Her or Her

Reaching Jessica's door . I banged it loudly . Probably waking up the neighbors .

" you here ?" She opened the door , with confusion. " I thought you will come late !" She made a weird face .

" any problem , with me coming babe ?" I answered .

" No ! Not at all !"

" why you look like the other wise !" I asked .

I did not wait her to reply .

And pushed her and entered the home .

Now I get it .

She was doing this behind my back .

" you really thought , you would hide it for me !" I asked crossing my arms .

She lowered her head . Her long height looked smaller like this . And her long natural brown hair fell on her face . Make it hard to look at her .

"Look at me !" I gritted my teeth .

She did .

I like obedient women .

I smirked at her .

" come babe ! I don't want you to watch cartoon all alone , I want to see with ya !" I opened my arms to come and hug me .

Instead she pouted .

" NOOoooo !!!" She replied in her baby voice .

"You always fall asleep , and then kick me out of the sofa !" She complained.

" don't get nasty oky ! Come here and hug me !" I ordered .

She came rushing towards me and hugged me .

I sniffed her . She smelled like flowers .

I pushed her away .

" well ! That's enough !"

She reminded me of that blind girl .

But for some reason I felt guilty to steal the car . Well tomorrow Damon and John will sell it off , and vanish for a few days . Until the case get closed and eventually show up like a Christmas present . We have been doing it for years . And never get caught .

And now I was feeling low for that girl .

No boy ! Grow up ! Remember when people kicked you , bullied you , your parents even left you . No one loves you , no one loves me !

Yes !

This is the vibe ,that made me do things .

And build my confidence.

" Jess !" I called out .

She came , her eyes focused on the wall .

" Jess ?" I aksed.

" yes babe !" Her eyes still focused on her stupid cartoons .

" let me tell you , your mistake !"

Before she could understand my words .

I pulled her closer to me .

And there's -that face . I love this .

They way she shudders .

" you should obey !" I whispered in her ear .

And she knew what will happen next .

I opened up my belt and lined her to the wall .

And she tightened her lips . From pain . She knew I don't like sounds , she make.

That made me more angry.

"Call me by my name !" I said .

Instead her eyes widened .

She mouthed -'NO' .

" yes !" I mouthed back .

And raised her both arms upon the wall . And tied them with the belt .

" please not today ! Please ! M on periods !" She begged me .

" you think I give a fuck !" I answered . A strong smile of dominance crossed my face .

Of course she knew I would fuck her .

No matter what the circumstances.

A tear stood edge of her left eye .

That blind girls face , crossed my eyes .

She said that she was hungry !

"Fuck , shit No !!!" I screamed .

I don't want to see her . She makes me weak . " fuck no !" I yelled from pain in my heart .

" Mu- ..baby you okay !!??" She asked.

" I don't want love .. I don't want it .. " I cried in pain . I hugged her arm . " I hate that girl . I don't want to love !" I cried and yelled and kicked like a kid . She hugged me tightly.

"No one loves you, don't worry .

No one loves you ! Shhhh... close your eyes !" She patted my hair .

" go to sleep ! Shhh ! No one loves you !"

I slowly drifted to sleep .

( nightmares .!!??? Is it all in your head ! ?

The scary demons ... that don't sleep at night , and just stare , scare the hell out of you !

Your worse fears turn into realities..

you tremble , YOU HIDE .. NOT INSIDE YOUR CLOSET - BUT INSIDE YOU ...

YOU THINK THE PAIN ISN'T VISIBLE??

TRY SOME MORE - MAYBE ONE DAY ,

ONE FUCKIN DAY .... YOULL BE A MASTER AT HIDING !

BUT WILL YOU BE WRONGED !

PROBABLY!

Will you find yourself ?

- I lost myself , in the dungeons ... YOU SHOULD NOT ! )

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