Brianna's POV
I'll give you a fill-in of those who was in my life before now. He was that one person I was very fond of, I trusted him with my heart, I was blinded by my love for him that I couldn't see through his lies, I couldn't sense how hypocritical he was behind his nice and polite façade. I guessed I had the mind and thoughts of a teenager when it comes to my love life, thinking that he would always be there for me, get married, have kids, and grow old together. Seems like I compared my life to a Disney movie. I scoff.
I did live in my head so much that I forgot that life is bitter-sweet. I have never experienced the bitter part of life except for one time, and that one time was my mom and the choices she made, but that is not compared to this.
Raymond Lynch, how will I describe him in one word, REED, yup that's the word. He was that man that every woman out there would kill to have in her arms, not knowing what a deceiver and liar he is.
Raymond could have any woman he wanted, well he had the resources and all of that, I still wonder why he chose to do this to me. Till today I still wonder if he ever cared and loved me the way I did him, until I came to accept the fact that he never did.
To have loved someone in that way was really hard for me, I put so much effort into our relationship, and I gave it my all. I'm a very practical woman, I guessed when I fell in love with him, I gave up most of my principles for him but I'm glad that didn't change who I was, I let my guard down, and thought I would live happily ever after. I know I wasn't lying to myself when I said I loved him a lot because I felt it, it was real for me.
Well not everyone in our lives comes to stay, some are in our lives for a reason, probably to teach us life lessons, and once we've been taught that lesson, they go for good, as mine did.
My relationship with Raymond is one of the memories I wish I could erase because it was all a lie. I wish it never happened and I never met him, I was proven right that love is a lie, and the fact that no one gives a shit about you but yourself, and you only have yourself to blame once it all comes crashing down. To love and be loved is one of the greatest things that could happen to a person, well I guessed I missed my chance.
I was betrayed by those who were the closest to me after family, I was left heartbroken and lied to. The reality of my life is sad and somewhat happy.
So this is the summary of me and Raymond, such a life experience huh. I chuckle.
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