Chapter 07

It was already past 2 pm, I kept my eyes closed, some silly thoughts were wandering in my head and a single sound, a beautiful song that came from a bird, made me hesitate to get out of bed just to see it. A good breeze, the sun coming in through the window, nothing bothered me, it was pure calm and peaceful moment, my soul was light. I got up from the bed, sat close to the window, where the sun's rays couldn't reach me, and there it was, in a tree branch in the middle of so many others, singing beautifully without any concerns, I admired it until it flapped its wings and went chirping somewhere else.

Do you know that day which you wake up well and alive, by your own, full of good wills and positive thoughts? When peace takes over you and makes you overflow in calm gestures, smiles to the wind just for the sake of smiling, denying any negativity that appears in your ways? It was like this, just like this, for some mysterious reason. And it was good, good to wake up meaning to enjoy every second, every simple detail of life, the desire to feel alive, to smile without many reasons.

I changed my shirt, put on flip-flops, pinned my hair, put on my headphones, and selected the best songs from my cell phone and listened to them loudly and to the max, then I went down the stairs and left without direction, I wanted to walk for a while, even without company and even that the streets of my condo were almost empty in that time. It made me want to walk, to feel the sun on my skin, to see the leaves of the trees swaying from side to side as the breeze passed between them.

After walking a few minutes and being far from home, I sat near a park, not an amusement one, an old and musky playground. I sat there barely by the entrance under a tree. When I felt my cell phone vibrating, I pulled it out with my fingertips from the tight pocket of my shorts, I confess that the way I was sitting didn't help much, but anyway, it was a message from Nicolas.

Nicolas: Hi

Isabella: Hi

Nicolas: So, how are doing

Isabella: I'm good, what about you?

Nicolas: everything is great

Isabella: What are you doing now?

Nicolas: I was studying, I'm lying on the couch watching a program and you?

Isabella: I'm walking alone in the playground near the center

Nicolas: would you accept my humble company?

Isabella: yes, I would love to

It didn't take him long and there he was coming towards me

Nicolas: do you always like to go out alone like this

Isabella: yes, sometimes, responding thoughtfully

Nicolas: So, tell me about yourself.

Isabella: Well, I'm 17 years old, I'm about to finish my 3rd year of high school, I'm an only child, I love books and I love music and singing, my best girlfriends called Paula and Rafaela, my best friend called Lucas

Nicolas: so, you like music and singing, huh? so I also like music and singing.

he continued

I am 20 years old, my mother is Brazilian, my father is German, they split up when I was 16, after the separation I went to live with my father in Germany, and my younger brother stayed here in Brazil living with my mother. When I turned 18, I came back to Brazil to visit my mother, I ended up staying for a longer time, I took the entrance exam for medicine and I passed, and with that I started living here because of the course. I have been a Christian convert since I was 14, anyway …. long story short, that's it.

Isabella: you are much more interesting than I thought

Nicolas: well. you found me interesting? my smile vanished as I realized what I had just said, I was super embarrassed

Isabella: yes, I said. shy and confused I asked: Have you always wanted to study medicine?

Nicolas: yes, I am fascinated by human body and medicine, my father is also a neurologist, he's my great inspiration

Isabella: that's pretty much it. I wish you all the luck and success in the world

Nicolas: Thank you!

Nicolas: any boyfriend?

Isabella: No actually .as a matter of fact, I've never dated before

Nicolas: Wow. Why is that? I believe it was not for lack of suitors, I mean, you are very beautiful

Isabella: Thank you. I don't know how to explain it, I don't know, I've never been so interested in someone that I want to get involved with, you know?

Nicolas: I see, but don't you think about dating, getting married, having children?

Isabella: Oh yes, I do, but I think that for each person there is another right one, as a soul mate you know, I know that this seems like a fairy tale, an illusion, but I believe that sooner or later someone will arrive into my life, and I will know it, I'll know that he is the right person for me. And I prefer to wait for that someone than hurting myself in relationships that won't take me anywhere, than giving myself to someone and then have to retreat because it's not my place.

Nicolas: Wow, I already saw that you are intense even with words, -making me smile- I also think like you, but I don’t think that for each person there is the right one I frowned at his words

Isabella: don't you think?

Nicolas: no. I don't think so, I'm sure Isabella. A while ago I decided not to have a relationship with any girl, I decided that I would pray, sleep on It and believe that God would bring me the right girl, at the right time. Most people judge me for that, they think it's stupid, silly, they say that I don't need to do this, I really don't, but I do. And I confess, I already gave up a few times, because it is very difficult. But then I saw that waiting was the best, because God always has the best for us, and he makes everything happen at the right time.

Isabella: This is very sweet Nicolas, this waiting for love stuff is awesome, believing that it will come, saving yourself for the right one without even having concrete proof that it will arrive, just waiting for faith, is incredible. Despite doing practically the same, it is difficult to find men willing to do so and live this way, that we ended up giving up on so many people who even seem to be the ideal suitor, but beep down we believe and hope for something much bigger and that it will not end over a silly fight, a futile reason, a betrayal or any other reason, it just won't end ...

Nicolas: exactly. Sometimes when I got frustrated and thought about giving up all of this, I wanted to try everything in my own way, just to see if I can be happy too, but the great truth is that we never know for sure what we are doing until we see the result, and believe me, God's plans are far greater in our lives, and every effort has its thoughtful reward for a brief moment, starting from the ground.

Isabella: More men should think like you, for you information you're an amazing guy

Nicolas: more women should be like you

I felt the cell phone vibrating again and it was the cell phone alarm, it was time to study and do other silly chores

Isabella: damn it I said looking at cell phone

Nicolas: what happened?

Isabella: oh, it's not a big deal, I have to go now I said with a dissatisfied face, because I was really dissatisfied, I wanted to talk more

Nicolas: Okay, I can take you home if you want

Isabella: yes, I do

We went the whole way talking nonsense, I got home and soon I went to my homework and studies, but my thoughts were only with Nicolas