my miserable childhood

I went to the room and I felt as guilty as never before ..As I lay down there in my bed I remembered my terrible childhood and I could just see everything so clearly about everything that happened to me..

My daddy was a cop and my mom like any other mom was a housewife and things went terrible when my mom cheated on my dad with another man I feel miserable and hated my mom for so long and i still do ..I feel terrible for my dad every time I think of it for dad the day he caught mom was supposed to be their happiest day it was their 20th anniversary and dad wanted to surprise my mom so he took a ticket to come back here in this city(as a cop he was transfer to another city) he told my mom he was sorry that he couldn't come and I was right there hearing my dad and seeing my mom feel miserable (probably acting) I hated my dad at that moment what job could he ever be in that he don't have time for mom

Later my mom dressed up and told me she is going to her favorite restaurant and that she needs some time alone

I nodded in a yes and smile back to her and I remember adding have a great time mommy

she smiled and left after three to four hours my dad came in I was so happy and surprised at the same time.. I hug him he asked me where my mom was..and I told him that mom went to her favorite restaurant my dad asked me to take him there and I agreed as happy as I could be I imagined my mom expression which makes me more excited

We went in there but mom was not found so we assume mom might be somewhere else so we just plan to wait for her at home and surprise her .As we were walking I saw a girl like mom so I pointed it to my dad and dad after careful observation lied to me that it was not my mom but I know what my mom looks like I do so even if my dad was unwilling I insisted and pull him where my mom was

My mom was right there holding another man hand and as soon as I saw that angrier arose even though I was only ten years old but daddy told me that it was not mom but someone who matches her..Silent and still my dad took me home and he sign a document I asked him what it was and he didn't hide anything from me he knelt and told me Son the woman we met earlier was your mom and(in a shaking voice)the man he was holding was her lover..

dad I said and wept his tears away

He further continued and told me everything the divorce paper and everything about it..

He asked me a question gently and softly son you have to decide whether you'll stayed with me or your mom

dad I'll never leave you I'll stay with you dad smiled and soon mom returned home in silent my dad told me to step inside my room which I obeyed but I peep at them through a small hole in the door

Mom was unapologetic while dad was feeling guilty for no reason he handed her the paper and saw mom signing it with contentment..

After some time they called me mom touch my shoulder and asked honey whom do you like the best??

(I replied honestly and told)mom you

mom smiled but I added daddy I like mom the best but I loved you dad and I went and hug my dad and turn to mom and told her she needed to leave(in tears) my dad added I'll send your clothes and your accessories you may take it tomorrow its your decision where you want to spend the night!Her last words were you know where to send I have my place to sleep and he slammed the door and left everything behind me dad and our memories I cried and so did dad but we are better and happier now