Lady Fox's Diary page 5

That I remember ... for a while now ... the only one who loses underwear is me

-Of course not.  Why you ask?.

She said she was naive, although she was not so naive.

-Not for nothing, I just can't find something ... But I think I've been a bit careless, I'll look later, now I'm going to fix myself, today it's up to me to prepare breakfast, luckily it's still early

-He hasn't slept.  Truth?.

-no, I could not

I forced a smile as she looked at the ground

-Sometimes I envy them ... They are so happy and can be so ... normal

-We are all normal dear sister, do not forget that we were created in the image and likeness of the Lord.

-I do not know in what resemblance I paint myself.  It must be in his member ... Ahem ...

look at the sister superior

-Sorry, I'm leaving, see you in a while

I said walking backwards away from her

-Try to rest and do not strain dear sister, see you later.

I retired to my rooms, there I arranged myself calmly and felt the inevitable, I was not sleepy.  Again my desire disappeared.  Even the sister superior had her skirt wet.  How much I envy her.  I was immersed in my thoughts as I went to the kitchen, I began to hum and in the process of preparing breakfast, the atmosphere was so calm, I forgot that on mass days the girls did not get up doing dirty things, and the night before they went to bed  early

-Ah, it's peace, it's so relaxing

A peace that was interrupted when I felt someone enter the kitchen and the smell of cigarettes assaulted my nose.  Immediately a small cough attacked me

-Good morning Dad

I was looking in her direction, to my surprise my legs shook and I had the urge to hold onto the kitchen table

-God...

Whisper

-Why do you call the name of our lord?

This one apparently had come to help himself some water

-I am not calling anyone, I was saying good morning to you

I looked away but I kept looking at him out of the corner of my eye

-I wanted to ask you something ...

-That would be?.

I ask while drinking some water

-Why are my panties the only ones that disappear?

I said bluntly, I wasn't very interested in delicacy with him, after all ...

-Who knows.

I just answer while lighting another cigarette

-Do you see it normal?

I asked surprised by his answer, clearly something was not right in all this

-Ah ~

I placed my hand over my mouth, apparently at some point I had developed Hierophilia, and attraction to the father.  But as far as I knew, I was just wetting my panties to no avail, because I couldn't get to have that man

-Since your arrival many things have changed, it is not to be expected that something like this could happen one day.

-But because only mine.  You should take care of fixing that.  You are the father

recline

-And it is not my fault that they act like that, if they do, it is because they were quite lusty before my arrival, because nobody forced them

-You're just a lost sheep.  Because I should?.

He said in reference to finding out about the disappearance of my panties

-Maybe you don't because you are the one who steals them

She was upset even now she was passing her position in the direction of the exit

-What if it were me?  Would you do something?

I spit

I stopped in my tracks ... Just imagining that it was he who was taking my underwear, and what he could do with them turned me on, I didn't know why, but he did.

-If it were you ... you ... just .....

I turned to look at him

-Then you could only do one thing

- And that would be ?.

-Then it's you.  But how?.  If you only know how to criticize me.  Debuelmelas !.  Because if you don't ...

- Of being me.  If it's me ... then what?  You won't get your forgiveness if that's what you think.  And in any case, I have a mass to prepare.

-I do not want your forgiveness! And you better not be you, because if you are, you will have to fuck me

I yelled at him, even though I knew no one would listen to us, and I ran out of the kitchen like crazy, I knew that after saying that I was going to regret it, but I still couldn't help it.  His blood was too hot.  And not just the blood

-May God forgive this young lost sheep.

I murmur and since you had left I chose to take care of breakfast, that is, serve it

And well.  Where did that lost sheep go? Very easy, to his room, from where several loud sounds were heard, although again there was that sensation, of a gaze fixed on my neck.  Someone curious, or perhaps my mind was beginning to be affected with the passage of time.  But, this time the little lost sheep did not even bother by the feeling, it kept throwing things in the room with anger, smashing them against the walls, making them shatter.

I took my suitcase, and began to put all my things, I threw my clothes angrily inside it, said inaudible things, and yes.  The only thing that was clear was my crying.

After a few minutes I could feel someone open the door, it was the older sister who seemed to have come because of the commotion

-Dear sister, is something happening that makes you feel so upset?

-Nothing that can't be fixed

I was still in the same situation

-I came here to seek help and found rejection

I said while putting my underwear away

-I was looking to heal myself and I ended up making this a .... What do I know ....

I kept putting my things away

-I fell in love with a man who will never reciprocate me

I closed the suitcase

-I can't live like this ... I came looking to improve and only get worse

-Sister, be patient, our lord always has a divine plan regarding each person, you are no exception, just wait and remember.  When you want something, you must fight for it.  He does not believe?

-Yes, I think so, that's why after mass I'll go find a lodging near here, I need to improve, and apparently here ... I'm only going to keep getting worse

She was sitting on the edge of the bed with her head down.  Despite keeping her voice as long as she could, the tears kept falling

-Sister, your heart is the one that dictates if there will be improvement or not.  It doesn't matter where you are

She claimed, she had approached me to wipe my tears.  I couldn't help but laugh sarcastically

-I only do wrong, everything that touched my path destroyed it.  All because of this stupid wish that never settles.  He he.  Ah ~.  In the end the father was going to be right.  I'm just a lost sheep that doesn't deserve God's forgiveness

-We all deserve it.  We just have to wait, be patient and accept ourselves to get it.

I bit my lip hard

-Can you leave me alone?

-We are waiting for you for breakfast ... Do not be late, and do not forget my words dear sister.

She said and then she retired

-Accept me...

I just threw myself on the bed while she put her head against the pillow and screamed as loud as she could, it happened to me like that until I felt better;  After just drying my tears, although you could tell that I had been crying because of my reddish and swollen eyes, I adjusted my clothes that had been wrung out and went down.  In the dining room all the others were waiting for me to have breakfast, the only one who had already started was the father who only looked at me while he ate.

-Sorry, I'm not hungry, I hope you like the food and enjoy

I made a small bow and with it I prepared to leave the dining room.  They all followed me with their eyes, some did not understand the reason for my attitude after all.  I just retired and once I was near the door I ran out of the place, I did not feel like talking to anyone, nor that anyone will find me, so I went to hide in the place that seemed the most peaceful of all in this immense monastery

-Ah ~, roses

A small ball was thrown in the middle of the rosebush, where it began, the smell of roses.  Right now it was so relaxing.  In the distance I could see someone watering some, it was the young bartender from the day before

-It has no case

I sighed and leaned my head to my legs, I was still in my place, I did not pay much attention to the young man I have to admit, until

-Hello pretty lady.

I heard his voice, nor had I noticed when he had approached