1.life and it’s Problems

Trigger warning this story will be sad and more with mental illnesses and failures in life rape abuse so if you can't read stuff like this don't read this story thank you^^

I wanted to die no let me start from the beginning so you don't think I'm crazy maybe I am crazy maybe I'm not. But the point is actually it dosen't really matter because I'm going to die anyways.

Let me introduce myself I'm Lucy Graves I'm 17 years old this is my life story and of how I ended up in this mess so let's start.....

10 years earlier:

Lunch time:

Again I'm alone again I know I'm weird actually I never really had friends. My grades are bad my teachers don't care at all they want to send me away to a special school for people who aren't good enough to sick up with the system.

That's actually not the worst I mean I'm used to it being used by people I am always quiet not that it's a bad thing. Since I don't register or cooperate, the teachers don't like me very much.

My parents are discovered my father is a schizophrenic patient now let me tell you one thing at that time I didn't knew that.

Mrs. Ott: Lucy come to the board your not paying attention are you I'm going to call your parents is that what you want so be it.

Lucy: No Mrs Ott I was paying attention

Mrs Ott: If you were you can tell me what is 23+41?

Lucy: 65?

Mrs Ott and the and the whole class where laughing not that I cared it actually hurt maybe it's a day I never forget at all don't judge me I was in the 1 Grade and I'm still bad at maths.

I don't know what people call it I think I would call it Trauma I had many of them like one time:

I was cutting something and I think remembering something isn't easy I was cutting it wrong I talked wiggly friend Sarah so Mrs. Ott came to my table and said:

Mrs Ott: What are you doing?!!

Lucy: I'm cutting the paper out...

Mrs Ott: NO leave it you can do something different

Your job is finished!!!!!!!

Lucy: Oo-key

The night she called my parents I think the worst feeling is when she calls your parents to a conversation I knew something bad was going to happen....

Mrs: Ott your child is unable to do it she is always looking to the walls and she isn't even following the classes I think I can't do anything more for her.

She should go to this school it's better for her she can't learn anything at all and she isn't good enough for the classes she is literally failing the first grade so are you agreeing?

My sister: No we want her to repeat the class again

Mrs Ott: Ok she will be having problems at the third and fourth grade

My sister: We will be helping her she will make it

Funny isn't it I did make it I mean I know I'm dumb my friends didn't liked me too. I just had toxic friends who didn't liked me at all I learned from my mistakes.....

Like they say tell me who you friends are and I tell you who you are...

That's what my mother always told me My mom is a really wise and smart person giggles laughs I know I'm like my father like everyone says. Stupid and useless a broken tool that's all what I am....

Enough of the self pity I mean they were parts in my life who were good and happy maybe but the memories are gone I lost

Physical violence trigger warning!!;

Mom: Lucy where are you did you do your homework?

Lucy: I didn't do it yet I was doing chores so I couldn't do it I'm sorry

Mom: ,,YOUR EXACTLY LIKE HIM!!''

Lucy: Mom like who?

Mom: like your father every-time I see you I see him I hate you shouldn't be born.

Your only here because it's a sin in our religion to abortion your child.

Lucy: Mom I'm sorry I know your angry but I didn't mean it really

Mom: You didn't mean it so you can take the punishment for your actions

Mom was holding something I couldn't see it at first but it looked like a knife and she was holding a clothing in her hand and robs.

Mom: Since you like being a bad child I should treat you like it your grades are bad the only thing your good at is watching TV and eating!!!

Mom: So this is going to be our new lesson I hope you will learn from your actions and make me proud

Lucy: No mm-Oom I didn't m- eaan to I'm sorry really

Mother: Sorry dosen't change the fact that your father is an asshole and your the same as him!!!

My mom chained me to the wall she put the cloth to my mouth so the neighbors couldn't hear me when I was screaming...

That's not my worst memory I still love my mom children should always love their mom no matter what right...

Mom: YOUR USLESS STUPID CHILD!!!!

DIE DIE WHY ARE YOU BORN?????

She cuts me with the knife to my back of course she couldn't cut parts at my face she I was slowly getting unconscious and slowly everything became black...