Trick
Walking up the stairs to my apartment, I try to tell myself to keep this slow. Don’t go in there like a fucking caveman and haul her to the bedroom. I should be nice and seduce her, I haven’t done that yet. Who the hell am I kidding, I’ve never, not once in my life, seduced anyone, and I’m not even sure I’d be able to do it. For Hadley, though, I’d try. I know that without a shadow of a doubt. For her I would give anything a try.
Love. The four-letter word Riley asked me about earlier comes to my mind. Does the willingness to try anything mean I love Hadley? The thought stops me right in the middle of the stairs. Loving Hadley is much messier than loving Riley and I’m not completely sure I want to admit how my heart feels or what my mind is pushing me towards. All I’m ready to admit is how much I physically want her, and how much my arms ache to hold her when she’s not around. Right now, it’s all I can give. Her or myself.