Chapter 38

Dioulde's point of view:

I can't believe everything that just happened right now. I have a heavy heart. Tears in my eyes. Consciousness in motion. Head full. In short! I am very bad. All I want is to be alone. Of stay with myself.

How I was able to do this to my friend, she who trusted me so much, she had placed all her hopes on my shoulders. I really feel like a coward, I'm a traitor.

I even have difficulty digesting my act towards Fatima. I can't believe I could lie so stupidly. It really hurts me about his situation. On the one hand, I didn't want her traumatized by the news that the doctor had just announced to me, on the other hand, I regret not telling her the whole truth about her state of health, because Fatima deserves to know the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

I hope she's not mad at me, she must be making movies in her head, I feel like I'm even increasing these worries. She must be suspecting a few things, she kept asking me questions, I was so embarrassed that I could not stay longer so much that it was difficult to look her in the face. Everything I do is for his good, I only seek his happiness.

I was even reassured by the doctor's words even if he seemed odd during our whole discussion, I had the impression that he was not too cooperative. He change the subject from time to time, dodge my questions, I had the impression that he was hiding something from me. It was as if he did not want to find a solution to this problem. I had the impression of suffocating him and that he wanted to evacuate me quickly. It was not fair play and responsible on his part as "Chief Medical Officer" of this hospital.

This day starts busy, I was really uncomfortable earlier in the company of Mr. Amar, that I had once again to lie to get out. This man stresses me out more than anything else, I don't even know the reason.

I didn't have a job or anything, I just wanted to be alone. After the news I just heard from the doctor, I needed to find myself. I never thought she was in such pain, that she was so sick that she even needed a donor. Life is so unfair and surprising, who would have believed it. Who could believe that this could ever happen to him. This is the reason why we must always be wary, we are never safe from what may happen in the future.

Does chance exist?

-No! I do not think so.

I never thought we were going to meet years later. And this at my workplace. And to think that I hadn't stopped thinking about her and looking for her so that we could find each other again.

I could do anything for her, I will do anything to save her life. This is also the reason why I did not hesitate to come to her aid only once. I am so grateful and happy to share the same blood type and so many other things in common. Now all that's left is to act quickly to shorten her suffering, she deserves a better life than this. This girl is really strong despite a difficult and painful childhood with the death of her parents.

All I want is for her to get out of this as soon as possible and move on. I would not stop praying for her, for her happiness so that she is safe and sound.

Besides, I keep wondering how I could tell him this sad news, I don't know where to start. Just thinking about this situation my hands were sweaty, sweat invaded my face more and more, my tears kept falling. Nothing could stop them. My heart was beating fast, it was hard to breathe just thinking about it. For a few minutes I thought I was going to die. What is happening to me?

I was out of breath, so I decided to sit on the armchair that was right next to me. Once seated I decide to close my eyes to calm myself down, I count to ten before opening them again. These ten seconds were so precious to me that I had taken the initiative not to think about anything. It was as if nothing hesitated around me, everything was empty. I felt so good that I didn't even want to open them anymore. The more time passed and the more I let myself go, I felt more and more better with my body. As Charles Nodier said so well, "true happiness is in the calm of the mind and the heart."

After the passage of time, I decide to open myself to reality, when I live it in front of me.

What did he want from me again? (I say in my head.)

As soon as I saw him, I jumped out of the chair heading very quickly towards the exit, I pretended I had never seen him, I rushed like crazy, I even ended up running all the way down the hall , when he made me catch up, he was so fast that I even had the impression that it was flying away like a butterfly blown away by the wind. He kept shouting my name. In the end I decide to stop myself so much that I was out of breath with the movements and he had already caught up with me.

Me: Mr. Amar, I have just been informed by the medical service, they would need me urgently,

After the release of this sentence in a panic I decided to run away again when he grabbed both my shoulders while looking me straight in the eyes strangely. I tried to free myself from his grip but I couldn't tear myself away from him it was stronger than me.

Me: I'm in a hurry sir, let go of me please, I said struggling

Mr Amar: Thank you,

As soon as I said this word "thank you" I was frozen,

M.Amar: thank you for all your kindness and courage

Me: what do you want to tell me? I do not understand

Mr Amar: I know everything that's going on, I know the whole truth

Me: what are you talking about?

Mr Amar: stop taking me for an idiot,

Me: no it's not what you think

Mr Amar: I don't like your behavior

Me: you hurt me, let go of me I beg you

M.Amar: for you to run away once again

Me: no, I will stay calm, I promise you

Mr Amar: I just want to talk to you, he said releasing me

Me: I'm listening to you Mr. Amar

M.Amar: I wanted to thank you for your decision,

Me: I only did my duty sir,

Mr Amar: you just won my respect,

Me: thank you, Mr. Amar

Mr Amar: this is the first time I see someone doing their job with so much courage and bravery

Me: thank you once again it's really kind of you,

Mr Amar: Your patient is very lucky to have you,

Me: Fatima, is much more than a patient, she is a sister for me

M.Amar: do you know each other ,?

