Wilder

Dammit!

I lost my chances again. It took me a long time before I got to know Noah Davis's involvement in this whole affair of betrayal and revenge. And then it took me another few months before I tracked him down. Finally, he was within my eyesight but it seemed every time I got closer, somehow he got slipped away, making me chased after him all over again.

This time I couldn't curse the divine for the slow progress of her justice.

Moon goddess showed me the path to walk on and reach my goal but I got sidetracked. Did I blame myself for this stupidity? Did I even regret my actions?

No! Absolutely not.

I found something I could only imagine in my dreams, knowing it would never turn into reality.

Peace.

I had been shedding my existence for the past few years, running for my life and barely surviving. But I never got a taste of peace for once to shut the voices in my head. Tormenting me. My demons licking my wounds and biting me. And the growing suspicion even made me doubt my own shadow.

The woman with red hair weaved magic through her existence to instantly mute all the noises and beckoning me to follow her. To step into reality. To regain my confidence and became the person I once was. Not a madness stricken rogue. A pack brother. A blackprowler.

I didn't enter the campus again though my mind pushed me to go and visit her late at night. She would definitely be sleeping on her bed, tucked in warmth and wouldn't know that I again came through the window. All I wanted to see her face, lessen the temptation itching my fingers to touch her, to feel her velvety skin.

The woman had already stirred something inside me, I thought I forgot long ago.

How to feel?

I didn't know how I would react upon seeing her. I didn't want to lose my control in her presence and make her fear me. I needed to be patient and found another way to approach her.

My phone vibrated and I looked down to see the name on the screen and inwardly groaned.

"I thought I would get a call by now. But I assume you are too busy having fun with your prey. Don't ruin your shirt." Lars snickered.

I knew after I shared the news with Lars that I couldn't get a hold of Noah, he would surely turn off his playful attitude and became serious, too eager to uncover the actual cause.

"I lose him."

"Again?"

Ugh! I didn't know what to say if I were in his position and feeding him information and still, every time he came with an excuse, I would question his ability. But he remained sober and asked, "what happened?"

I didn't get into many details, only revealing what was worth mentioning, leaving my obsession with the red-haired woman aside.

"Tracked him down in Fallbridge. He was never alone. Hanging out with the wolves. Followed him till he entered their alpha's lair. Never came out. Maybe he took a different route. Who knows?"

"Did he suspect you are following him?"

"I don't think so."

"I hope not. He would go into hiding. It's hard to locate someone who works alone. Only faithful to himself."

I agreed.

That was why it was hard for us to pinpoint his location. Noah Davis never stayed a place for too long. Always moving. Relocating. Worked for a scrap of job anyone was willing to offer and paid a hefty sum.

"How's everything there?"

"The usual."

I nodded in understanding, knowing full well what Lars meant to say. My alpha was still looking for different ways to kill me.

"Keep me informed. We will meet soon." Lars cut off the call just the words were out of his mouth as if he was in a hurry.

I locked the screen and put the phone into my pocket and stared off into the distance. Specifically, zeroing my focus onto the cafe where the woman had gone a couple of hours ago and still, didn't step out.

I didn't know what I was doing here. Instead of waiting for the red-haired woman and stalking her, I should found out if Noah Davis had left the Fallbridge or he was still there. But it was like I couldn't physically push myself away from her proximity. Every thought ranked second when it came to her.

It was like she was calling me to follow, to stay close by and I was doing everything in my power to impress her. But how long would I let this continue? I didn't know. Should she ever want to know me?

She was too precious, too pure for someone like me and I didn't want to drag her into the dirt I was knee-deep. It would be selfish of me but where she was concerned, no amount of logic could sway me away. To make me understand. I needed to approach her and see her up close.

When?

The question instantly popped into my head.

My wolf was too eager to have an answer. He was already been clueless for the matter made our life hell. Forced us to fight every day for our life. My wolf wanted some assurance in his life and it seemed finally he found the very thing he was searching for. We were on the same page in this matter.

When he asked me again when we will meet the woman, who made us restless, stirring desire we didn't felt for a long time. I answered to put his mind to rest.

Soon.

We will meet her soon.