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I prefer being by myself all alone, but everything come to change. I never thought that I would fall for someone deeply nor I can't admit it. Everything starts from my name. I 'm glad that she came up to me and how I meet him. Never thought that I would become someone daring person. I just love him and adore him, but I din't know how he feel about me. I'm just happy that I made friends with them. Thank you for everything, for letting me know the feeling of loving some one. 


Shine Dilbung is a girl with down personality. But everything changes when Andie come up to her. She made friends with Amy, Angus and Elias. And even fall in love. They are still young and cheerful where the love is strong. Everything seems bright and beautiful when she fall in love. She can finally being some one happy whom she have never feel it before. 


Angus and Andie fall for her even Elias. Yet Shine Dilbung is blind with her feeling for Angus but everything turns into misunderstanding. While the feeling goes on with them.

Everything starts from my name

The beauty of white yet  not the beauty of winter. As Shine Dilbung hold up the white chrysanthemum from the  basket, she can't help but overflow with those longing memory of tragic summer.


" Are you alright?"": said Elias, giving a cold drink to DIlbung who is literally crying before a moment ago.


" Thank you": said Dilbung with those heavy voice. 


" Don't cry.": Elias, " I don't want to see you sad no more. You are kind of depress, for now I will cheer you up. I want to make you feel special like you never did before. It is so sad when I see you sad. That's why I don't want to see you sad. Even when you are depress you are even worst. Be happy for once. I'm here. Pack all your troubles in a suitcase and put it in the locker." continue  his words with those affectionate tone and warmth expression. His eyes make the galaxy of those dreamy console. 


Shine Dilbung fix her eyes to his galaxy. 


" And don't think of it. You can fix it another time if you need to, but happiness is all you need right now. Once you are out with me, your depression will be over. I understand what you are going through, nobody needs to feel sorry for nobody. It will never happen, beside it is a fool game. Lay your head on my shoulders. And listened to that gentle music that is playing on the radio. It is calm and soothing you never heard it before. Me either. I don't want to see you sad again. Get a life." 


Elias words emerge onto the sea small waves rolling gently to shore while Shine Dilbung fixed her eyes to him. 


We all have been through each and every incident we can. We can't deny nor run away, believe that its make everything grow into something stronger within us while we fail to discover or just deny the fact that we all know. 


The silent and butterfly moment meet its end when Elias phone get ring up saying that Shine Dilbung grandma is no more, dead. 


Shine Dilbung cried till her lungs gets out. She find everything hard to understand. Seems like the world and fate have turns its back to her. The life in darkness but sees the summer sunshine, a loving parents from within the shadow yet she knows the love, the incident of nightmare but she finally grow out of herself and trust others have faith. Is this all the things that deserved?. 


A body yet empty and cold, the lips and cheek that turns into pale color, a heavy heart but a tears no willing to well up anymore. Seeing the soul almost to goesn cg out of its light, Elias embrace Dilbung into his arm and console without a word yet hoping his warmth can reach her.


 The out cried of Hazel calling Dilbung with those brightest smile, wakes her up from  memory of flashback.


" What are you zoning out with till the point you didn't see us.": said Elias as he walk in with Hazel.


" Nothing........Ohwooo~ our Hazel~mommy is sorry okay.": Dilbung focus on Hazel. 


" Hazel, ice cream, papa. Yummy. Mama eat.": Hazel says as cum with those cute gesture for her small hand and beautiful smile. Trying to explained that Elias have bought her an ice cream and had them together while they bought the same for Dilbung and it taste good too. 


" You are still the same.": Elias pat Dilbung head as he know her too well to the point he can't resist to give her those warmth feeling.


Suddenly everything the same was different as if the edges were frayed and losing colors dissolving it was quiet, a heavy unbearable silence. This is the road we must all travel in our own space others may walk besides us their invisible arms ready to catch out fall. Amazingly we emerge with new holes that never fill yet through these raw spaces the light will slowly return and we grow once again a rare resistant bloom.


Chapter 26 : Chrysanthemum.