Chapter 1

Alice.

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"All you need to understand is that you are going through depression it's like you're alone but it doesn't have to be like that I'm here everyone is here, like your family and friends, communication is what you need to master but other than that there is nothing else, do you have any questions?"

Oh if only she knew. She's a therapist trying to make me feel better yet she knows nothing about me, she just wants me to be one of her little projects. I'm nothing but a charity case, I'm a broken girl she's trying to fix.

She doesn't know what she's talking about, she doesn't care if I get better she only cares for her pocket, the fact that she was wearing cashmere just proved my point.

" No, thank you for your help I understand, " I said trying to get this over with

"O, that's all for today see you next week"

"Yea ok " I quickly scrambled to my feet and I walked out of there with my head down.

I've been going to therapy for two weeks now and it's the same shit every day she just blabbers on about how I'll be ok and I leave.

I was nearing my home it was just around the corner. It's weird to call it home without granddad there, but it'll always be my home no matter what happens.

When I entered the house my brother staggered towards me and I automatically knew he was drunk.

He's been coming home drunk for the past week, he says it's a way of trying to forget it's my birthday tomorrow .well at least I'm not going to therapy for the next few days.

For my safety, I quickly slipped past him cause I knew if I didn't I would get a slap to the face.

After the long day I had, I desperately needed a cold shower, I love cold water.

I stripped down and hopped in the shower. The only mistake I made was not locking my bedroom door and my bathroom door.

Not even three minutes passed from when I was just trying to wash my face when my mother came in.

"You little tramp I take care of you and you don't even say hi to me is that how I raised you"

Raised me? This bitch doesn't even know the meaning of the word.

All those times she made my life a living hell is raising me.

What I said next surprised me.

"What, you want a medal bitch ?"

I can't believe I just said that I'm getting it now. My mouth worked faster than my brain, but I couldn't tell her that could I.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean that please forgive me"

I think I was foaming at the mouth when I said those words. I felt sick, without thinking all I ate in the last two hours came up and the worst thing happened I threw up on her .it's not my fault she was in front of me and was as close to my face as really close.

It all escalated so quickly all I saw was her covered up in puke and she ran out of my room screaming.

I sincerely didn't mean that cause now I have to face my Uncle, so before he could come I brushed my teeth and finished what I started bathing. it felt so good when I came out of the bath clean and refreshed.

I only had a towel on when I started cleaning the puke on the carpet by cleaning I mean rolling it up and throwing it away.

Before I could even react Uncle Mat came in yelling all the type of curses he could think of and my stupid ass was standing there in a towel, but the idiot didn't even notice he kept spewing nonsense.

I was scared shit less. I would never call him an idiot in his face.

Hing me up and down and I just started to take a few steps away from him .he obviously noticed my uncomfortable shaking.

"Look I'm not going to hurt you so just stop that."

"Stop what?"

"Backing away from me I promise I won't hurt you "

"Says the person looking at me like something to eat ."

"I won't force you to have sex with me Alice I'm not that big of a monster." He said looking genuine but I knew better than to trust this pig.

"Yeah right since when?"

"Since you started being scared of me ."

"Ha, and you want me to believe you because you've become some type of Angel right? Go to hell." I said with a straight face I looked like a lioness but inside I felt like my ass was quivering out of fear.

" Do you think I would rape you?" I asked again looking all sincere

" What type of questions is that ofc I think you'd rape me," I yelled.

"Why though I have never hurt you in any way

This man was mad he's got bipolar issues I can see.

"Why? Because you're od for nothing man you slapped me last week just cause I forgot to bring your beer the fuck is wrong with you? Get out of my room. NOW!!"

He NOW!! staring at me looking shocked at my choice of words

"Leave" I screamed.

That's when he left and I was just happy he didn't snap and hit me

I then put on my nightie and started writing in my journal.

15 June 2018

Today has been a weird day. Thomas still insists on drinking so he can forget my birthday .but luckily he did not hit me today. I still love him though even after all he is my flesh and blood

Mom on the other hand almost hit me but I accidentally threw up on her .she hates me more now .and I wish I can say I hate her but I don't I love her with all of my heart

Uncle Mat is OK I guess he was trying to act all nice to me but I saw right through his facade.

I miss my grandfather I wish he was with me, unfortunately not all wishes come true.

And with that, I fell asleep.