Souls and news

What the hell was that? Did I die? Again! Who the hell was that and why the hell was I living their entire life while not knowing shit about them!?!

"My Diamond? My Diamond! Please, answer me!"

Brining me out of my little panic attack I see Pearl standing on the side of the makeshift Pebble bed with her arms wrapped around my thigh. She has a desperate, terrified look on her face, probably brought on by my sudden upheaval and the haggard appearance. Which is quite beautiful by the way, but she was too caught up to notice.

I put my left hand over my face and take a deep breath to calm down and place a finger over Pearl's head.

"Hey, it's okay Pearl, I'm fine. There was just a surprising development in my powers and I was just a little disoriented."

This seemed to help placate her which caused her to realize her hands are still on my thigh and quickly sets them to a standard butler position behind her back. She then speaks in a worried tone.

"I-I'm sorry my Diamond, while you were resting you suddenly started shifting around and making strange expressions. I feared something may have happened to you and it would have been my fault. I-I'm sorry and I'm willing to take the necessary punishments for my actions."

She has her eyes closed and looks down, like a child accepting an inevitable punishment from a parent.

"*Sigh* It's okay Pearl you only did as per my instructions and worry for my being. I don't mind you being a little handsy with me." I say the last part with a knowing smile and she just blushes and nods her head in acceptance.

I know I said I would treat her like a friend and not the object she was designed to be, but look at her with a tsundere blush! I'm not mistreating her, I'm mischievously teasing(bullying) her so it should be fine, right?

I used my telekinesis and gently lifted Pearl up and placed her on the ground and then sat in a cross legged position with my hands grasping my knees on the Pebble bed and thought about what the hell just happened.

I went inside my Gem, discovered my personal dimension along with the BDL and the remnant will of the planet along with lights or souls that were born from it. I touched the soul and lived/experienced the life of someone whose name I can't remember. Now that I'm calm I realized a few things about what happened.

Firstly, there is a clear distinction between my sense of self now, my previous life, and what I'll just refer to as a rement life. I know who I am and what is actually me instead of someone else. Secondly, it was easier to move Pearl from the bed to the ground and I felt as if I had a firmer grasp on my control.

So I experienced the life of a broken Fallen soldier and my mental state has become stronger as a result of it. I tested this by sending a piece of a robot out the window and discovered it went 130 meters, 10 more meters than last time! So I improved my mental state by living the life of the Broken Man and increased its strength by absorbing his soul.

So I guess the size and brightness of balls are based on the individual's life experience and the strength of their soul. The fallen have proven the existence of the soul and means on which to improve them and the soul I absorbed was way before the lets say Pre-Rick era(PRE).

So the limit a soul can grow by itself should be around the size of a basketball and it can improve naturally as they progress through life. My will was strengthened as I experienced the life of a mentally unstable man who was focused on one goal, thus improving my control. Then it's going to be harder to improve it as time goes on, but it would be more qualitative at that point.

Testing this theory I went back into my Diamond and found myself on the grasslands looking up at the sky of souls. I noticed that there seems to be a faint glowing mist shifting around the sky and raising my left hand I enforce my will to absorb them.

As a portion of the pale blue mist travelled into my hand I felt myself getting stronger in an almost inconsequential way. I brought myself out of my gem and used the same test as before and threw the robot part into the sky with my telekinesis and saw it go around 131 meters. On an unrelated note.

"There seems to be a lot of space debris making its way to Homeworld, right Pearl." I ask in a completely deserved innocent smile and Pearl responds with a calm.

"It seems so my Diamond."

So I have another way to increase my Gem powers right now instead of waiting for the material needed for the Fallen training practices. Nice.

As I got up and had the Pebbles retract the bed a white marble appeared in front of me and popped showing White with her hands over her chest as she flashes a cheerful smile.

It's only been twenty days and even by Homeworld standards I should have more than a week left. I haven't done anything besides training and she shouldn't be mad about that right? She gave me the month to adjust or is she warning me about the recent space rock shower that has been happening lately.

White giggled, almost as if amused and pleased with my confused expression and stated something that was much more stunning than my looks.

"I have a surprise for you Black. Our sisters are going to be born tomorrow, all three of them."

She spread her hands out with her arms bent, her cape fluttering as she did so and she stated in an excited voice.

"Things will be changing for the better from here on out!"