Chapter 9 Regret

(Atlin's Pov)

It's a normal day for me, as I always go around the garden of the academy, to relax, for a while now I saw how much the gardeners trying to make the garden beautiful and lovely.

But suddenly, "Ughhh." I still have some things I never told my siblings about. It's when I was at least 12 years old, I was the same kid as always and very much a normal kid at the time as well, but I did this. When my father took me to someplace and relax, the bandits came and try to rob our belongings in the forest.

It was dark, lonely, and quiet as I got separated from my father and then a scary beautiful woman came to me and said. "There you are, you little shit!" The woman yelled and restrain me from running away.

"You look like someone worthy of going into an arena, I'll be rich because of you, and your gonna be my "pet" wouldn't you agree?" I found it horrifying and I bite her and then, she screamed very painfully. "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!" After she recovered from that she yelled. "You little brat!" I took the knife that fell on the ground and then hit it in her guts, as she bleeds and screamed in agony and cried for help.

I killed her. After I was rescued by the knights, I was returned to my family, I have a horrified face on me. As I went to bed I always have this nightmare, this "Regret." Did I do something wrong? 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"Ha! Pathetic! You can't even handle yourself for what you did!" A voice I heard in this and I'm somewhere not in the garden I rested.

"Where am I?" I asked and I'm scared as if I saw this figure behind and it's me? I'm shocked and I can't move my body, I screamed for help, but nobody came.

"You always tell yourself, that you wrong to kill a person like this crazy bitch who almost sold us and treated us like shit!" The voice that is in my head and tells me the harshness of reality.

"You think that you are courageous among your siblings, but in the end, your nothing but a lying coward, a coward who never seeks help or has done anything before they act, that coward is you." "Please... stop..." I beg to not hear any more words. "Ha! See, your defying yourself and not accept of what cost to kill that woman and haven't learned a thing, face it, idiot, this is the real world, where everything is shit around us. There's no such thing as a happy ending and other kinds of bullshit fairy tales, look around. You think you could overcome this. No! let's face it and say the truth that you're a coward!" "Shut up!" I yelled at them and it's not real.

"What? care to cry for someone to understand your pain, like calling for. Mommy! Daddy! Everyone! Show me what you think would happen in this." I called for help, but. "Nobody came." How did that figure know what I was thinking? "How do I know?" The figure answered this. "I know because I am you." "What? No, there's no way. That's not real." The figure disappeared as began to be in despair and I want to think of it as a dream. We're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real, we're not real. I woke up and I'm back.

In the garden where everything is normal, that's cause it's not real. Of course, it's not real. I go to someplace where no one heard and saw, I laughed maniacally that none of this is real. "Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!" I laughed again and again, as I thought, it's not real. There's no way I'm going back through this hell ever again.