Loneliness is something that's often pushed off
They say you wouldn't understand what loneliness is like because you're too young
You have so many people with you on this journey…how dare you claim to be lonely?
How dare you claim to be sadden by said loneliness?
Are you joking? Are you ungrateful? Are you overreacting?
When in reality loneliness doesn't start or stop at a certain age
In transforms from a sudden point in your life where you stopped feelings apart of something and started feeling away from people
You can say that loneliness feels so empty but you try to make it seem full
You don't enjoy sitting in your dark room all day by yourself
Admit it. You do want to go see others and speak to others
But you can't. Your mind won't allow it.
Your body is against it.
And your ears are closed off.
You're stuck in a small bubble that most carry to pop only for you to blow up on them
You get angry so quickly because you don't know how to react
You can't comprehend what's happenings because you daydream as they speak
You don't put in your opinion because you know it'll go unheard
If you truly are lonely you understand that it hurts so much to see people your age living your dream life
While you sit in your dark room pretending to love the silence
But…
In a sense you do love the silence
It calms you and entertains you
Making you feel like you are in a state of relaxation
Your minds at ease and your body is light
And when you're in a state of peace some people mistaken it for loneliness
But in reality you only feel lonely when you're around others
And when you're only you feel included