chapter 9

"Dylan, come on, eat something please," I pleaded. It was currently Wednesday night and Dylan had still not said a single word to anyone he hadn't even moved. 

Sierra and I had tried so much to get him to explain how everything happened but he just couldn't talk about it. All he did was cry. 

Sierra had left a few hours ago because her parents needed her home. They were kind of  strict. Something I hadn't noticed before and I chose to sleep over at Dylan's. I got  into bed and pushed closer to him, spooning him.

"You know i'm gonna be here always okay," i said and i felt him shake as he cried then he turned around and hugged me. 

"He pretended to want something with me, lia, for a whole month he told me i was special and that i made him want to be better. He lied to me and broke my heart, he's not even gay." He said in between sobs. 

"You know the worst thing than being publicly humiliated, is being publicly humiliated by someone you love. " he cried and I listened knowing right now all he needed was a shoulder to cry on and me to listen.

"They kept saying shit and all I could do was stare at scott in disbelief. It hurts too much lia. It hurts too fucking much," silent tears rolled out my eyes. It hurts seeing someone you care about in so much pain and not be able to fix it. It was an all too familiar feeling and I hated it. I hated it so fucking much. 

The week wasn't much. The cool kids kind of laid low after what they did to Dylan he skipped the whole week and it was currently Saturday. 

I was getting ready to take JJ to the park because it had been a while since i hang out with my brother and i kind of needed a destruction from all this madness, plus the weather was nice, the sun was bright but not too hot, it was perfect for a day in the park 

I threw on  a pair of dark blue denim shorts and a grey shirt tying a knot at the front, my hair sat on top of my head in a messy bun giving me the perfect laidback look. 

It was Saturday so I didn't do any makeup. Who am I kidding? I never do makeup.

I moved downstairs with my brother ready to run past my mom and her man without talking to them. But of course karma wasn't on my side. 

"Where are you two going, and why are you leaving the house like you just rolled out of bed." 

"No te entiendo," my mum whispered in spanish. (I don't understand you) 

"I don't care, '' I spat out.

"Don't talk to me like that.soy tu madre," she started yelling at me . ( am your mother)

"Well you don't act like it," I spat back and moved to the car. 

"Am glad i don't know spanish," JJ said, shaking his head and making me laugh. 

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We were in the park for hours doing nothing in particular. Just hanging around and being silly. 

JJ was playing with his kite and I was standing back watching him. I got a text notification and saw it was from our group chat so I checked it. 

Dylan❤️: yall wanna get mani's and pedi's later today. 

Me: am at the park with JJ but yall go have fun 

Sierra💃🏾: I am free, pick me up. Aw lia how about we sleep over at Dylan's again we could all use some alcohol. 

Dylan❤️: well as much as i like the idea, my parents are back and so is Harley, it's not a conducive environment to get drunk. 

Me: i swear to god I remember a certain blonde girl telling me to never let her drink again.😏

Sierra💃🏾: I was in pain. You can't take the things I say seriously when I am in pain. 

Me: did you know you're a dirty person when you're drunk😏😏😏 you actually spanked me. 

Sierra 💃🏾: shut up lia. Meet us at Dylan's at 7 and I have a feeling you have nothing sensible to wear so I am bringing you a dress. We're going out.

Dylan ❤️: 😂😂😂😂😂 i swear lia if you're not feeling attacked right now your not human. 

Me: shut up Dylan my ego is bruised enough. I'll see y'all later. 

I put my phone down and looked back at where JJ was but he wasn't there anymore panic rose within me and I frantically started to call out his name. 

"Excuse me, there was an 8 year old boy. He was wearing a blue shirt,``I asked a couple but they shook their heads.

I ran around the entire park but no one had seen him. My whole body started to ache. My eyes were blurry and I was panicking so much. 

"Excuse me, there was a little boy here, he's wearing a blue shirt,  have you seen him...." I asked another person 

"He has brown eyes ... Are you sure??" I asked everyone and no one seemed to have seen him. 

I couldn't lose JJ he was my fucking everything, I can't loose him. 

I sat down on a bench and started to cry, not caring if someone saw me. He had been gone for almost 30 minutes. I was so scared and confused. 

I just sat there with my head in my palms and kept crying. 

"LJ why are you crying," I heard my little brother speak after about 10 minutes of just sitting there in utter hopelessness. 

My head shot up and my feet moved on their own accord.

"You can't do that to me JJ you can't scare me like that baby." I started kissing him all over and he growled but laughed making me smile. 

"LJ, I am a big boy, stop kissing me, you're embarrassing me," he complained in his 8 year old embarrassed voice. 

"I told you I'd kiss you all over even when you're.." 

"Even when I am 30, with four kids and a wife," he finished for me and I laughed while someone beside him cleared his throat. And my eyes widened when I took in  the person. 

"Ohh btw LJ, this is Hunter, he's my new friend."  

"Hunter." I said breathlessly. Why? You're guess is as good as mine. 

He looked nearly as shocked to see me as I was but lucky for him he's face recovers faster from these things, he cleared his throat but he didn't say anything. 

"Remember that dance we're doing two weeks from now, Hunter agreed to be our third partner." my head shot up from my feet and I laughed humorlessly, these two must think they're funny but stopped when I realized they weren't laughing along . 

"Oh shit,"