Why have to ?

Taehyung pov

Her bright eyes turned cold and I hate it.. I hate the coldness in her eyes but I can do anything to keep her safe from both mine and her enemy. Why do I have to hurt the woman I love? Just because I'm a mafia.

Y/n-Ohh. Who is she?

I clapped my hands and partner for the ball walked inside.

-hi, shadow .. I'm Jisso Kim.

Y/n pov.

I saw a beautiful woman walking toward me with a warm smile on her face. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. No wonder why he chooses her?

She smiled at me warmly and introduced herself.

Y/n-please call me Y/n.

Jisso-You is prettier than I thought. Tae, am I right?

She said while smiling at him. He looked at me and turned around without any answer. I felt like my heart is bleeding but I maintained a cold expression.

Taehyung-Jisso, Y/n will take care of you. And don't worry about the dress for the ball. I have arranged it already.

She nodded with a smile and looked at me.

Jisso- I hope we can get along Y/n.

She just chuckled and I just smiled at her.

I and Jisso walked out of his room. I took a final look at him as the door closed automatically. Our eyes locked. I don't know if someday he will love me and accept me. I wonder if my love for him means anything to him. I wanted to hug someone and cry my heart out. I could feel my heart getting heavy.

Y/n-ms .jisso I need some work to do. If you don't mind let's meet in the evening.

Jisso-sure. Be easy, I have always gone into these balls so I don't really need that much help.

She smiled. She is so kind and warm.. I just bowed at her and started walking out.

Soon i was in the garden behind our building. Barely any member come here, i fall on my knee and started crying my heart out.

Y/n-WHY? WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE HURT LIKE THIS? WHY DO I HAVE TO FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM? WHY GOD WHY? WHY IS SO HARD TO ACCEPT THAT I'M NOT HIS WORTHY? if i mean nothing to him? then why he saved me that day and took that good care of me? Did he just keep me cause i am profitable to him? Nothing else.

Meanwhile Jungkook Pov

I was walking on the ground floor as i saw Y/n running toward the garden. I followed her and saw her crying. It breaks my heart to see her crying. I walked toward her and hugged her tightly. She also hugged me back and cried her heart out. I don't know what happened to her but i know something big must have happened to break her like this. She isn't someone who cries so easily.

Jungkook-Y/n please calm down.

Y/n-why ?why i had to fall for him? why jungkook? I can't take this anymore. I know that i"m worthless to him. But... I just can't hold this inside. I can pretend I'm ok when I'm not ok.

I was holding her near my heart. i just didn't know what to feel. angry on hyung or sad for her.. i just feel this so familiar that suddenly my head started to throb so badly and I suddenly saw a flash of a girl, she was wearing a red gown and she was holding a guy while crying so badly and that scene...

At a varied moment, I felt she stopped moving. I looked down and saw her unconscious.

Jungkook- y-y/n, hey wake up..

I tapped her cheeks but no response. I took her in my arms and run toward the medical side of our department. On the way, I saw Jin hyung and Suga hyung were also there.

Suga- what happened to her?

Jungkook- i don't know.

Jin- let's take her to the medical room. I'll inform others too.

I just nodded. Y/n please be ok...