Chapter 5

Lucy's pov

Laxus abruptly pulled me on to his lap at that very moment. I squealed in surprise as I cling on to him for dear life not meaning to. I didn't mean to squeal but he seems to like it for some reason as I hide my face in his chest. I don't want him to see me blushing for some reason I feel very safe in his arms like nothing can hurt me when I'm here with him. I know that he's obviously a big strong s-class wizard but it's not just that I'm not sure what it is.

I try to wiggle out of his grasp but he's holding on firmly to my hips. He seems to be mesmerized by them which should make this a lot easier. I might have a chance of getting out of this I kiss him up and down his neck as he groans in appreciation. He loosens his hold ever so slightly. I glance at all my escapes and I choose. I go towards the bathroom which is the wrong decision. As soon as I lock the door I realize that I made that mistake I should've gotten out of here all together. "Lucy!" I hear him say my name through the wall that causes me to crawl up in a ball. That's probably because he starts pounding on the door after.

He's clearly not happy but a girls got to do what she needs to do. This was an emergency situation. Especially since we agreed on talking not whatever this is. It all just seems like a distraction to avoid talking. Even though he was the one who wanted to talk I just can't be sure though. I'm too confused about all of that I'm not going to think about it right now. "We can talk but from a distance" I say in a confident voice that surprises me. It seems to surprises him too but I can't be sure. I didn't even stutter which is amazing but it's not just that. I'm still me but a new and improved version of myself. At least he stops pounding on the door and anger. Man he has anger issues which is tiring to keep up with.

Also he's strong so that scares me too. I know that he will hurt me ever even as bad as he gets ever. At least I don't think so from what I've seen so far. "Stop it" I told myself not realizing I said it out loud until I saw Laxus face and he looks concerned. "Sorry I'm ok that wasn't intended for you" I say in an attempt to explain. We still want the conversation to say private so we stay in the bedroom. I'm on the couch and Laxus is on the bed looking like he wants to be right next to me but I kicked him off.

Anyways we should probably start talking I think to myself and say something about it. "What is it you wanted to talk about, you said that you wanted to talk last night?" I question. "Us he states plainly. I say "ok and" prompting him to say more with a motion of my hand in a continue gesture. "I want you to be mine and mine alone and I'll be yours only."He states fully leaving no room for questioning. After that I just stay silent and I can't even move or talk even though there are a lot of things I want to say. I think about all what it would be like to be with him but the word relationships bring up a lot of past memories.

I start to panic I thinking about them feeling like I'm reliving them all over again and without noticing I'm breathing hard and my whole body is shaking but I can't seem to move. I just crawled up in a fetal position where I am on the couch. "I'm sorry" I say muffled in the blanket. He goes to move next to me slowly easing on to the couch but I dart right off the couch. I move to stand right in front of him. "I'm sorry I guess I was reading the wrong signals from you" he says. I shake my head in protest "what? No I do like you actually a lot" I say blushing. "but that's not the point I was just thinking about my past relationships that weren't so good.

Well at first they were I thought that he actually cared for me which is not true he just used me. They all started off real nice and gave me things but when I would say anything they would yell and hit me. They called me names like a slut and used me to have sex with them even when I protested and said I didn't want to. I felt dirty and used for the longest time by them. It got worse they just hit me with like belts or whatever else was around and burn me. I got so used to it I didn't say anything or tell anyone."

I look up at Laxus once I finish talking to see his fists clenched and his jaw locked tight. It feels like a huge weight was lifted off my chest just by saying it. I can't say for sure if he's mad at me or them but I'm pretty sure it's them "Laxus, are you ok?" I ask him even though I know it's stupid. "Am I OK?!? The love of my life just told me that these bastards hurt her. She probably thinks I'm like and will hurt her just like them!" He says starting off yelling and then gets quieter because he knows how much it upsets me.

I blink my eyes in surprise at his words and take a step back. He plopped back on the bed real hard after standing up. He buries his head in his hands and I'm pretty sure I hear him crying. I look around us around the room and still see no one else even after that. "Laxus" I whisper" I'm so sorry, I do care about you I just need some time to heal. I don't think that you're the same as them and will do that to me." I explained it all to him in the best way I know I possibly can." Can I see them" he says in a hoarse voice. I'm confused for a second then I get, the scars he wants to see the scars. Sure I didn't tell him about then but Laxus is no idiot.

Will she show him her scars?

How will he react?

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