Chapter 53

2019.11.21

Today is Sam's birthday. And I forgot. I am a terrible friend. I do own her.

2019.11.27

I was thinking today was Sam's birthday and I wished her today.

2019.12.12

Sam has not yet read my wishes for her. It was like she was busy and never existed. I screwed. I wanted to stop talking with anyone from my school. I want to cut ties with the school. I was having nightmares of the school. And no surprise Mr. J. J. Fortune was almost in all of the nightmares. I was not feeling well. I even tried to end my life thrice but stopped myself as I was scared that I will hurt my parents. They did a lot for me. If I ended it what will they go through.

2020.01.03

The results came out. I passed but not enough to enter the university. I sighed. I cried until my eye balls popped out. Others in my class passed well. Sally and Sam did not do well either, they failed some subjects. I could still remember the smile on Mr. Fortune's face when he heard my result. I do not know if it was pure happiness or devil happiness. Daniel passed really well and he was going to apply for the university. He even suggested me to apply to the same university he was going to apply. Yeah! We came friends over time. Once in a while we chat for half an hour.

My mother, her friends and some of my tuition sirs told me to do a second shy. I totally do not want to do another year. But after lots and lots of thought I decided to do the second time. I went to the Paper discussion tuition classes and spent my other time revising and checking Utube once in a while. Everything was going smooth.

2020.03.03

Covid-19 hit in our country too because of the immigrants. The classes shut down. I sat at home for the whole self-studying.

2020.03.25

I decided to call the biology sir and he said me that he had started the class long time ago, last month. My soul literally left my body. He then asked me, "Did not anyone tell you dear?" "No, sir. One of my mother's friend called my mother and said that some classes are being conducted online and told me call and ask the tuition masters." "You got some bad friends eh. I will send you a link to this number dear. You are Anna right?" "Yes, sir." "I think I can remember you." "You have to sir." He laughed and said not to worry that he will help me out. It was like he pitied me. Back in last years he loved me a lot and even on stage he told, 'You are a good girl.' Almost all the sirs really adored me a lot.

Sir sent me a link and I joined the group and also the Oogle classroom. I will be joining the next week. Like that I called all other sirs and got into the class. The chemistry sir scolded me at first and once I told him he sighed.

2020.06.12

Only the physics physical classes took place. Biology and Chemistry did not. I met up with some of the juniors and we became pretty close. From them I got to know that I had girl fans in their class for my beauty and skin color. I was flattered. They even said that they were jealous of my skin color and told me never to change it no matter what happens. We spent studying and sharing notes. We cheered for each other.

I met the junior who called me to ask about the Science Day. From one of my mother's friend's daughter I got to know that she was cunning. It was around the July last year that she messaged me about doing their batch Science Day. And guess what the teachers who once said that they were amazed by the Science Day of ours actually did not in reality. They had dissed how it looked like a forest. Is it them who did not understand the bloody concept? THE CONCEPT WAS WILDLIFE! Where were their heads living at? She started asking me where I did the presentations, files, certificates and medals. I said they were done by me and others were sponsored so I did not know. I was not willing to give the information away. She promised to send me photos of the day when I was boiling with frustration and thoughts of suicide. But she did not send any. She disappeared after the day took place. It was as if the day was not success as they spoke of. They had no financial stability. They were unable to give medals. Well, I smiled in evil. After sometime I got to know from my junior friends that she was very close with Mr. J. J. Fortune. I was relieved that I did not give any information on where I got my stuff done. Probably it was Mr. J. J. Fortune's idea. He was also struggled to get the expense book but I did not give it to him because I knew he would not return it to me and it was the only thing that will stay with me as a proof that I spent so much for the Science Day.

The Science Day junior came up to me and said 'hello'. I replied with a 'hi'. That was all. We did not talk much. And she spent most of her time alone or with some others.

2020.07.25

The exams postponed to September and some classes were conducted online and others physical. I attended both. I have to admit that online was not that great unless you are absolutely driven. Then again the internet browser welcomes you to search things that are absolutely not studies. I did not know how I should study and I regret that I should have studied better from the beginning of my Advanced Level rather waiting for the last moment that will never work unless you are gifted with genius.

I stayed up nights and woke up at four in the morning. Made a lot of short notes. I spent months on revising and doing past exam papers. I really tried hard but not hard enough.

2020.08.10

The exams are postponed again. It will be on the October second week. I got plenty of time but I was scared that I will forget what I had memorized if they keep postponing it like this. I was getting anxious. And good news I was finally slowly starting to get over with the Science Day Trauma. It is true that time heals because you will get new problems that will make you give up on the past.

2020.11.12

The exams are finally over. The exams were pretty tough tan the last year's. I regret that I should have studied really hard on my first try (We call it first shy over here.) I was scared that I screwed it up. I was only confident on my English paper, others Lord save me from the disaster.

2020.12.27

I was rotting at home not having to do anything at all. The whole country was under lockdown. I was only breathing, eating, watching videos and sleeping. And it was repeating in a loop. We were not supposed to waste any food or any resources because there was no business taking place that means there is no income.

My father suggested to do an import on clothes. I was quite trilled. My father introduced to a vendor who was a lady. I used my mother's phone to contact with her as I still got no phone. My father arranged for the import and wholla, I was now an Entrepreneur! It was going to be exciting!

2020.12.29

I created the logo using an online website. I made a stargram page to display my goods. But my father said not to do since it was a lot of hassle.