why it has to be me?

Mia get up!! Its 10 in the clock & you're till sleeping !! Get up lazy girl **

Hello Everyone** im MIA GRACE . Im from a middle class family full of chaos & clutter. Its my regular duty to get scolded by my parents . Sometimes I feel I should just die but then my mind speaks **stfu**goof why do you think that way ?? Dying is no solution you need to fight !! Fight for your life . But frankly I've tried a few suicide attempts but didn't succeed .

Im 20 year old girl with no boyfriend, no friend , no hope & full of Depression . Im just a hopeless hoe with no beauty (in my pov 5.5" hight, 50 lbs weight , Dark black hair , light Brown skin , Dark black big eyes with beautiful lashes ) I don't make friends actually I can't make friends :-* a bit antisocial type . In my 20 years of life nothing good happend . Just a depressed hoe im.

I just ask God why it has to be me !! Why me!!! Why my life is full of tragedy?? Why am I not fortunate ?? Why don't I get anything that I need ? Why don't I get anyone's good behaviour ? Why everyone treats me like this ain't I a human being . Why don't they treat like one ???!!!!! Why ? Why? Why ?

I also need happiness , affection , love , respect .

Everyone at my college makes fun of me because im not rich like them ,I don't wear Gucci , LV, Prada . God dammit Im not a rich scumbug like them . I just love to read books & I love animals it has kept me alive the one &only hope of my life.