I Love To See You Cry
ERICKSON ROERIG:
"NICK!! NO!! NO!! PLEASE LET ME GO!! STOP!! STOP IT PLEASE!!"
I heard Ruth screaming loudly behind that door as I was approaching her room.
"Ruth, dear, please calm down. There is no Nick here! You're with us baby! You're in safe hands!" I heard Dr. Scherzinger, I'm sure he must be trying hard to calm her nerves down.
After all that oldie's love for my chica is all so pure!
"Nick, NO!! STOP! PLEASE!! LET ME GO!! L-let m-me go! PLEEEASE!!!" Ruth was continuously screaming out to Nick as if she could hallucinate Nick still raping her!
I reached upto the door and slammed it open only to find Ruth, her both hands and legs tied upto the bed while she was thrashing hard, trying to break free!
"No! NO! STOP! STOPP!! PLEASE!! NICK DON'T TOUCH MEE!!" She kept screaming.
"Mental Break down again?" I sighed, walking upto Dr. Henry.
"We need to inject her Eric, look at the poor woman. All she could see and feel is Nick still raping her brutally!" Dr. Scherzinger begged me in that tone.
"NICK! PLEASE!! LET ME GOOO!!" She was screaming Nick's name even when the nurses were trying to touch her.
"She doesn't need the drug right now Doctor. I don't want her on drugs!" I said and unbuttoned my cuffs rolling up my sleeves walking towards Ruth on the bed pulling onto her ropes again and again trying to break free.
"Ruth!"
I called out to her sitting near her thrashing frame on the bed.
"No-No! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE NICK! PLEASE, I DON'T WANT THIS!" She immediately put on her guards against me, thinking that I was Nick.
"Shhhhhh!"
I pressed my index against her lips, inching closer, hovering over her small body.
"Calm down, Ruth. There's no Nick here!"
She looked into my eyes for a moment, shutting off with her thrashing. She was sweating hard, her eyes were all red filled with horror, her lips quivering and her body shaking as if she was feeling cold.
She was naked in the bed. Her body was too wounded to be frictioning against the clothes right now.
Just a soft blanket covered her beautiful body.
It's okay! It's not like they haven't seen her before, felt her before!
A moment of staring dumb into my eyes she yet again started screaming loudly, thrashing harder than before, shoving me away from her.
"NO! NO! NICK!! GET AWAY FROM ME! PLEASE!! DON'T TOUCH ME! DON'T TOUCH ME ANYMORE!! DON'T RAPE ME!!" She started screaming hard again.
Ugh! This little bitch and her useless drama!!
I came back harder at her and punched her jaw hard. So damn right hard that she fell back in bed, her head sinking back into the pillows.
"ERIC!!"
Dr. Scherzinger screamed out to her mercy.
"Get the fuck out of here!"
I commanded all the medical staffs and other guards present inside the room.
"Eric please! Let me sedate her. She would be fine after a couple of doses of drugs. Violence isn't an answer to-"
The doctor started lecturing me the usual crappy shit when I demanded once again, even more strongly.
"NOW!!"
And he gulped.
"A-as you like it, your highness!"
And they all emptied the room, closing the door to the room shut behind themselves, leaving me and Ruth alone inside the bedroom for the night.
~~
I looked at her on the bed.
Her head buried inside the pillows, she was continuously mumbling to herself shaking in fear.
"Nick! D-don't to-touch me! P-please, d-don't r-rape m-me! P-please, n-no!"
I unbuttoned my shirt getting rid of it on the floor, turning on the AC to a few degrees lower than the usual temperature inside the room.
It's gonna be a tough night, amore!
I climbed into the bed, over her body and turned her around holding her from her shoulder gently and slowly.
"Ni-Nick! n-No! P-please! L-lemme go!" She kept mumbling hard.
