What a luxury.

Been an hour now staring at the polygons styled at the ceiling, remembering my past involuntarily, till it click to my head,

Where the hell am I?

Carefully, I lift my upper body tryna sit up.

"Don't move" a stern voice ordered and my eyes immediately meet Jarred's

"Why am- I, I thought I died" I muttered lowly to myself

"I wonder why you've been staring up at the ceiling for too long looking like an insane woman, can you tell me your name?" His expressions are way too many for me to easily figure out what to reply

"I'm Khalil," I sighed.

"Good, I bet you're hungry, can you stan-"

"I can't" I cut him off as he doesn't bother hiding his annoyance

"Alright, the foods probably be here in a few seconds"

I didn't reply but lay back on the bed and closed my eyes.

How could I forget about those kids who were there when everything seems impossible in my life?

I promised that I would take good care of them and here I am forgetting about that promise.

I wonder how they are all doing now?

My teeth are grinding each other about the negative thoughts coming into my head. They all left without a guarantee for safety or someone who could protect and look out for them.

I'm such a useless older sister. How can I even help them out of that place?

Is there anything I can do to help them?

How can I help them when I, myself, needed to be freed as well?

This world is cruel. I should've jumped right on that cliff bef-

"Sir Giovan, the food is here" I heard someone speak as it cut my overthinking

"Thank you" Jarred replied as he took the small desk with food in it and walked to me.

I was hesitant at first but when the hot chocolate reached my nostrils, I thought I had never had a proper meal for so long that I found myself sitting impatiently for the food.

"Poor little baby, here, eat carefully 'kay?" Jarred's teasing voice is evident and I just give him a death glare for taking him so long placing down my food.

He placed down the desk in front of me and the fruits, hot chocolate and bacon and egg are like twinkling, enticingly tasty.

I devour the food satisfyingly, not minding the pair of eyes watching me. It's not like I wasn't used to it.

After finishing the food, I let out a loud satisfying burp as I caress my tummy

"Nasty" I heard Jarred commented

"Get the fuck outa here" I replied Apathetically

Without a warning, a hand is gripping my neck tightly burying me down the bed forcefully.

I was choking and I tried to escape but then I just realized I don't have the energy to fight back.

"You never learn Khalil, and I got tired of your crappy and trashy attitude. You need some lection" he stated without loosening the grip, instead, he clenched it tighter, my eyes teared up by the pressure of my lungs needing for air.

"S- stop, "I choked

He just chuckled "what? I can't hear you, louder please" the triumph dancing in his eyes

" S-sto-stop, i-ack-im sk-sor-sorry"

I desperately patted his arms begging him to release me as I looked sorely painful at his eyes.

His evil eyes never changed as if he was satisfied seeing me at this rate. It Was the very first time I felt afraid of him, he's scary, I could feel he was ready to kill me.

My eyes become blurry as my lungs begin to burn. I'm barely holding his arm for support.

"telling me you're sorry for disrespecting me but still kept on doing it over again?" His voice was filled with malice

"Do you really wish to die? Tell me, I'll give it to you gladly, it's not like someone out there will cry for you, it's not like someone is waiting for you, do you think you're worthy?" He spat on my face furiously and I shook my head slowly

"Do you dare plan to escape again?" He gritted

"I-i won't" I managed to utter before he completely blocked my airway making me gasp like a fish

"Do you dare disobey me again?" He asked again. I desperately shook my head looking straight at his terrifying face.

"Will you promise to do everything as I say?"

As I heard his statement I just know that my life will face another hell as I tightly closed my eyes and nodded pathetically.

I need to live because someone is waiting for me, Someone is needing my help.

He gripped slowly loosening as his face moved closer.

I took a large intake of air at the same time his hand and eyes didn't leave my neck but started massaging it soothingly, his other hand wiped away my tears. I stared at him with heavy breathing but he had no expression with him.

"None of this would happen if you just listened," he whispered as he moved to kiss my cheek. I wanted to move away because I was disgusted towards him but I was scared of what he might do next.

"Be a good girl" he muttered before walking out the room.

I can't help but sob silently, what will happen to me now?

What do I need to do?

I got out of bed and went near the glass window covered with blackout curtains.

I pushed it aside and the striking sunrise hit my eyes, making me flinch a little.

After my eyes adjusted, the clear view of the city was proudly displayed in my eyes. This is breathtaking. So I was in Jarred's building, I guess.

What a luxury. It will never get tired of surprising me I guess.

I need to take those kids out of that place and turn the orphanage down, or just the first option. I don't think I could turn down that orphanage without being involved in it. I've been working in that place and I might've ended up in jail which I absolutely don't want to happen.

But I could try to put up some plan. At least.

I pushed aside the thought and calmed myself with the view.

Let's take it all slowly.