feelings

Everything is going according to my plan, arni is front of me josef is supporting crowd is there and here goes nothing!

i gathered all my courage i slightly kneel down and confessed my feelings for him, but one thing was unexpected, The rejection, i never thought of it not even a single time. Arni,me and josef is standing there in between of this crowd clicking photos of us and i don't really know what to do now. I never thought he has someone he crushes on, josef grabbed my hand and take me as far from the spotlight. That was the most worst day of my life, eventhough its valentine's day. josef took me to a very quiet place and it doesn't look like a restaurant to me, people are not here even though it's valentine's day, it should be crowded here. josef ordered some frachkin named coffee and i just feels that we are in the middle of nothing. My mind is blank, my chest feels heavy, josef is in front don't know what to say. the only thing in my head was"i want to cry" and nothing. our frachkin comes up and the second i take a sip of it all my heaviness, all my uneasiness is gone. josef said that he often comes here and drink frachkin and that it is the speciality of the restaurant, this thing should be famous but who is gonna enter this restaurant after reading the name shityfood. half an hour was passed away like an air and i personally like the habit of josef to confort others and has a very good manner to speak to others.

So i asked him directly " do you love me?"

to be continued!