Today, I went to the office so early and like another day happens, still too busy at work. I have 120 accounts to call everyday and it is not easy handling different kind of people.. Some are nice and some are not.
But , I still manage to smile and be calm .. Until now Im thinking about Mr. Park told me from the last time we talked.
I don't know but there is a doubt in my self If I should try to trust again or not. I don't know too if I am ready or not. I don't know yet.
But he made me smile , Yeah he did. But I dont know how long it will last..Maybe, I was thinking that I am afraid to encounter additional pain to my life. I am afraid because I know how myself when It comes too love ~ I can give up everything and gain also too much pain.
Im not fully recovered yet from my Dad case.. I always wanted to do revenge about it. But how?? Im too weak.
I didn't noticed that it was already evening and should went go home. So , I closed the computer again and off the lights. Going outside and looking to my motor..~ A motor~ is not just a motor but my investment and a gift to my self from being hardworking woman. It's rainingso heavy so I need to wait it to stopped. ..
Checking my post in my account in that app and posted.. ~ Its raining again..then.. I tried to check Mr. Park timeline..
He posted some pictures of foods there and too many comments also.. almost are woman. I feel uncomfortable reading those comments so I just went back to my account and posted some meme pictures again which is funny about Couple.
I don't know what I feel, but I feel theres something weird is happening to me? I just think maybe I should Ignore Mr. Park~ I don't want to get hurt again, we are friends.
The rain still not stopped and the electricity power off. It's black out, maybe because of the heavy rain.. My battery is about to die too. I had how many percent left and I didnt charge my powerbank. 😌 If i cannot go home early, i will go home too late.. So , I should choose to drive even rain can make me wet and cold.. or wait outside of the company for long hours.
I decided to start my engine on and drive.. Wet by rain, my mom got angry when she saw me like a wet chicks of chicken. 😅Everyone is too busy at their phones so i go straightly in my room and locked it up. .
I made my decision~. I will ignore Mr. Park starting today..
I checked my phone and it will die in few seconds. Idk how many days or hours the black out will take.. So i guess, it is good idea too but not good for my clients and work.
I opened my facebook account and check my messages there..All messages are from our groupchat and all are just waiting for our report today. I send my report again and after that I just think very deeply.
Looking at the mirror .. I see my self. Started to asked my self If I am still okay? Or if I am happy? Do i look sad? .. I combed my hair and I smiled.. " Here you go, Smile and love yourself. Although we are on our recovering process , we should be careful in any decision we will make? ok?.. After all break~ups before still we are here..Making our self strong.. for ourself and for our family. " Starting tomorrow we will make our self more beautiful, taking care again and let us see what will happen next. Tomorrow is my day off, so i have time to re- color my hair. Let's change it too ~ Red/Maroon~ Let's not think about Mr. Park and ignore him.. Besides, we cannot reply to any messages from him because our phone is dead batt.. They said electricity will comeback after 3 days.~ So that is good idea.