RECOUPING

On the way home I just started outside and Rocky didn't ask me anything, we just sat there in the car silently. I didn't say to Raja that I was with Rocky. He had a jealous streak though he tried hard to cover it up. But he didn't like the fact that I was with Rocky, in fact living with him in the same house. He thought of him as my fiance which was far from the truth but I was ashamed to admit that it wasn't him but his father.

He already considers me a brat. I don't want to be perceived as a gold digger either. I fucked up so much with him. I can't take risks anymore, particularly when I was newly in a relationship with him. I can not name my relationship. It wasn't a friendship or fling but something more at least from my end. He was just so amazing, I always watched him with awe even though he was doing menial jobs. It meant a great deal to me. I worshipped Raja to a great extent and it only grew with time.