Realization

My name is juno and I'm 3 years old. It looks like I've been reincarnated to this world where magic exist. In my previous life, I've led a life full of shame. I rarely go to school, i never study and my result of the examination was never been good but still my parent never mad at me and that was when i started to take advantage of my parent kindness.

My parent always take care of me even after i tell them that i don't want to work and I want stay in my room. Even though i was like that my parents still take care of me.... One day my parents decide to celebrate my birthday by surprising me who are still stuck in the room. I heard their conversation about it

"What a stupid things to do..." I murmured

After my parent leave the house i start playing games all day long even though I'm 22 years old. Several hours has passed and there during that moment I got a news that my parents die by an accident.... I was shocked but I couldn't careless about my parent death and that was when my siblings decided to beat me up after i haven't come to the funeral and throw me out of the house... I was very angry about it but i can't fight back because my hands was broken and my head was messed up after being beat up by a baseball bat. After that they kick me out from the house, I wander around the town at night looking like that and then I saw some guy got surrounded by a gangster. Without a slightest fear, I ran to help the guy.

( I don't know why but all this time I've never thinking of saving someone )

I ran into the gangster and punch him in the face with my other hand which was not broken.

( I don't know why i do that but probably just because i want to release my anger at someone )

the thugs and his friend suprised..

"Wu- wut the hell! You wanna get killed?!"

I told the guy to get out of quickly here and before i knew, I got stabbed twice... And then I remember something, that guy I help out was not just a random guy but my bestfriend back in High School. He look at me suprised by my sudden appearance

"Well if this is how it's gonna end... this isn't too bad....."

Then i remember my bestfriend always there for me even when I'm not going to school. It kind of annoyed me back then because how he's always come to my house to meet and ask me to go to school even though i never plan to. And one day

"Stop asking me to go to school you SHITHEAD!! Listen i don't want to go to school and I never intend to, and also don't ever come to my house again. Now GET THE FUCK OUT!!"

My friend just reply with

"Ok but if you ever need my help just ask me I'll always be there for you..."

I regret after what I've done in my previous life. I regret what I'm doing to my best friend and in this new life I've decided to work hard to become a better person...

Back when I was still a child, everyone praise me for my intelligent and sportsmanship but when I get older everyone around me start to be better than me and I got left behind. When I was in highschool ( age 16 ) my friend start to ditch me because I got no redeemable qualities and then starting that I start to not go to school. No matter how hard I try, I can't surpass them... That time I was thinking

"Maybe i don't have any talent."

I only have my bestfriend to hang out with... but i don't care anymore... My bestfriend with a good looks and with so many talent compare to me.... I was irritated by that. It was a matter of time until he start to left me alone... but he didn't and I regret ignoring him who are my only friend that I have left....

It looks like I've been reincarnated to another world, currently I'm 3 years old right now. In this world, mana exist in the air and limitless amount of mana can be use if you manage to absorb the surrounding mana. According to my research, yeah a 3 years old baby is doing a research. My parents got a book for me to study about this world and it appears that if you manage to absorb the surrounding mana and use it, your body needs to handle the pressure of mana that enter your body... so to summarize it

(You can absorb mana surrounding you but the mana you absorb is more dense than your body can handle so if you absorb too much of mana your body will explode because the incompatible of mana in your body and the surrounding)

so that's what it is. Well even if you can't absorb mana from the air, you can still use the mana inside your body. Technically your body got a core that absorb mana from the air but the mana recovery rate is slow because the core lower the density of mana from the air and absorb it into your body... yeah that's all I got from my research for 3 years. If you wanna know about me, I can use magic. I manage to create a kindle because i was thinking on how to create fire from using the formula of Oxygen + Fuel + Heat =fire.... but the air only got oxygen so i tried create a fuel with my mana.. it looks like mana can be whatever we want it to be, it can be either oxygen/fuel/heat but this time I'm using the mana as a fuel but right now i lack the ability to make the heat... and when I was thinking that I realized that the atoms in fuel will began to vibrate like crazy when they were start to heat up, so I start to vibrate the atom in fuel myself without using heat and it looks like it can be done... I do it once for 5 minute and my mana ran out and then I passed out... since then i trained myself to create a bigger fire than before. Well before we ending the 3 years old arc.

If you wanna know, both my parents can use magic but they are like normal villager where they can only use magic to heat things up or water magic to wash some clothes... so yeah my parents are normal people.