very soon. I blinked my eyes a few times, as I stared at Oister in to her eyes, as it seemed to be to me that she too was in her own world, as I then dipped my head a bit low to the ground, as I was about ready to give up on the both of them now.

I was about ready to go out on my own, and do my own thing for the day, as I knew that one of the rules in the tribe, was simply to at least try to hunt during the day, so that we could try to have enough food for the entire tribe all of the time, so that the tribe never got hungry. I was not all too sure as to what it was like during the leaf bare, but I felt like the plan that Stoneteller had come up with, had seemed to work to perfection up to this point, as there was no denying at all, that the older cat was an amazing leader.

I sighed, as it reminded me of some thing that he had told me at one point, as to the fact that he had said that 'soon one day, you will be too'. I was a bit lost by that, as I felt like Eagle was not going to die at any time soon, even if Eagle did in fact want me to be his successor to all of this, I was fairly certain that I would die before Eagle did, and if he did in fact some how die before I did, which was some thing that I did not want to event think about, at the exact same time as well, than I was not all too sure if I could even lead this tribe in the very first place any ways.

I knew that a lot of the stuff that Stoneteller said to me was true, so I did not want to think on all of it too much right at this very moment in time, as it all just seemed to be quite a bit scary to me, as I did my best to get my focus off of all of those thoughts all at once, as I then got my focus in on what it was that was going on right at this very moment in time, in the very first place any ways, as I finally then did in fact begin to hear the voice of Storm, as he finally decided that he was ready to speak up to the both of us, as it was clear that he had heard each and every word that I had just said to him not all too long ago.

I looked at Storm right in to his eyes, as I then blinked my eyes a few times, due to the fact that I was quite a bit lost in my head right now, and I was not all too sure as to what it was that I should do in the very first place any ways, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh once again, as I did my best to at least try to keep my focus on my friend, as I knew that perhaps the answers I needed would some how come from him, as I then nodded to storm all at the exact same time as well never the less.

Storm blinked his eyes at me a few times, as he seemed to be a bit lost in his head still, as he had quite a bit of a blank look on his face, as if he had not seen me nod to him, to let him know that I was in fact paying attention as to what it was that he had to say to me in the very first place any ways. I was not all too sure what was going on with my friend, but I felt like it was best not to worry about it, as I knew that he would get him self situated and in the end he would be fine, as I breathed in a bit, and I then began to listen as to what it was that he had to say to me right at this very moment in time none the less.

"Yes... I am alright... It just feels like some thing is a bit off in the air today... Maybe that is just me, or maybe it is just the misty weather..." He said to me, as I looked at him with a bit of a blank look on my face, as I had not a clue as to what it was that he was getting at in the very first place any ways. I did not feel any thing wrong with the air right now, and I was usually good at scenting things such as that, as I kind of rolled my eyes a bit, not taking him all too seriously, as I kind of felt a little bit bad for that, now that I came to think of it. I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self once again how ever, as I knew that it was best not to dwell on stuff like that how ever, as I felt like there was a lot more important, and there was a lot better things to worry about right now. The tribe, and the mountains had seemed to be doing alright so far, and based off of the look that I saw on the face of Oister, she did not seem to be feeling the same kind of way as Storm did at all, as I saw her blink her eyes a few times. Storm noticed it as well, and I could tell he felt a bit bad about all of it, as I saw him dip his head quite a bit low to the ground, all at the same time as well, as I could tell that he felt like he was an idiot. Storm stared down at the ground for quite a bit of some time, as it was clear that he was doing his best to clear all of those thoughts from his head, which he seemed to do a fairly good job of at the exact same time as well, as Storm then all of the sudden lifted his head back up after a little bit more time had passed, as he then had a much different look on his face now, as he seemed to have a bit of a smile instead, as he then nodded to the both of us, before he began to start to speak, which I in turn did in fact listen as to what it was that he had to say in the very first place as well, never the less. "It's probably nothing... Might just be my brain trying to ruin a good day ahead of us... It has a tendency to do such a thing... Come on... Let's go..."

I shivered just a little bit to my self, as it felt quite a bit odd as to the fact that he was so easy to erase all of those thoughts that he had been having from his head, all at the exact same time too, as I felt like it was not a normal thing for him to be doing, if he was the same friend that I had once had when I was a lot younger. I knew that he had tended to over think a lot of things back then, so perhaps he had changed his ways in all of that, and he was a lot different of a cat now.

I let out quite a heavy sigh, which clearly neither of them had noticed at all how ever, as I saw that the both of them had their eyes out side right at this very moment in time, as I too could see the foggy, and misty air. I was not going to lie, it was a bit grim, and it was a bit depressing, but I did not feel any thing other than that. Besides, it was just the normal weather, and it was most likely not some thing that I should be thinking on to much at all, as I did my best to try to shake off all of those thoughts from my head, all at the exact same time as well.

I nodded a bit to my self, as I saw that Storm had moved forward a bit, as it was clear that he was waiting for the both of us to follow him, as I saw him turn his head behind him, to make sure that we were in fact following him. I felt a bit bad for him, as I could tell that he felt a bit bad him self, for the fact that it was clear that he had made the both of us start to over think all that he had just said, and he had made the both of us get quite a bit stuck in our own heads at the exact same time as well, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh all at the same time as well, before I then began to follow him.

Storm nodded to me, as I caught up to him quite a bit quickly, mainly due to the fact that he was no longer moving. I waited for him to continue to move, but that did not seem to be the case at all how ever, as he still had his eyes behind him right now, as I tilted my head, a little bit lost as to what it was that was going on with him, as I then turned my head around at the exact same time too, just to see as to what it was that he might even be looking at, at this very moment in time any ways, as I stared back at the cat, that he happened to be looking at right now.

It was Oister, as it seemed like she now had the same look on her face that I had seen on the face of Storm not all too long ago, as it seemed like some thing that Storm might have said had got in to her own head. I rolled my eyes a bit, all at once, as I really felt like we did not have time for all of this right now. Well... They might have time for it, but I did not have time for any of this at all, as I knew that the longer that we held this off, the longer that Eagle would have to wait for me to go and join him in the cave this after noon.

Oister had a bit of a blank look on her face for quite a bit of some time, but as soon as she noticed that both me and Storm were staring at her, she then blinked her eyes a few times, as that seemed to all of the sudden wake her up some how. I was still a little bit lost, and a bit worried as to just what it was that was going on with the both of them right now, but at the exact same time too, I also felt like I did not have the time to dwell on it, and to get all too much worried about all of that how ever.

Oister then all of the sudden nodded to the both of us, as she then all at once began to head forward, as it was clear that she had now woke her self up a bit, which I was in fact quite a bit grateful for never the less, as I then let out a bit of another sigh of relief, before I then began to turn my head away from her all at the exact same time too, as I was nearly fully turned away, when I then all of the sudden heard the voice of her, as she then began to speak.

I was just a little bit lost as to what it was that was going on with the both of them right now, but I did my best to try not to think too much on it at the exact same time as well, as I knew that there were much more important matters that needed to be tended to, as I was tempted to interrupt Oister, but I did not do such a thing, as I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self, and I then began to listen as to what it was that she had to say to the both of us in the very first place as well.

"Storm... I feel it too..."