Farewell from Comrades in Arms

"I killed her… I killed her…"

My hands are shaking, even my whole body is too. My brain just thought about it, thinking about the time when she was on fire. I felt so scared, afraid of her death.

I'm depressed because I killed her. I feel guilty for killing her. I'm sick of myself for killing her. I was annoyed mixed with sadness when I saw her son because I had killed her. I can't lie that I am full of sin.

"Shiva, are you okay?" Niken asked, came over to me, and sat beside me.

"I killed her..."

Niken already realized that I killed the woman. She knew it from Ryo, who saw me pushing the woman into the bonfire.

"Shiva, I beg you… stop!"

"I killed her..."

"Shiva, look at me!" Niken moved my body to look at her. "Look at my eyes!"