37| the victim of chaos

Angelo

***

I arrive at Levine's house and I spot other familiar faces once I enter. But the one I don't see is Serine. It was at noon and the shine was already shining brightly.

Speaking of the person I hadn't gotten to speak to, because of her boyfriend, Alex. It was no secret that they were dating. Although they tried to hide it at first, it was clear even way before, that was something there. So it didn't really surprise me but it did surprise me how I felt about it when I saw her resting her head on his shoulder. Which I wish was mine, I envied that. I envied him. He had such an amazing person and he knew it.

I certainly do feel like it'd be unfair if I didn't do anything to get her- to have her. Even if everyone says you should fight for your love- I didn't think I was worth it for her. She likes somebody else, she's with somebody else, so it was best I kept my mouth shut. It was maybe best to keep it all in.

I don't even think she noticed that I heard her conversation concerning me. Of course he knew, he'd know. It was really only the person who was in the situation that never saw anything. Otherwise, everybody saw the way I looked at her. My favorite thing about was her smile. It's hard for me to ever catch it because she rarely smiles- it's either she's always tired or... she's always tired.

What's her without being tired.

Speaking like the person who knew her better than her best friend- I evidently don't. I don't know about anything she's gone through or her past. Really the only thing I know about her past is what every body else knows. That she lost her mom as she was only a second old. That must've been hard for her. Also another person of her past, Kelly. The Bully.

The one that nobody liked actually. She definitely was a pain in the ass and she had yet to realize that. I know from experience. I had already collided with her in the worst way possible. First she was trying to flirt with me, which wasn't working at all because from the moment I saw- her honey orbs, my heart belonged to her. I didn't fight it, never denied it because I knew I could never fight with what the heart wants.

And my heart wanted her. But she wanted somebody else.

That's love for you.

I usually have more conversations with the guys, Sarah, Levine and they were really the only ones who spoke to me. Alexander didn't want me to. I understood him, but I was no threat. I believed if a person is with you, they're with you for a reason. But there's also a little something more personal than that.

Alexander and I were half brothers.

Yup.

The door opens and there she is. Her caramel skin is glowing under the lights as she was dressed in a black crop top and jeans. She rocked even the most simplest of outfits. She definitely looked beautiful in her brunette curls which I adored. She speaks to Levine and introduces another lady that's next to her.

That's until we make eye contact. My heart flutters as we never leave each others eyes and she grabs a glass of water somewhere. Completely avoiding me. I smile to myself.

I don't go after her or greet her or anything but give her space. Nobody wishes her a happy birth- oh wait did I say it? Well, later on today we all are going to be making a surprise party at her house. With the help of her nana. The expert in distractions will be Levine. The decor, both her and Sarah. And the huge cake she picked out was supposed to be delivered today. In round about 3 hours. We all have brought her our individual gifts and I just hope she'll like mine.

"Hey," I snap out my thoughts and I look elsewhere- exactly where I could hear the voice. I look down at the tall brunettes who entered too long ago. "Hey,"

***

Serine

I didn't want to. I promise I didn't want to but it was really just happening. My legs moved on their own and I found myself in front of him. I could smell his unique scent but stopped myself from sniffing him. I didn't want to seem like a creep. First it was Alex's who was heavenly intoxicating and his that was unique. What more?

I silently clear my throat- (I don't know how you do that) "Hey," I greet him even though and I could tell he is far gone. But surprisingly, it doesn't take me anything else as he whips his head in my direction and we lock eyes. "You're here," I breathe but something in me tells me I've repeated these words before.

To somebody else.

Alex.

"Yeah. Levine basically texted all of us because she was bored. So since I didn't have anything better to do..." he trails off and I immediately get him. "Exactly why I'm here," I chuckle softly watching Levine talk to everybody.

What a lively soul.

"How are you?" his question somehow catches me off guard. "I'm- I'm fine." I shrug and before I can ask him how he is, he says, "You know everybody who says that, doesn't mean that right?"

True.

"Should I rather day I'm ecstatic?"

"No," he says. "you could try being more honest though. There are certain people who can read others." I squint my eyes at him, intrigued at his reiterated words once again. The memory at the library was vague. But I remembered. "You tell me how I feel right now and I'll confirm it for you," I say testing him.

"Right now, well, you're not sad but fine isn't the best word. You're currently stressed and you're overwhelmed. You've got a lot going on in your mind right now that you can't even remember what day it is. But you're much better, not happy, but you're definitely in a better mood. As tired as you are."

Dang it why did he have to be so right? It was crazy and I couldn't even lie and say it wasn't true. "Not bad Mr, not bad," I smile and the remember. "Hey what did you mean by I'm forgetting what day it is? Because I'm pretty sure it's a sunny Satur-" I don't get to complete my answer when I see his eyes falling on something behind me. I turn around and spot him.

Silver orbs, black outfit and everything. You already know who it is.

Question is, why was he here?