Me: He's a childhood friend for a very long time,

M.Amar: oh good! he said surprisingly

Me: I am very happy that I can offer him one of my kidneys, it is with great pleasure

Ismaila's point of view :

I had just spent one of the worst nights of my life, it was terrible, I couldn't stop counting the hours so much that I was in a hurry for the sun to come up, I couldn't close my eyes because of the noise of cars that kept honking from left to right. Indeed I ended up spending the night in my car, it was the very first time, it was something unique.

Who would have believed it ?

I didn't want to go home at all after what had just happened, there was no way I was going to spend the night in this Man's house, even the thought of going inside makes me feel good. goosebumps.

I am disgusted by everything that is happening in my life right now, I can't take this life anymore, I have only one desire, and that is to kill myself. But no, I would not, because it is often said that only cowards commit suicide and me Ismaila Amar, I am far from being a coward, I would live and suffer to the end whatever the reason and the situation in which I am.

Besides, I don't even want to look at myself in the rearview mirror so much that my face is sad, my eyes swollen with tears of suffering that suffocate my body. I would like to take a good shower, unfortunately for me I do not have enough money, neither having my credit cards with me, in order to be able to get a hotel as soon as possible. Too bad, I think I'll find another alternative, I'd better go to a friend's house. I still find it hard to believe that I am currently homeless (homeless).

It was around eight o'clock in the morning, when I decided to start the car to go to a friend of mine, nevertheless I decided to take the little money I had left in order to get myself some change of clothes to better myself. to feel, seeing that I was not having too much morale, I had to take care of myself, before I fell into a big hole, which I could never get out of.

After thirty minutes of travel, I end up going to a local ready-to-wear store. You could find all types of clothes there, I immediately ended up making my choice, so as not to be too noticed, luckily I had my sunglasses to hide my eyes, even if it was a bit ridiculous since 'there was no sun. I had not even been several minutes since I had already left the store, I had bought pants and a t-shirt, in short, the essentials to cover up properly. Now I just had to go to my "buddy" as soon as possible, I really needed to take a good shower, I didn't smell good at all.

A few hours later

I had already arrived there, all I had to do was get out of the car and knock on the door which was in the garage. It was also the opportunity for me to find my friend, since I had missed him a lot and I really wanted to talk to someone in order to be able to evacuate all the pain that had invaded my heart. . After five minutes passed he finally opened the door with his face all smoothed out. At that moment I had just realized that I had just woken him up, I was a little embarrassed.

Me: hello, I say entering the house

Friend: hi man, he said with a surprised look

Me: I'm so sorry I bothered you so early,

Friend: don't worry, be welcome

Me: you can go to sleep again if you want,

Friend: no worry, it's okay, do you need something?

Me: I just want to use the bathroom,

Friend: okay, you want some coffee in the meantime,

Me: yes, I will take it when I leave

Friend: it works!

I go to the small hallway that led me to the bathroom, in the meantime he had given me some toiletries. In not even forty minutes, I had already finished taking my shower, I lead myself to the small room next door to put on my new clothes, as well as my perfume. I felt so good, it was like I had just been reborn. Cleanliness is really priceless.

As soon as I arrived in the living room, I already had my breakfast on the table. It was just a small table filled with croissants, coffee, and juice.

Me: thank you very much for saving my life,

Friend: stop thanking me, how many times have you put me up with you for weeks?

Me: it's noted, I say while drinking a big sip of coffee

Friend: you look tired, always there to party

Me: it's not what you think

Friend: ah good! Explain to me then what is going on,

Me: I don't really want to go into details

Friend: ok I see, I will not push too hard then,

Me: what have you planned today

Friend: nothing special, otherwise I have to do some shopping in town, could you drop me off please,

Me: of course, with great pleasure

Friend: I'm going to go get ready, so that we don't waste time

Me: ok

Friend: you can turn on the television if you want

At that last sentence I nodded as if to say "yes." », But in reality I didn't want to. I force myself to smile as hard as I can so as not to arouse suspicion even if it was hard to hide everything.

One hour later

I had just started the car to go to town, it was eleven in the morning, the weather was really nice.

Friend: you are sure that everything is fine,

Me: of course yes, why are you asking me this question?

Friend: just to know, because you look sad, plus you didn't even eat your breakfast properly, I imagine you must be hungry by now

Me: no it's okay, I say increasing the music

He began to ask me more and more questions about this fact I accelerate the car, so that we go there faster. It was no longer possible with him.

Despite all that he decides to talk to me about these love problems, he kept telling me about his old girlfriends, his whole life revolved around girls. He had even told me about all his ruptures, each one more painful than the next. I was really shocked, I found him courageous, the fact of getting up from all these situations while keeping his head up, plus he was smiling from ear to ear when he explained all his misadventures to me.

He had told me that even though it was so hard he took these worries as life lessons, I kept staring at him, he looked so inspiring to me that I only asked him questions.

In the end, I was doing my best to keep the debate going. Thanks to him I had opened my eyes to many things. In the end, I didn't even want him to leave the car anymore, so much that I needed someone to talk to, luckily he was there.

Arrived at destination we decide to say goodbye with a wrist.

I turned around when I saw Helene walking along the sidewalk, I was even surprised to see her all alone at this time, so early in the morning. I waved at her several times, but in vain she had not noticed my presence, moreover she had her head bowed.

I then got out of the car to go towards her, as soon as she saw me, she threw herself on me, with tears in her eyes.

What was happening ?