Memories

In Quill's mind space Caspian was sitting before the omniscience tablet absorbing the ancient enlightened energy without holding back then use it to nourish Quills body which is also practically his body, but wasn't as easy as it sound because the energy was thick and heavy so before he could absorb it then latter on refine it for the nourishment one will know it was a tedious work.

SIGH!

Caspian just wanted to rest and conserve his energy, so he transmitted his voice to Quill but there was no connection which made him wander what was wrong so he quickly opens his eyes and did not need a seer to tell him that he was not in the mind space anymore which made him scream.

ARRRGHHHHH!

but his scream wasn't due to his frustration of not being in the mind space any more but he was going as he was beaten by a gang of boys, no matter how he tried to lift himself he couldn't but only to lay down on the wet asphalt and receive the full force of the beatings before someone placed his boots on his head, while the rest cheered on. from what Caspian gathered he discovered that the boys that ganged up on him to be the 'dark snow gang' and the one that was stepping on his head was their leader. due to Caspian keen senses he realized that despite the rest being just plain humans, their so called boss who was two years older was an enlightened being.

'you f**kers, just let me get any of you, you will be groveling at my feet'

'dumb ass monkeys, i am talking to you losers let me go and see me take on your whole squad with my closed'

but no matter how loud Caspian shouted it was as if he was the only one that was hearing himself.

"Quill next time you think you can report us to the schools disciplinary board, just know that will give you a two fold of that did you hear me you scum" the boss said finally before he spat on his face and then left him there in pain. Caspian was stunned on why the dude mention Quill's name and that is when it dawned on that he was reliving Quill's memories.

"Quill is this really the live you lived, Goddamit, you were weak" Caspian thought out loud before the scene started changing.

"hey to who ever that's controlling this memories, give me a heads up before changing the scenery" Caspian shouted as he was in a dark space but there was no response just the echo of silence.

'well there was no harm in trying' he thought that is a long shot effort, as he ended his thought the place became brighter as he saw himself in a house that looks familiar.

"so the next memory scene happened in this house, well it was quite expected" Caspian commented as he mentally prepared himself for an outright beating. but what happened was contrary to what he was expecting.

a familiar voice rung in his head but Caspian couldn't know were to place it, it sounded too familiar but before he could decide whether to answer the call or not, Quill's body suddenly moved to the voice direction while answering back.

"yes mom"

Caspian finally discovered why the voice was so familiar, it was his mom. but Caspian wasn't happy about the whole thing because what is the use to see through the eyes of a body but can't use the body, but soon stopped his train of thoughts as he suddenly recalled that this memories he was reliving wasn't recorded in the mind library before the evolution.

'but why' he wondered as he expect to find the answers soon.

When Quill reached were his mother was, he screamed as he rushed towards her to deliver her from her captor but since his body was frail and weak he was easily knocked down. some masked men had attacked their house and overpowered his parents, his dad was beaten beyond recognition as he laid there limp on the floor in his pool of blood. while his mom was kneeling with a blade was place on her neck giving of a cold glint.

"mom what did we do wrong that the world hates us", Quill cried uncontrollably but still stayed were he was because he was afraid that if he pulled any crazy stunt his parents were the ones to pay for it. his mom looked at him briefly before pulling her gaze from him so that her tears won't fall in front of him, seeing this her captor snorted and pushed towards him. not want to let this opportunity to speak to her son maybe it might be her last.

"Quill Bara, did you know why I gave you that name" Quill shook his head and wondered why his mother called his full name, he subconsciously looked at the people who raided his home he shivered in fear. he had always wondered why his parents named him that since he had no clue he looked at his mom expecting the answer.

"you know when we had you, we wanted to give you a name that can affect your life as you live after it. so we chose the name Quill Bara, as you already know that quills are long feathers gotten from big birds for writing with ink before pens were invented" his mom gradually explained as he nodded his head as a sign that he is taken each word piece by piece so that he won't forget it, ignoring the dire situation that they were in. seeing that he was listening attentively she continued

"and Bara means creating something from nothing. what we earnestly wish for you that whenever you fall that you pick yourself right back up, if your world seem dark seems dark use the darkness to create something beautiful and if your life is full of love and light never stop to use it the make the world smile. make you never stop smiling even when you are hurt and broken, use your name as a tool to create a better world and write a better story for it to follow" as she said this words the men dragged her back to were his dad was before stabbing her husband heart twice killing him on the spot.

Quill burst into tears as they flowed profusely down his cheek, despite the fact that her husband was murdered in cold blood Quill's mother eyes was still unwavering filled with love not hate. her eyes made Caspian realize something he never experience before but only knew about it from the memories he acquired from birth, this made him wonder if he was with his mom if that unwavering bond and love will be their if he looks in her eyes.

"hey, stop crying. have forgotten what I told you, don't let the hate for this life and world cloud your mind. you are stronger than what it seems, don't focus on the hate the world gives you but focus on the smiles and love you have to share. though your family which is us seem to fade out or be wipe away, don't forget there are others who are earnestly waiting for you to be bonded as a family with them because family is by bond not by blood. and never forget that you are not alone" she said coolly in a motherly tone and she slowly closed her eyes before her throat was slit. she dropped down dead holding hands with her beloved husband.

see that they had done what they came for, the group left their leader turned and looked at Quill one last time when one of the group suddenly ask

"boss why don't we end this brat misery"

the boss shook his head against the idea of ending Quill's life, and answered his question authoritatively

"no need, if he doesn't get strong and die of misery that means his luck is terrible. besides I want to see how he will avenge his parents if he will survive this ordeal" hearing their boss words, the group couldn't make out the logic or the meaning behinds his statement but they just shrugged it off because they believed that he won't make a wrong decision. Quill suddenly blank out when his heart couldn't beat the pain anymore making Caspian reappear back in the dark space but he was quiet as he mused over everything he saw.

'this are Quill's darkest memories that he has suppressed for a long time, and the group that killed his parents has the same markings as the dark snow gang' after thinking about everything, he saw Quill in a different light. he felt the bond between him and Quill getting stronger, he no longer saw Quill as a shell that house his will but as a brother worth fighting for. as he closed his eyes and reopened them he saw himself back at the mind space which gave him joy. he quickly stopped himself for squealing for joy, when he remembered the fraction of quill's past he saw and experienced and realized why Quill was always innocent despite being in a 'dog eat dog' world.

sigh

'you are never alone Quill'

in the real world Felicity couldn't help but wonder why tears was flowing from Quill's eyes but seeing his face there was a smile on it.

'that's the Quill I know I will protect you, master'