Chapter 5

Somewhere in the hospital

In Bella's room

The room is as silent as a graveyard with only the occasional beeping from the mechanical ventilator.

Beep

Beep

Beep

"Mom….dad it's almost time "says Sarah while holding Bella's hand

"Already? .... I guess it's time to go. I wonder what's happens when one die,

well I guess it for the best, I can't continue being a burden to my family" says Bella bracing herself for what is to come.

"I should be happy that am finally going to be released from this cage called my body. That I will no longer be subjected to imprisonment in my own body and I will finally stop being a burden to everyone,to my family,friends,doctors and even the nurses who always clean up after me. I can finally set everyone free from my troubles. I don't know am supposed to feel happy but am not,I feel this paralyzing fear in my mind when ever I think about death. I feel heart ache at the thought that I will have to leave my family broken,sad and guilty.I can't even say my last words to them to tell then how much I appreciate having such an amazing family,to tell them that everything that happened was never their fault that they shouldn't eat theirselves with guilt,that I forgive them for anything they've done,that am thankful for them fighting for me even when everyone lost hope and that I love them so much even more than they can imagine and that I will continue loving them more. I just want to scream I love you so loud but I can't. Who knew something so insignificant like blinking my eyes,licking my lips or even picking my nose will be something that I Long so much to do.

But I don't want to die,I want to hear my mom tell me all about what the neighbors did or my sister talk about who is cheating and being cheated on in college or my dad talk about how his boss always makes him work extra hours. I no longer wish to run around while soaking up the sun or opening my eyes to see my family beautiful faces or being able to smile beautifully,I just want to be here with my family even if all I can do is to listen. But you don't always get what you want so I guess I just have to deal with it,which makes me wonder how one deals with death. I just pray that my family will be alright.

"My dear Bella I just want you to know that I love you and Sarah are the best things that ever happened to me and I know that you may resent us for what we did to you but I hope that you will forgive us. I pray that you will go to a better place where you will be able to run and play freely without anything holding you down" says Mr John smiling as tears roll down his cheeks.

"I would never forget the day I held you in my arms and you looked at me with those little brown eyes of yours, you held onto my pinky so tightly that I thought it was a death grip, the way you smiled showing those pink gums while laughing so sweetly which made my heart melt. I knew at that moment that my life was complete,I didn't want anything else than to be with you and your sister. To spend my whole life caring for both of you no matter what it cost but sometimes life is so cruel. It took away your spirit leaving only a listless body behind. Though am happy that your still alive but sometimes I wished you weren't. When I look at you plugged to so many machines struggling to keep you breathing I feel so hearth broken that my child who usually runs marathons can't even move. I thought so many times of taking you off all these machines to relieve you of this suffering but I always fall back on that tiny seed of hope that you might wake up someday. That one day when I enter the room you will smile and waving at me telling me your all better but it never came true. I know that one can't always have what they want and I have tried to live with the fact that my daughter is half dead but I can't seem to bring my self to say it out loud even though I know deep down that it's true. I just want you to know that I love you so very much and you will always be mama's little baby." Says Mrs John crying heavily while stroking Bella's face lovingly.

The room returns to silence with only the sound of sobbing

Door opens

Doctor Ray and two of the nurses who gossipped about the John's family enters

Door closes

"Ahem…. Am sorry to inform you Mr and Mrs John but it's time" says doctor Ray as he progresses to Bella's bed with the two nurses.

"But doctor can't you give us a little more time, I can get the money for you but please don't take my sister off the oxygen"says Sarah crying heavily while pleading with doctor Ray

"Am sorry but I can't do anything to help you, am afraid taking Mrs Bella off the treatment is inevitable...…am truly sorry" says doctor Ray

"But doctor...

Stop

"It's enough Sarah"

"But mom,Bella's going to…

Stop it says Mrs John while going to hug Sarah inorder to restrain her but also comforts her"

"You go ahead doctor"says Mrs John while looking away from Bella's bed while tears roll down her face

The two nurse advance towards Bella.

One first took off her IV while the other proceeds to turn off the oxygen and takes off the oxygen masks afterwards

Immediately the oxygen is taken off the EkG machine flares up while the sound of crying increases in the room.The machine eventually becomes silent making the room descend into another round of silence

"Time of death 00:34" says doctor Ray

" My condolences"says doctor Ray while leaving the room with the two nurse.