BlackRikudo

Intro: all my life I felt like an outcast because of the way I look, the ideology I possessed, and the things I been through. I feel like everyday is a fight in a never ending war, whether it’s to survive or get the will to want to survive. For everyone fighting, understand you will never be fighting alone. I left a lot out for personal reasons that I might add but my goal was to shed some light on mental health, I also always wanted to be an anime character cause growing up and watching them go through so much and still have the strength to fight inspired and motivated me to do the same but a lot of them didn’t show the emotional trauma that comes from all of those fights that you win or lose and so this is about how I’ve been fighting mental health. I also want to point out that I didn’t overcome these battles alone, I had help but I didn’t mention it a lot because I felt alone, and to put it into perspective of those who are actually alone, and sorry I’m bad at story telling, I’m still figuring everything out just like avante is.

DetriMental

A lot of my life I procrastinated everything. Despite everything I went through you'd think this paled in comparison, but the fact that it was never prevalent enough to take a priority was why it was such a problem for me, and because I got everything done even while doing so just encouraged me more to procrastinate. Despite me still doing this even as of writing this, I want y'all to know that no matter how much you do wait, life does not and neither should you. 


Procrastination: you know you can do everything late and get the same results right?


Avante: yeah true but I'd rather not worry about things later and get them done right away 


Procrastination: but why would you worry if you know you will get them done?


Anxiety and overthinking: because we exist duh


Procrastination: yeah but look at where they have gotten you.


Avante: yeah and where have you gotten me


Procrastination: that's your problem now, you can worry about me later and focus on the bigger problems first. 


Avante: you know that actually makes sense coming from an emotion that doesn't.


Procrastination: well I am apart of your mind, naturally I'll only follow the most logical point of justification you have.


Avante: and let me guess you'll do subconsciously too?


Procrastination: well yes and no, only when you truly realize you are is when you actually try to change that.


Procrastination: you're smart I'm sure you already know what procrastination means...


Avante vs procrastinating