I first got rid of the ropes tying up her hands and legs. After my punch down her broken jaw, she had obviously stopped thrashing wildly and was only shaking like a mental patient, with her head buried inside the pillows, mumbling out to Nick for mercy over and over again.
"Pl-please, d-don't! Nick, please!" She kept repeating even when I was the one holding her.
"Ruth, look at me, amore! It's not Nick! Nick is nowhere around you amore!"
I gently cooed into her ears, holding her small, weak and naked frame against my half naked self inside the sheets on the soft bed, giving her the comfort of my arms.
My fingers gently caress her hairs, holding her head against my chest as she still kept mumbling in complete horror
"N-Nick! n-No! Pl-please!"
"Look up at me amore, into my eyes. It's not him, it's me! It's Eric, Your Eric! Look at me mi vida!"
And she looked up at me, her eyes drenched with tears, staring deep into mine
"M-my Eric?"
"Yup!"
I gave her a smile, "All yours, amore!"
And a stream of tears scrolled down her cheeks as she buried her face inside my chest, hugging me extremely tight against herself.
"Please don't l-leave me! Pl-please!" She said it out shaking.
I like it when she has a mental breakdown with others and hallucinates me as her saviour!
But what she doesn't know is that,
"¡Soy aún más aterrador de lo que el miedo puede ser!"
She knows that, by embracing me, she is embracing her worst nightmares.
But then she is wise to do so.
It would only make her stronger!
Mentally!
I don't even like weak chicks, those who have a mental breakdown after just a mere rape session or after watching their families getting brutally killed!
She is a strong woman, and that's what I like about her!
"C-can you...?" She looked up at me, remaining inside my embrace just like that from her broken pair of eyes, now she was calm, sedated.
I did the work, better than those filthy drugs could have ever done!
"Umm..." She stuttered scared of my reaction and I chuckle.
"Ask amore, what do you want? Incluso me mataría cien veces si me preguntas en este momento!"
....and I mean, every. single. fucking. word. I just said.
"C-can you, s-sing me a song?" She stuttered out to me again.
I smiled. "Why song, amore?"
"Because, your voice is beautiful!" she replied.
And it brings back so many memories...
"Alright!"
I said and pulled away from her gently going at the end of my room to unzip my guitar and came back again on the bed.
She lie her heads back down into my lap as I start dancing my fingers on the strings of the instrument.
"Maybe I just wanna touch you
Feel you warm inside again
Maybe I just wanna hurt you
The sweetest pleasure is pain
I don't know why, why
But I love to see you cry
I don't know why, why
It just makes me feel alive
.
Are you coming to the moment
When you know your heart can break
I'm inside you, I'm around you
I just want to hear you cry again
I don't know why, why
But I love to see you cry
I don't know why, why
It just makes me feel alive
I don't know why, why
But I love to see you cry
I don't know why, why
But it makes me feel alive
.
You don't know how much it hurts
When you fall asleep in my arms
And if this dies before the morning comes
I want to runaway,
I want to runaway
I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why, why
But I love to see you cry
I don't know why, why
It just makes me feel alive
I don't know why, why
But I love to see you cry
I don't know why, why
But it makes me feel alive
I love to see you cry!"
By the time I was finished with the song, she was asleep, her arms strongly wrapped around me, her lips still quivering.
Her mind, haunting Nick's abuse inside her brain after so long, abusing each and every nerve cells inside her body.
I just knew I couldn't take her being like this anymore.
And I know exactly how to get her out of these memories.
I pulled Ruth closer against me and called Dr. Scherzinger.
"Prepare the shock machine. Ruth needs a shock therapy to loose some of the poop Nick created inside her head!" I command disconnecting the call after.
~~
I wanted some shit to be done on Ruth's head, and I wanted it to be done soon.
As soon as my Dulce amore caught some sleep, I carried her up inside my arms gently as she hugged me more tighter still mumbling Nick's name over and over again from those cherry lips of hers.
"Nick.. no! Please.. let me go! Please stop! No, don't rape me! Please, let me go!"
