Chapter 1

"We are too young to be broken and too young to be fooled"

"Are you serious Glimm?

You can't just break up with me just because of what you saw?"

Brick is trying to pursue me while I am packing my clothes in our well-lit room,

well, his apartment.

I am trying hard not to sob for it will ruin the braveness I am faking.

He grasps my hand and continues to plead with me to stay.

I quietly ask myself, should I stay?

There are so many words that are now popping into my head and every time I look at him,

the word "Go" is bursting as nothing happened at all.

How can I leave him?

How can I walk out into the door and leave my man whom I have a love for more than years now?

How can I?

And then his phone ring.

He let go of my hand and answer the call.

He seems running out of patience and then he messes with his dirty brown hair.

He looks again at me and then asks me once again to reconsider us.

"I don't know any more Brick!" the only words that come out of my mouth, expressing how hurt I am now.

"Look Glimm, we have a practice right now at the gym, and please! I want to see you here when I get back!"

He walks near and kisses me on my forehead, he touches my cheek whiles my face down.

"I love you Glimm, you know that"

And he's gone.

I heard the sound of his car and just like that, our argument for today ended up without proper communication once again.

I lie down and kick my luggage, pissed and annoyed at how I behave myself.

How can I still forgive him just like that?

How can I let him win over and over!

I love him and I know he also does but there are things he can't just avoid knowing that he may actually hurt me.

The sound of the rain added to the feeling of nostalgia. The memories we have back then, the year before he enters the University.

We are the fruit of a sweet teenage high school life, and now that I am entering the new chapter with him, as a freshman in the University he is enrolled, challenges and trials are kept popping out of nowhere.

He changed. We did change a lot.

I roll and roll until my hair is messy and I bump into the soft pillow beside me but it feels like a hard rock.

A message pops from my phone.

"The dorm is clear; want to hop in for our first semester? Come on Glimm!"

It's Kayen, my best friend since day 1 of my elementary days. I told her about our frequent conflict and arguments and that I am really planning to leave him, I know! I am stupid for acting like a pissed child but damn, I am having a girlfriend issue and he just can't understand my side.

It's been a week since I moved in with him and it’s a hell of a ride!

Our relationship changes a lot, he did. It feels like a lightning bolt strikes into me revealing so many issues that we should have fix sooner.

Distance really causes us a lot of trouble.

He is one year older than me therefore he went out of town earlier than me, less time, and meet a new set of peers break us apart.

We tried so hard fighting the battle that is why I am really excited about going to the University with him, finally, I will be spending more time with him while we study for our future but my expectation is beyond what I imagine.

The first day Brick saw me, his eyes told me everything, he misses me so much, his smile is still the same smile I am crazy over with and his warm hug and kisses feel like home.

Finally, we are together.

All those phone call arguments and love bird war turn into something not worth discussing but just as it is, I am wrong.

The first night, he is out with his fraternity brothers and got a late-night call from him who is pretty mess and drunk.

Asking me if I am okay but I am freaking not.

I slept without him and woke up without him.

What a good way to spend my first night with him.

This is not what I expected.

The next day, a random chic knock on his apartment asking his presence, they seem to know each other, an instant jealousy knock over me.

I asked him about her but he seems reluctant and changes the subject.

I spend the whole week asking why and guessing what he is up to, not until the night where one of Kayen's friends asked us to hang out before the last day, before our first school week.

I call Brick for him to know where I will be going but his phone is out of the line, this made me really upset so I decided to forget him just for tonight.

The pain keeps hitting me.

Kayen and her new meet friend who is Keall, a blue hair guy who looks like an anime but not a weirdo type, he is cute! I think Kayen likes him.

"So you are really wearing that fitted jeans and sleeveless top on a cold night?" Kayen asked.

"She's hot Yen, cold won't affect her, right hottie?" Keall jokes like a pervert but he is not, we just laugh.

“I am just concern when Brick sees you wearing that, you know?" Kayen added.

"Trust me, he won't care!" I rant.

We went into a house where there are a lot of party lights, empty cups, loud sounds, and lots of people roaming around, some are busy flirting and some are just wandering like a lost kid.

I have seen this scene in most college movies, where most wild and fun stories of their youth start.

I want to have fun but my mind is busy thinking of Brick.

"Kayen! Let’s take a selfie!"

And we post like we are having so much fun and then I fake a flirty smile.

I post it on my story and Instagram, intentionally for him to see it.

He is so near but feels like a million miles again.

What is his problem!

I get a cup full of beer, sit and stare at the people.

Kayen and Keall are now busy flirting like a couple, I knew it.

A stranger sitting beside me, I look at the wide space of the sofa and look at him wondering?

"If you are going to ask me if I am flirting with you, my intention is yes," the guy said with oozing confidence.

The way I look at him, he is indeed interested but somehow wavering.

Who is this guy?

The moment he sits with me, most girls look in our direction, some are whispering and some are boldly giving an impression of "duh"

"Are you a celebrity or a murderer?"

"Ouch! I prefer the first one but no!"

"Okay, nice meeting you but I am not interested and for your information, I am not single" I am not rude but I intentionally sound like one.

His eyes widened but he looks cool and cute.

"I know, I am used to it, and besides your aura actually tell me about a random girl who looks like a pissed girlfriend"

"I am pissed so stop messing with me boy!"

I think he is planning to respond to my sarcastic way of talking but then a guy calls him, Andre, maybe his name, and then he stands up, his body is build up like a football player.

“I’m going to see you around" and then he winks at me.

When he is out of my sight I went outside to get some fresh air, the sound of a bass and yell of the crowd is making me dizzy.

I try to look for Kayen but can't find them either.

Outside the area, I hear voices and splashes of water. I look around and then a familiar body caught the attention of my eyes.

I feel an excitement that without hesitation, I walk in his direction with a smile while the bass is synchronizing with my heartbeat, I suddenly stop.

A girl runs into him and hugs him as she owns him like they are into something and my breath stops when he hugs her back and spoils her with the attention she is actually seeking.

I can't breathe.

That one cup of beer turns into a bitter taste of vodka.

I feel drunk and dizzy.

I am hurt.

I am crying.

He looks in my direction; he pushes away the girl and then his flirty smile turns into panic.

FLASH BACK END.