Chapter 12

L's POV YEAR 2201

I was breathing heavily only seeing red as this guy kept trying to fuck with me but I kept pushing away and today I wasn't in the damn mood but he made the choice to fuck with me " hey hey girly!" He yelled as he walked to me. I was just eating while hearing these kids arguing and it was making me angry for some reason...I then recalled what happened yesterday.

*flashback*

I sat there in the car watching the world fly by like it wasn't even real "I think this will really help you L" Em said as she hand a hand on my knee soothingly rubbing it "look Em I don't need pity or empathy" I replied messing with my rings on my hand they were wolf rings that was connected to a thick leather bracelet on my wrist as I watched my black jean covered knee bounce up and down " I know but you are growing and you already cut your hair and it's very beautiful but still...." Em mentioned my haircut I done this summer because I was getting tired of my long hair

I had dyed it dark blue and streaked with dark red "it will regrow back Em now why am I going to this place?" I asked still confused about why " I have no idea I just got a message to tell me to take you here and they even gave me the rules which is surprising" she said as she took her hand off my knee and put it back on the steering wheel "I can tell you them so you know what to suspect" she said but I just shook my head and put my headphones on listening to Music

By the time the songs got done I looked up to see what looked not too bad but it definitely wasn't going to be fun here I sigh as I got out and grab my bags " you will be here for two years" Em said reading the message but I didn't care as long as I could escape this cold world I looked at my left arm looking at the faded scars that I put there just a little bit over a year ago when my depression came to kick me in the damn ass I have been having problems with depression since 5th grade I didn't really like therapy so I only went a few times but it was pretty much useless all they did was ask me questions and didn't even give me like a paper to help like 'say positive things to yourself. Keep reminding yourself why you are here.' Or some shit not even a contact number just in case I needed it. It made me pissed but I walked inside and Em got me checked in and we went to my room after a damn examination of me that included weight and blood pressure I groaned and looked around my room it was slightly cozy with a nice bed and I large window that had a little edge that you could sit on there was a desk but I saw a very short charge most people say that having your phone is rare but I shrug it off there wasn't things that you could hang or injured yourself with like everything was slanted and the ceiling was very tall and out of reach the light was inside of the ceiling meaning out of reach as well no sharp objects at all I read there was a blank room for if you have a outburst that might as well be my home with how much I burst out by accident just a little fucked in the mean I chuckle and sat down putting my stuff down as I looked out the window there was a River a little ways but I saw that the outside was close off meaning it was chained around the end of the property which was like halfway to the river." I hope you do good. I know when Safaera left you lost that grounding..." Em said as she sat at my desk it was true when she left I understood why but after a month I felt abandoned.....like no one was there and I was depressed when she left...it was kinda like she walked towards a light I couldn't touch or I would be thrown into the darkness again so I forcefully had my arms open and she left...."that doesn't matter she most likely left because she couldn't deal with my ass anymore" I laugh slightly as I started to unpack after that was done I went downstairs and got some food and ate but this guy wouldn't leave me alone now I don't hate alll men but I just hate every other kinds of men because...well they are dogs but straight girls would say different "hey hey cutie!" The boy said and wrapped a arm around my waist I looked at him"...please don't touch me..." I pulled away but he grabbed me again "awww does the cutie can't handle a big strong man?!!!"He laugh I somehow got away and went to my room where kid was "HELLO IM AIR!" He said happily and I smiled then a nurse came in "I will be y'alls nurse and my name is Sofie" she said then left and I nodded but the boy who touched me made me angry.....

I looked at him and immediately started punching him hard "look! The boy can't handle a girl!" I laugh and kept hitting him not realizing blood was on my hands and the staff pulled me off him and dragged me to this blank ass room and I just screamed in rage "FUCK THIS SHITTTT!!!!!!!" I screamed and panted softly and sat down on the bed there was I wonder how long I'm gonna be here....I hope it's only a few minutes