Chapter 20

Helene's point of view :

8h 40mn

I was woken up by the ringing of my alarm clock, so as soon as it was triggered I rushed to the bathroom, so much that I was so happy, indeed the night was so long, so painful for me, that I

I kept turning around every second, so, I kept looking at the watch, so much that I couldn't wait for the sun to reappear again.

After a few minutes spent in the bathroom I came out once I had finished, very quickly, I went to my wardrobe, where I had already prepared a dress to put on me, once I had put it on, I went to my hairdresser for the final touch-ups: put on perfume, and my accessories (earrings, watch ...), and finally I put on my shoes and took my bag.

I was finally ready to leave, so as soon as I came down the stairs, I went to my favorite room: the kitchen, where I found the whole team, as soon as I entered, each as active as the next, then I launched a simple hello, continued towards the back of the kitchen, to have my breakfast quickly, and thus to take, the small cakes, which I had specially prepared the old woman.

After all this morning routine, I think I was finally ready to go for good. Besides, I had to sort out a few details before leaving.

Me: Bintou, have you defrosted the meat, for lunch in the afternoon

Bintou : Yes, it's been done since I woke up in the morning, don't worry

Me: ok I see, I hope you haven't forgotten the condiments either, for the accompaniment

Bintou: not all this is already done

Me: It's great then, as you saw, I have to go out then. I must

make sure everything is '' OK ''

Bintou: oh ok! then you go out, otherwise your dress is gorgeous

Me: Thank you, it's very kind, otherwise when you have finished preparing the meal, you can automatically serve, without waiting for me, since I am going to see Fatima, and I do not know what time should I leave from there low

Bintou: Oh! Lala! I would love to go there, if not say so that we support it fully, and that we never forget it in our prayers, and then say hello from me

Me: ok it's well noted don't worry I'll let him know, and I'll say hello

Bintou: Okay, thank you very much and have a good trip

Me: Thank you, see you later, I said coming out of the kitchen

As soon as I left the kitchen, my gaze met that of Khady who was sitting in the hall thoughtful, as soon as she saw me she stood up throwing me in terrible ways, she was staring at me, looking down on me. low, then let out a mocking laugh, as if it was to ridicule me, she probably did not like at all what I had done to her mother, when to me, I did not care at all, she could think, say, do whatever she wanted. I acted as if she

did not exist for me.

Once out of the hall, I went to the garden, where the driver was waiting for me, who had greeted me respectfully by opening the door for me, once properly installed, we could finally go there, phew! It was about time because I had waited so long for this moment.

A few minutes later we finally cross the gate of the Amar House.

The sun was so beautiful that I couldn't help but look at it. It was so beautiful, the landscape was magnificent, in short I do not regret being out, in fact I can not wait to arrive at the hospital, just to be able to hold her in my arms and thus have news from Fatima.

Besides, I felt so responsible for what had happened, I kept telling myself that it was all my fault and that maybe we could avoid it. I felt so responsible that it hurt deep inside me.

I keep telling myself, wondering, why do such sweet, kind and respectful people deserve a life whose way is covered with stinging and poisonous thorns. This is the case with this young girl, I keep saying it, and I would never stop saying it again, indeed with such behavior, character, personality, she deserves a better life, better even than the mine, with all that she has been through, her history, her journey,

it's really unfortunate that these kinds of things can happen.

I would dream with all my soul that she was my daughter would only be for one second. Indeed, I have never known the fact of being:

<< A mother >>

I would have wished so much to be able to give life, to be able to feel the pain and the joy that a mother could feel in her existence, it is often said that the greatest happiness that a woman could feel is that of giving life,

Unfortunately, God decided otherwise.

Despite the fact that I was never able to give life, I feel like a mother, and all this thanks to this family, the one who has always welcomed me with open arms without any problem, moreover do it. to see, to attend a part of their life and that of their children like: Mohamed, Ismaïla, Astou and Alima, makes me forget all my worries on this subject, to educate his children, humbly fulfills me, thanks to this , I was able to learn a lot, a lot of things. Each of them are part of my life. So I consider them all to be "My children".

Oh! Lala! Just being able to think about it made me cry, bring out some things that are part of my past, awaken a lot of things in me.