The separation

Aibek was more than ready to talk to Jake even if he was stubborn, they would talk, there was no doubt, so when they took a table the Canadian just crossed his arms in silence, he would wait for the Kazakh to speak although as he was a being that his pride Seeing himself badly injured, he wouldn't listen to reasons, not even apologies.

-Jake just listen to me please, later you can forget me if you want.... but... listen to me please- She asked as she begged, his voice was cut just a little because he felt bad because of the discussion they had had but that didn't stop him from calming down...

That voice made the named one somewhat lost, in the years that he had known Aibek he had not heard him speak like that more than the time when he kept his feeling when his teddy bear had been lost when he was six years old. Jake felt his heart contract as he promised himself that his sweet love would never get hurt but now his silly pride was leading him to do stupid things but... why couldn't he get angry? he wondered but for a moment he believed that the Kazakh was faking a great performance but he didn't say anything he just turned his eyes away so as not to fall into what he was doing, that's what he was believing, not knowing that nothing was false more than his thought.

-Well, I hear you now...- He showed annoyance at what was happening, of course, his heart ached for him for doing that to his friend...no...to his love, to the sweet love of him Slowly he saw how the brunette in front of him was collapsing in a way he had never seen before, those tears were there falling so fast, abundant, so big, there was a lot of pain at that moment and he, such an idiot, had not seen it until that I hear him speak with such a broken voice, so dull.

-Yes, I was in love with him...but...when he hurt me in such a ruthless way my heart broke...I wanted to fall back into smoking all day...in...trying to jump off a building ...or...trying to make something tragic happen to me in one of the competitions...- Of course, there was the reason why Aibek almost died when making such a complicated jump that luckily for the Canadian did not happen and Unfortunately for the Kazakh, they only blew that were not serious, since he had given up at the last second, although he still won a silver medal.

—But in the end, I gave up, nothing happened, I just went on with my life as if I didn't care... in the end, what could I claim? Then you came along, I remembered those childhood years and... I thought that maybe I wasn't in love with him... but that I was trying to fill the void you left in me... but I understand if you don't want to see it that way... or well... if you don't want to, you know... no problem, I won't give you problems, much less look for you... forgive me- With that Aibek left the bills on the table and ran away while crying, his heart was broken, maybe he already had a new theme for his short free program for the next competition that was less than six months away, so he just ran, ran to where he was living on vacation with the Canadian, took all his things and left, I don't see what he was putting in, he just cried, he covered his face with a mouth cover and left there to take a taxi that would take him to the airport.

In the cafeteria a Canadian was still processing everything, of course, it would be too late when he reacted and that's how it was, he paid quickly leaving almost as if his soul was snatched until when he entered the apartment there was nothing, just something he found lying on the ground, surely Aibek dropped it in his haste, a beautiful angry bear keychain that seemed old, Jake did not hesitate to take it gently and hug it in his hands, I cry, I cry for having lost the love of his life, I cry for not having stopped, I cry for having made him feel so bad, he deserved it, he deserved to be left that way, but I would still look for him.

Everything that had happened was enough to break both of them, one was immersed in his sadness while the other would search, as he would give rise to his beautiful Kazakh, he would not leave him alone, he would not leave him at the mercy of that Russian who surely planned everything to separate them, was upset, not with Aibek, but with himself, he had committed very big idiocy.

-I'm going to find you...no matter how long it takes me...but darling, you'll be happy again and by my side...- Were his words as he held the small bear keychain in his hands because he had run outside again to look for Aibek but not finding him, he tried to call him, but he was not going to answer him, so he stopped bothering the Kazakh to better think about his apologies and where he could find him without knowing that Bek was already on a flight to his homeland, Kazakhstana.

On plane number 0478 he was at window 20, in the VIP area because, although it was modest, this time he would use a cabin just to cry in silence, cry in his solitude while in his hands was the notebook where he had drawn the Canadian, it would be difficult to forget him, forget his kisses and his silly smiles, but he had to do it because he believed that he was already doing it. After all, he could see a publication of this in a skating rink.

—I know...I was always replaceable...-I mumbled softly as I cried, now hugging a stuffed animal, if someone saw it they would have the intention of hugging it and telling them; "Everything will be fine" but at that moment he was alone, just crying and feeling nothing.

The flight had no more complications, plus the fact that Aibek did not even try any snack, neither lunch nor dinner, so he got off the plane without much encouragement, there was no one to receive him, and he only arrived home in the taxi, a small apartment with few things, because he was always in other countries for the competitions, in addition, he had no one who was at home, pets? yes, he had a ferret that went for him to his neighbor's house who happily gave it to him, because she was trusted by others, she always fed him well and he looked very chubby that encouraged him a lot that he began to laugh softly, thanking and paying for the cost of the food I bought him and the clothes he had, he went to his apartment where he pampered and played for a while with this one, his little Taro, only that later his spirits went down again when he took the things out of his suitcase and as if Taro knew that his master was wrong, he tried to encourage him by going through his clothes, achieving his goal, a small laugh from his master.

That would be the first night of pain but then there would be a change, Aibek would change a lot that no one would recognize him, would it be for the better? He didn't even know it yet but he would try.

So it was that in the lives of both the separated until the most awaited by a Canadian arrived, the Grand Prix.