Chapter 30

L's POV YEAR 2204

I walked to Safaera and almost stabbed her through her head but I stopped when everything suddenly went black and I saw a Me standing in front of me "Why?" She asked and I was confused "Why end her life?" She said again and I growled "Why end her life if you need her?" She said then looked at me and I was shocked she looked exactly like me just with Green eyes I saw the black rose in her hand "L you know this isn't you....." she said and I looked away and rubbed my neck as I thought of the dreams I had it was a tiny me and Safaera running around being happy but-"you know her you just blocked her out so you forgot the pain" the lady said as she made me look at her "Who-Who are you?" She smiled softly and kissed my forehead " I'm your mother but you really do look like me" she gently stroked my cheek "I never saw you and I sadly never will...now tell me why you want to end here?" She gently grabbed the sword out of my bloody hand and I suddenly became emotional and just broke down my mother gently held me as I cry "I know baby it's hard" she rubbed my back soothingly "I-I don't know why!" I said crying "you become lost babygirl it's normal" she said as I cried more soon after some time I stopped "I just wanted her back...." I muttered as I wiped more tears away I looked around the room to saw it in pure black it was beautiful but...I saw my mother staring at the black rose and she handed it to me "baby doll I know this is hard but...you have changed and you have destroyed yourself and now you are hurting your friend" she said and I nodded "tell me a Robin quote" she said and I looked at her shocked and confused but I tried "...."nothing came to mind but she said one "a Robin is a True Knight we take the hits to protect others we are people not mechanics sometimes it's alright to cry it shows we are not scared to show we can't always be strong " she said "huh sounds...nice.."a picture suddenly flash in my mind "say one" she said and I took a breath " We are like Roses we need someone to care for us and we will be enchanting to them forever but we are also like the petals we need to leave to do our own thing" she smiled and takes a breath and we both spoke "we are royalty and we don't wish to be treated as such but we will treat our lovers like kings queens and Royalty" I smiled but suddenly I was back at the arena seeing Safaera bloody and shirtless my sword almost touching her head I growled and threw my sword "I END THIS FIGHT!!!" I yelled loudly and Safaera looked at me with relief but hate as well I picked her up and walked to my locker room once I put her down I got slapped hard but I dare didn't look at her "HAVE YOU DONE LOST YOUR GODDAMN MIND YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT?!" She slapped me again and again and kept doing it for 10 minutes soon she stopped and calmed I slowly looked at her to see her taking deep breath's I soon looked at all the wounds I did to her I wanted to cry and apologize but I know that won't work " take a shower..." I said as I looked throw my spare clothes and she looked at me in raged again "Did you just-" "no" I cut her off "take a shower so the wounds can heal.." I said and looked at her she must have seen the look in my eyes because she didn't say anything else and just left I pulled out a T-shirt and jeans I went to the shower area and placed them down I then went back to the locker area and started to clean my wounds ignoring the pain I was in I then heard her soft patter of her feet I looked at her and she smiled softly and guiltily "don't feel bad" I grunted as my leg twitched "I tried to tell her not to hurt you too much..." she mumbled as she looked at me leg " I-" I wanted to apologize but I didn't instead I lay back and let her heal my leg "I know and you don't have to apologize I know it's not your thing so I forgive you" she said as she smiled at me and I'm positive I melted "But!-Ow!" She flick right where I got cut and it stings "shut the fuck Up and be glad I don't make you beg for forgiveness" she said seriously and I nodded because I know she isn't lying  I once accidentally hit her puppy and I had to beg for three hours on my hands and knees whilst bowing my back wasn't happy with that at all I was only 10 as well "now go shower" she said and I did just that I then heard someone storming in the shower and dragged me out " HELP!!" I yelled only to realize it's Astral and I was scared shitless "Beg!" She yelled loudly and pointed to the ground Safaera tried to calm her sister but that didn't work " Beg or I make you beg in pain!!" She yelled and I got on my hands and knees whilst bowing and it's super embarrassing when you are naked but your crush isn't and her big sister is making you beg for forgiveness " Now!" She said and I jumped as I took a breath " Please forgive me Dragonborn what I did was unforgivable and I will never let myself live it down if I could I would punish myself to the darkest place I can think of" I said while blushing heavily "See there she beg now let her go back-" Nope"Safaera tried to reason with her sister but she won't accept it "Beg more you fucking killer!" I sighed and after two hours of begging with additional help to shorten the time Astral finally let me go and I hid in the shower two hours more then needed once I came out I saw my S Class clothes out so I put them on I ran out of the arena area to actually bump into Safaera but I quickly flipped us so I hit the ground "Oof!" Safaera looked at me in worry "I'm good...." no I'm not my back feels like it just broke "good because I don't want you more hurt also stop running so much " she said and I nodded still dying from the pain in my back