Ugh!
You need to forget all about it chica.
And I don't have the kind of patience and time to deal with your breakdowns right now.
You're my strong girl, mi vida.
And you should know that, your man is doing the right thing.
Reaching the room downstairs I gently placed her down on the strecher while the doctor adjusted the lever of his shock therapy machine to 50 volts.
"Make it 80, or even better, a 100!" I demanded in my stern voice.
The doctor didn't say anything, just kept looking at my girl with the love in his eyes that he holds for her.
The usual crap.
Every other man, old or young, falling for what's mine!
"DOCTOR!!?"
I demanded him enraged and he came back to his senses.
"S-she is sleeping right now Eric, she is looking so peaceful, don't do this to her. Not when she just caught some sleep after going through everything that she did!" Dr. Scherzinger continued his petition, "She is at the verge of dying Eric!"
"Are you done?!" I lift one of my brows at him and he stuttered.
"A 100 volts, NOW!" I command.
"She can suffer a long term amnesia because of it. It could damage her brains a lot Eric!" Dr. opened his shitty mouth again.
"You know what?!" I took a deep breath leaning forwards towards his frame, resting my both fists against the strecher she was sleeping in.
The doctor looked up at me sweating profusely, "I DON'T CARE!" I say.
"She is MINE! My toy, I'll do whatever the fuck I want with her!" I spat right in his face throwing him my last glare
"A 100 volt. Do it! NOW!!" I command.
And he gestures the nurse to tie her up.
A little while later Ruth woke up with a jolt suddenly realising that she is being tied up again
Pulling onto the strings she started screaming again.
"No! NO!! NICK IS HERE AGAIN, ERIC PLEASE!! PLEASE SAVE ME!!"
She looked in my direction, she knows only I can save her.
I smiled, my hand gently pressed over her forehead.
"Relax Ruth, it would hurt a tiny bit. And after you wake up, you won't remember a thing!" I say.
I stepped aside as the nurse stuffed the insulator in her mouth, protecting her enamel.
The doctor switched on the machine, both the electrodes pressed against each side of her head.
"Mmmmmmmhhhhhh!"
She roared loudly, all gagged up.
It continued for two full minutes, and when the electrodes were removed, she slowly closed her eyes slipping into the darkness.
After that I carried her unconscious self up in my arms gently and turned to throw a look at the doctor,
"You should rest for a bit doc. I don't think I would need you again for a while now! How about you go out on an exotic vacation to relax yourself a bit? I'll pay?"
The doctor smiled, adjusting his spectacles on his nose.
"I don't think you would let me rest Eric. With her around you, you would definitely need me every single day!"
I smiled back at the doctor, "Well that's true, Doc. Ella saca lo peor de mí y no puedo evitarlo."
And I walked upstairs.
The entire night she slept in my arms and the morning broke into the picture, after a few hours' sleep.
~~
I open my eyes taking a long yawn and felt her body all over mine, her hair filling up my nostrils, with her scents all over me.
I breathed her in, and she smelled of me, I definitely like that factor.
"Ruth?"
I gently caress her hairs, cooing warm into her ears.
"Wake up, amore?"
I say, kissing her hairs, combing them through my fingers.
"Mmh!"
She did wake up, chewing on her own saliva.
"Good morning!"
I smiled.
She looked at me and immediately got away from me, a little weak that she was she couldn't gather up all her energy to push me off of herself, shaking and confused.
"What's wrong, amore?"
I ask, smiling, trying to brush her hairs off her face, while she looked at me confused and afraid, with the dried blood all over her from the therapy last night.
"Come on, amore! Why are you behaving like this?"
I ask, a smirk pulled across my lips
She looked up into my eyes, confused with her pair of deep brown innocent ones.
"W-wh-who a-are y-you?"
She asked
Heh!
parece que la terapia de la noche anterior funcionó en ella.
¡esto va a ser divertido!