Chapter four.

I didn't go to the concert, or anywhere for that matter.

I need to do something about this before it gets any worse. I don't want to see her online. The very place I go to escape a world of torment that she created for me.

I just can't allow it.

I need to do something.

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~Cafe chronos~

I was out in public and it was day time. I felt out of place and even though people stared it didn't matter, I had a purpose for being out in the sun, which was hot by the way. Scorchingly hot and my body started carrying out functions I thought I had lost the ability to.

Sweat...

By the time I got to the café I out of reflex ordered the coolest beverage on the menu which was unfortunately a slurpy.

Within minutes I was regretting it.

Ahh... Brain freeze....

It didn't take long for her to notice me, she seemed surprised at first but after a couple seconds she smiled at me.

A smile which I didn't return.

She then messaged me saying that she'd be on lunch break soon and asked if I could wait a little.

I nodded and she went back to work, I didn't have a problem waiting, after all this is the last time I'd see her.

I waited... and soon enough... She came..

I had asked 001 about, what she thought I should do, without telling her the whole story and her response was "maybe you should be honest with her."

I was gonna be honest. Not like the last time, I'm gonna try to be not so angry while I explain to her why she should leave me alone and tell her why we can't be friends or anything.

I'll come clean.

I'll be calm.

Only it didn't turn out like that.

"Huh?" She asked "Don't get me wrong I only asked you to come here so I could make it up to you... I won't invade your space."

"I don't get it, why would someone like you need to get my forgiveness?" I asked.

"I realize that I haven't been the best friend to you that's all." She replied "I mean you practically ignored me since middle school, so I thought you had tossed me away so you could make new friends."

"And when my new friends started picking on you I couldn't help it." She sighed "I thought you deserved it, but I got carried away, I always kinda liked you so it kinda hurt when you ditched me." She laughed nervously.

"Well I don't, nor do I think I want to forgive you, you were my friend I trusted you to make the right decision even after your friends started... But you, you took it too far, not them. They didn't strip me naked in the gym equipment shed and violate me! You're the one that started it!" I was getting a little loud.

"But... But...I," she tried.

"I'm trying my hardest not to let you know just how much I hate you, so I'll tell you this as calmly as I can... I don't want to see you online." I took a deep breath "I can tolerate your ugly mug here, but I never want to see you online, don't message me or call me or 'drop by', I just don't want to see you."

She looked hurt, "Why did we change? What happened to us?" She asked.

"There was never an us that's your problem, so forget about it, you disgust me." Her eyes were beginning to tear up.

But I just couldn't stop myself. I was over doing it but I couldn't stop.

"The only way I'll ever forgive you is if you feel the embarrassment, the pain I felt that day."

I got up. I could see the tears run down her face now. But I simply walked out of the café, I had to put as much distance between us as possible. I was beginning to feel sick again.

The need to puke, wasn't because of her anymore it was because of me. Me. I wasn't her friend anymore. She was supposed to just let it go back then. Why didn't she?

Was all of this worth it?

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