God or goddess? (Re)

I open my eyes only to find myself in a weird place which I can't describe , a place that no matter how hard I try can't remember a single detail.....

"weird" I thought to myself "

'yes, you are weird ' a voice resounded in my head

"wha-how can you speak in my mind? ", I ask that voice.

'it's not really difficult to converse with you , you and I are the same or more accurately you are a part of me.' the voice calmly replied.

"wha-"

'don't think about it, you won't understand it' the voice interrupted.

"okay"- I don't understand why I say it or why was I being so obedient.

" So show yourself, tell me who you are or where you are" I asked.

'I am everywhere and nowhere.' the voice replies.

"huh! what bullshit is that!? "

'I am present everywhere if you try to sense me or rather connect to me and if you try to find me than I am nowhere to be found' the voice peacefully explains

"oh! so you are God? " -I mocked him but still his voice sounded so peaceful.

'Yes, that's me' said the voice in my mind.

"heh! " I exclaimed,

'I want to meet you Ryo' the voice said

"hmm, who is Ryo? " I asked,

'it's your name ' the voice replies,

"huh? " Oh boy, I was perplexed,

'haha.. you don't remember it, do you? but you will remember it soon enough.' the voice laughs inside my head.

* the background twirl and spins until a figure of a fat humanoid with stars and cosmos engraved in it arrived. *

"huh! so this is your true form God!?"

'haha.. no this isn't my true form didn't I tell you before?'

"huh! oh, I remember so what is this?"

'This is an apparition of my Will which I am using to communicate with you. Didn't you say you want to see me?'

"hmm yes, so God why do you call me here? "

'I called you here to meet you'

"Oh! why God? "

'I can't tell you.'

" Why "

'Because it's not the time for it. I will tell you when the predestined time comes.'

" hmm? does that mean that my destiny is already predestined from the start? "

'No, no one can set others destiny not even I can do that'

"Not even God can do that? "

'Yes, everyone destiny is set by Themselves.

Always remember that. '

" So why can't you tell me my destiny. "

'I am afraid if I tell you then your destiny will change into something else because of my influence.'

"hmm , doesn't that means that our destiny will change with every person we met? "

'Yes and No but you are quite sharp aren't you?'

" hmm.. I don't know. " I shake my head.

'Hahaha... well then, rei let's meet again. You will remember everything after you get out of here.'

* my vision turned blurry*

" then God, what will happen to me?

* I started to black out*

'You will reincarnate.'

" re.. incarnate? "

'Yes'- the God replies

* the surroundings started to turn dark*

" then are you a God or a goddess? " I didn't know why I asked it.

The only thing I remember was getting a smile.... a smile that encompasses everything.

The light, the darkness, the truth and the fabrications.. Ah.. I finally remembered it..

... my memories* whispers*

At that time, I didn't know that something had changed inside me....

A change that was embedded far deeper then my own soul

A change that will later become my strongest support but also the strongest curse.